Beauty Reflection Shopping weight loss

What Would Be Different?

I like to tell myself that my weight doesn’t hold me back from doing things I want to do, but I’m full of $h^t. Don’t get me wrong…I have done a lot of fantastically cool, live-out-your-dreams kind of stuff in the last couple of years. But there is more to be done which is another motivating factor on my weight loss agenda.

Instead of concentrating on what I cannot do, I thought I’d talk about a few things I want to do — or just do better than I’m doing now.

I want to play golf without feeling self-conscious. I want to play well, but I’m so overweight now that I KNOW I’m not playing to my full potential. (Okay, I could probably use some more golf lessons from my gorgeous and wonderful, tall, Scottish, pro-golfer status friend, Gordon too. I’m just saying.) But I also want to play more often since I talk about it much more than I do it now. And, most importantly, I want to wear adorable pink LaCoste skirts when I play because looking the part is almost as much fun as the perfect shot.

I also want through Grand Central Station ( in the middle of NYC) without being the slowest person on the sidewalk. And I know I’ll utilize the subway a lot more when I don’t have to walk up two big flights of steps to get back up to ground level. I am a little snobby about the subway, but I’m admitting right now that I’m full of $h^t.

I want to buy clothes that are adorable, a little sexy and flattering — and designer. I cannot tell you how frustrating it is to live in the fashion mecca without the ability to take part in the fun. But I’m closer than I was, and I cannot wait to wear the stunning clothes I’ve been dreaming about.

And not that I really want to do it, but I would like to be able to ride a roller coaster if I want to. A few weeks ago, my boyfriend and I came across what would be called “the best ride he has ever been on — ever,” and there was no question that he would have to go it alone. Now boyfriend knows that I’ve never been a roller coaster girl, but how cool would it be if I could go with him? And this ride looked awesome — and quick. So if the possibility had existed, I think he could have talked me into riding it with him.

I want to feel pretty and actually be pretty. (I’m not fishing for any compliments here. You so know what I mean!)

Boyfriend is also a fantastic dancer. And while I can almost feel the movements in my head, my body just doesn’t allow me to put them into practice. I would love to dance with him without being slow and awkward and silly.

Because of consistent healthy eating and exercise I know I will be able to do these things, and I look forward to it more than the next bite of any food you could put in front of me. And it is definitely not easy, but I know it’s worth it. Losing almost 40 pounds so far has helped me walk (much) faster and given me more energy throughout the day. And it’s just the beginning.

Does being overweight hold you back from doing things you’d like to do? Are you making changes for the better? Do you want to?

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    August 10, 2009 at 5:43 pm


    Those are all wonderful fabulous reasons why you want to get fit. Very inspiring! Keep up the great work. 🙂

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    August 10, 2009 at 6:19 pm

    Yes! You are going to be able to do all those things somewhere in the near future! I'm sure of it.

    Funny that you post a pic of Grand Central Station. I've been looking at it this morning when my girlfriend was showing me her pictures of her holiday in Washington and NY 🙂

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    August 10, 2009 at 9:54 pm

    Wow… you are so good for me to read! You really help me want to be a better person! Thank you for that!

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    Scrappy Girl
    August 10, 2009 at 10:24 pm

    I TOTALLY know what you are talking about! I am going to be doing some things I have been putting off doing…can't wait to wear the CUTE clothes…I was just packing my skorts for the beach and noticed they are as wide as they are long…yuck.

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    Connie Weiss
    August 10, 2009 at 11:13 pm

    I'd like to golf someday too. Anything that requires a cute outfit!

    My goals include learning to ski, scuba diving and maybe…skydiving.

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    ♥ Kenz ♥
    August 11, 2009 at 2:25 am

    Connie, golf is so much fun. You should try it. I'm decent now, but I know I'll be much better in the coming years. 🙂

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    August 11, 2009 at 3:15 am

    You, my dear, are adorable. And even better than that, you make me want to work harder on finding my slim body again. It's in there somewhere.

    We went to the county fair a few weeks ago and my daughter wanted me to go on one of the rides and I wanted to so badly–but I couldn't rise them telling me that I weighed too much. And airplanes. Just thinking of them makes me cry.

    You are making me brave.

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    August 11, 2009 at 3:26 am

    Amen, sista. It's a battle. I feel every word you wrote.

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    ♥ Kenz ♥
    August 11, 2009 at 3:28 am

    Aw Launi…don't cry! Just adapt. 🙂 Riiiight? Okay, so I know it's much harder said than done. (I mean, I'm doing it so I know.) But it is never too late to be who you want to go for it.
    And thank you for the compliments. They mean soooooooo much!

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