It’s is weigh-in day. I usually look forward to this more than any other day of my week, but today I have mixed feelings about it. I did not do my best this weekend. I exercised, yes, but I ate very poorly. I posted about it Monday, saying I’d do my best from that point forward, and that is precisely what I’ve done.
I cooked breakfast, lunch and dinner at home each day, and I limited my intake of processed foods choosing healthy, whole foods instead. I pushed myself each time I exercised. I even did an extra cardio session yesterday after completing my regular cardio workout in the morning.
Yesterday I found myself saying “If I get what I deserve when I step on the scale, it won’t be good.” But the truth is that I’ve had more healthy days than unhealthy so I hope it’s not as bad as I think it could be. Regardless, I know that I have to keep moving forward, and I will.
If I continue eating the way I’ve eaten since Monday I should see a good loss next week. And while it’s terribly frustrating to know that I should have/could have made better choices over the weekend, I won’t be too hard on myself today. I’ve already felt the regret, and I’ve already turned it around. Looking back and feeling angry with myself won’t make the scale show a different number. Doing my best one day at a time will.
In life, sometimes we have to accept the consequences of our actions. And I’m prepared to accept mine today even though I’d prefer a miracle. 😉 I’ve come a long way, and I have a long way to go. But I love my life, and I love who I’ve become. So today, I’ll focus on that and try to remember it regardless of my weight.
I normally ask for luck, but today I’m asking for you to wish me courage as I step on the scale and as I move into a new week. William Ernest Henley wrote “I am the master of my fate; I am the captain of my soul.” He clearly understood that it’s never too late to change your course. And I’m confident that the changes I made Monday will breed success in the coming weeks. Until then, I’ll continue doing my best because when I do it works. That has been evident over the last 13 months, and I want to look back 13 months from now still believing that it’s true.
And because I’m feeling literary today, take moment to read this poem by William Ernest Henley. He faced adversity head on…
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.