I know how hard it is to lose weight. It is no secret that when I stepped on the scale last year I weighed almost 400 pounds. I get it. It’s really hard. And when you have as much to lose as I did when I started it’s extraordinarily difficult to believe you can do it.
Whether you need to lose 20 or 200, it’s tough. But unless you’ve ever had a couple hundred pounds to lose it’s utterly impossible to truly understand how high the mountain top looks from the valley.
That being said, it doesn’t look nearly as high from my view as it did a year ago. It’s not nearly as overwhelming or scary or seemingly impossible. And for that reason, Donna from New Jersey broke my heart today.
She currently weighs 600 pounds and says her goal is to weigh 1,000 pounds. What can I say? She would probably laugh and say “hey, at least I have a goal.” But it’s ridiculous. I strive to be understanding, and despise being judgmental because I hate being judged by others who think they understand me. But I’m failing in this case. At this moment, I want to drive to new Jersey and ask this woman who she thinks she’s fooling.
Does she want attention? And does it seem like the only way she can get it is so say these outlandish things? Is she so tired of being mocked that she has decided to mock herself first? Is this her defense mechanism?
Does she love food so much that she’s willing to sacrifice her life? (Many of us have probably had to face that question.) Does she feel proud that she cannot possibly give her daughter the quality of life that every child deserves? Does she honestly feel happy this way? If a picture really is worth a thousand words then I’d say the answer is no.
Is this a cry for help? Is she truly sad? Has she given up on herself because it’s easier than believing that she’s worth the effort to save herself? Does she feel as though her child will be better off without her because she’s not worthy of loving or being loved? Does she wish she could change? Would she be willing to seek the help of a therapist to sort it all out?
I just want to know what she’s really thinking and feeling. I want to know if she’s scared or angry or numb to it all. I want to reach out and hug her then look her in the eyes and tell her she change. I want to help her. But I’m just a nobody with a blog.
Dr. Oz tweeted about this woman today which gives me a great deal of hope. He said “NJ woman wants to weigh 1,000 pounds so she can set the world record. I don’t like where this is going. http://bit.ly/bN9aJb” Perhaps his show will contact her, and maybe she’ll make an appearance. Maybe she’ll do her best to change before it’s too late. I hope so.
As one woman who embraced a healthy lifestyle as an extraordinarily overweight person, my heart breaks for her. Regardless of what she says or how she acts, I’m quite sure that she wishes for a different body – a different life.
I usually love to wish everyone luck with their goals. But in this case, Donna, I hope you fail in reaching your 1,000 pound weight goal. Instead, I hope you take the first step toward becoming a healthy person who can live to enjoy life with your family. I hope that somewhere inside your large body, you find the strength to face your battles and conquer them.
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