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A Different Day

I usually weigh in on Thursdays, but the meeting was canceled due to the snow so I’m weighing in today. I feel much better than I did at the beginning of the weekend. The pressure in my ear has definitely subsided, but it’s still clogged up.

This is the first time I can ever remember saying that I did not leave the house even once all weekend. I can honestly say that I laid around all day Saturday. And yesterday, I sat on the floor in my scrapbooking room/office cleaning out drawers, reorganizing my embellishments, tools and paper. I skipped a party on Saturday as well as brunch with girlfriends (which had been planned for a month.) I’d like a trophy for me efforts…just saying.

But the truth is I needed to stay in. I needed to avoid the wind, and I still need to stay out of it as much as possible. I canceled lunch with a friend today because it’s windy here today. But I will head out to my regular meeting spot, to weigh in on my regular scale and enjoy a meeting with an awesome leader. A few of my friends are going as well so it will feel a little less out of the ordinary.

But I’m nervous about stepping on the scale. I worked my butt off last week – doing 85 minutes of cardio a few times and 50 minutes of cardio on other days. I ate well too…very well. But when the power went out Thursday night (a day I usually skip workouts anyway) I started feeling a little pain in my ear. If you read the previous posts I wrote, you know that it got much worse.

So…I have not worked out since Wednesday. WEDNESDAY! My body is craving it. I can’t stop thinking about how much I want to do it. But the fear of regaining the extraordinary pain in my ear has kept me from doing it.

And while I’m at it, I should mention that I haven’t eaten nearly enough since Friday. I ate half of my daily intake on Saturday and the same goes for yesterday. I did drink a lot of water and orange juice, and I forced myself to eat a little. But it felt impossible to eat enough over the weekend. My stomach felt yucky, and I couldn’t taste food.

Just to be clear, I am not making excuses for whatever happens on the scale. Instead, I’m telling you that I worked really hard last week, but try as I did, I did not do as well as I should have done over the weekend. Obviously, working out would have been a bad idea, but I should have forced myself to eat more. I tried…really. (Isn’t it odd/annoying that I need to eat more to lose weight? LOL)

So if I show a gain when I step on the scale today, I might cry. But I won’t cry because I gained, I’ll cry because sometimes life just isn’t fair. I’m tired of feeling sick…tired of not being able to workout at full capacity. I want it. I need it. So many people hate working out; I LOVE it! I just want to be able to do the work that I’m perfectly willing to do!

A good friend put it all in perspective this weekend when she said “Hey..aren’t you trying to do more than lose weight? Aren’t you trying to be healthy too?”

Yes…I am trying to be healthy not just skinny. So I know that whatever the scale says today, it will be a small part of my overall success – good or bad. I just want it to be good because I’m human. And because I work hard. And because I like reaching my goals in a timely manner.

So wish me luck today because I’ll probably need it. Regardless, I need to take a step back and remind myself that there will be ups and downs in life. But the fact remains that the down times are few compared to the positives. And I need to remember that at some point I will feel better.

No matter how cold the winter there’s a springtime ahead.” – Pearl Jam

Those lyrics have taken me through some rough times in the past, and I’m going to let them take me through this today. I just pray that the hard work I usually do/did last week will be evident in the numbers too.

How do you handle being sick? How do you get your mind off of things you know you can’t do until you feel better? How do you keep it all in perspective?

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7 Comments

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    Sneaker Teacher
    March 1, 2010 at 8:36 pm

    Sometimes when I am sick I completely fall off the workout wagon for a bit, but I always feel better knowing that I will get back to it. If you don't take the time off that your body needs you will just end up being sick for a longer time.

    Hope the weigh in goes well!!!

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    Danielle
    March 1, 2010 at 8:48 pm

    When I am sick I do not work out. This is largely in part that because of my sinus issues, any cold I get turns into a sinus cold with a 50% chance of at least a mild sinus infection. Not being able to breath and my balance being all wonky are not conducive to being able to exercise. Also, I figure that I'd rather spend what energy I have letting my body work on feeling better vs. exercising and risking being sick longer.

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    {Absolutely, Positively} Josie
    March 1, 2010 at 8:58 pm

    Kenz, you're doing the best you can. i don't blame you from not wanting to feel that awful ear pain!!! i have faith in your ability to keep soldiering on. you are very much an inspiration to me and a ton of other people, for what it's worth!! keep on!

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    Shannon Fab Fattie
    March 1, 2010 at 11:40 pm

    Awww Kenz sorry you are having a bad time. Being sick just sucks and I hope you get better soon so that you can get back to your regular routine.
    I am sending you good vibes today and no matter what the scale says you need to remember that you have worked hard and it is paying off in so many ways not just the scale 🙂

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    Diz
    March 2, 2010 at 12:39 am

    Hang in there baby girl- you're super close to goal and you WILL make it! I know you will!!! But you do need to get better or you will continue to have problems, so as much as it sucks, just try to enjoy your time off and relax. You'll be back in the saddle in no time!

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    Ann
    March 2, 2010 at 1:35 am

    Hope the weigh in goes well – but, more importantly, I am glad you are feeling better!!!!!!! Last time I had to not work out for a few days I lost more than expected…wishing the same for you!

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    Foodie McBody
    March 2, 2010 at 5:26 am

    Thinking of you. And so so true. Life is not fair sometimes. Yesterday I was rehearsing for my solo show and I came to a scene where I'm in the doctor's office. I had been dx'ed with prediabetes in January (2009) and now it was March. I had started running, I had lost over 15 lbs with WW, I felt like I was DOING SO WELL. And then I found out I had REAL diabetes (not just pre-). I fell into whimpering, wailing mess of "it's not fair." Which is so true. My eyes teared up when I read those same words on your post.
    I KNOW.
    But you will get through it, whatever the number, and get back into your workouts when you are ready. oxoxo

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