I love to travel so flying is a big part of my life, but I’m still a little anxious about it. I posted about flying as an overweight person in August when I had lost 37 pounds. Now I’m 93 pounds lighter, and I’m comfortable flying. But I still have a long way to go before I no longer worry about being the heavy girl seated next to someone else.
People often judge quickly, but the truth is that I’m a model passenger. Once I’m seated, I don’t move for the duration of the flight, and I fit into my seat without monopolizing the arm rest. I’m also extraordinarily polite if someone speaks to me. And I don’t pack smelly foods that may make others hungry or sick. But until I look like an average person, I’ll be a little nervous before boarding.
I’m more excited today than I have been because on a Jet Blue flight last month I was able to utilize the seat table in front of me for the first time. I’m not flying Jet Blue tomorrow so I’m not sure if the table will fold out, but I hope it does because I’ll use my laptop to catch up on episodes of Ruby and 24! 🙂 If not, I’ll watch them on my iPod, but it was so gratifying to use the table in front of me that I hope I can again.
I still need a seat belt extension, but less than a year from now that should be a thing of the past. The anxiety I feel before flying should be gone by then too. I feel so good. And I know I’ve come so far which will make tomorrow much easier. But I can’t wait to look forward to the amazing trips I take without a hint of worry. I know I just have to keep moving forward. It’s not always easy, but days like these remind me that it’s worth it.
Do you become anxious before flying? Are you nervous about your size when boarding an airplane?