Anxiety With A Side of Dread

I love going to my weekly WW meetings.  Even on days like today I wish I could go now (as opposed to waiting until 6.)  But this is the first week I’ve been filled with excitement and dread.  Bare with me please because I hope that by putting my feelings in print I’ll feel better. 

I’ve lost  24 pounds, but last week my weight stayed the same.  And I’m afraid to say it’s going to again today if not worse…And I’ve worked hard.  I’ve eaten the right things, exercised a lot and even upped the resistance on my exercise bike.
I was weighed and measured before I worked out at the gym yesterday, and the scale showed that I was .2 pounds more than my weight at WW last week.  Now, the scales are not exact, I’m sure. But I remember them being pretty close at least.  My point is that I don’t expect a loss this week either which makes me sad and aggravated. 
On a brighter note, I am happy to have lost another 6 1/2 inches.  It just doesn’t seem like enough because the prior month I lost 10 inches. I know we’ll all have ups and downs as we go through this, but I have to be honest…I hate feeling like I’m not doing enough or like I’m just treading water when trying to reach a goal.  
So regardless of what I see on the scale this week, I have a plan.  And I’d be more than happy to hear your input. 
Here it is: 
  • I’m going to rotate walking outside with using the bike because maybe I just need to change it up.  It’s hard to believe my body could be used to the bike, especially because I change the resistance and everything.  But it’s worth a shot, right? 
  • I’ll also start each day with an egg (either boiled or scrambled in olive oil spray) then work on my fiber in take later in the day. 
  • And I’m going to try to cut down on carbs.  I’m not saying that I’ll give up carbs.  In my opinion, that is completely unrealistic if my goal is to continue to lose weight.  I’m just going to try to eat some carbs before I work out and lean protein again after a work out. 
  • And I’m going to get excited about my next weigh-in because I know that if I keep eating well and exercising that I will see the results I hope to see at some point soon.
I know that I would lose faster if I quit working out with weights, but that’s just not an option for me.  Because skinny does not = healthy. I want to be thin and pretty, but I also want to be toned and healthy.  
Maybe at some point I’ll share more about what brought me to this point and why I think it’s so important to be toned and strong.  But for now, I’ll leave it at this: 
I want to come out of this journey being healthier and smarter about how I eat and exercise than I had originally thought possible. 🙂  That’s how I’ll be able to maintain the changes I’ve made throughout the rest of my lifetime. 

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4 Comments

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    Lynn
    June 18, 2009 at 6:41 pm

    It sounds like you are headed in the right direction. It does stink to work so hard and not get the results you have worked so hard to achieve. Keep your chin up, your helpin to motivate others too!

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    ♥ Kenz ♥
    June 18, 2009 at 7:08 pm

    Thanks Lynn! And I'll post after the results, regardless of what they are. And I'll keep working at it. I don't give up. 🙂

    It means so much to me, especially on days I feel like junk, to know that I have support from others. And to think I could motivate someone else makes me totally happy. 🙂

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    Connie Weiss
    June 18, 2009 at 11:02 pm

    Good Luck today!

    I think it is a very good idea to change up your workout (walking outside) because our bodies do get used to how we are doing things and adjust themselves.

    Keep up the good work!

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    G
    June 19, 2009 at 7:35 pm

    You were worried without good reason. What is it that you tell me? Don't worry about it unless it becomes something to worry about. You are wise, my K so take your own advice.

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