I have accomplished so much in the last 13 months so why do I still feel the need to explain myself when I meet a stranger? Whether I meet someone through work or at a social function or via Twitter, I feel the need to share the fact that I chose to turn over a new, healthy leaf over a year ago.
It could be because while I absolutely know that I’ll reach my goal I’m still far from it. And when a stranger looks at me, they still see a person who is severely overweight. I fear rejection because let’s face it, no one likes it. People can still be cruel at times, but more often people are supportive and excited about the changes occurring in my life.
Regardless of others, I’m a little disappointed in myself and my need to prove to people that I’m worth getting to know. I shouldn’t have to joke about ‘being a good investment’ because if you listen to me talk or watch the way I carry myself then you’ll know that I’m worth getting to know.
I’m an open book, and I’m fortunate to have so many in my life who care the read my inner pages. But I face a daily struggle within myself to accept who I am – as I am today, making no apologies for the person I was or the person I’ve become.
I am a healthy, active, driven and sincere person who tries to give as much as I take in relationships. My body just needs (more) time to catch up with who I am inside. In the mean time, I’m thankful for the network of friends and family in my life who accept me – good and bad. I just want/need to continue learning to accept myself – faults and all.
Do you accept yourself the way you are? If so, did it take time or have you always been happy with yourself?