Today is weigh-in day. And it’s also my 100-pound party with my WW friends, but there’s a cloud looming in my sky. And I don’t think I’ll feel better until I get it off my chest.
I’ve been more honest in the last year of my life than I’ve ever been – with myself and others. I’ve learned that it’s okay to be exactly who I am today. People like me, and I like myself. And I don’t know if I’m happier about the weight I’ve lost so far or the self-acceptance I’ve found. But I’m utterly grateful for both. So it’s time to share the results from yesterday and my plan of attack for today and the rest of the week. Because as much as I’d like to forget it happened, I can’t – I shouldn’t.
Most of you know that I decided I’d weigh-in on Wednesdays and see how I liked it. Let’s just say it’s not happening again. Sure, the leader and receptionist were friendly enough (if you don’t mind a little condescension with your weigh-in.) But it was not my group. It was my not my leader or my receptionist who have shown the utmost respect and belief in me since day one. I’ve said before that I’m so thankful that I found the group that I found because if I hadn’t, I probably wouldn’t have gone back.
Anyway, I didn’t like being there yesterday morning. And sadly, that’s not the worst part. When I weighed in, the receptionist recorded that I was up 5.4 pounds. Yes, up! Can you imagine? Now…I don’t spend a lot of time making excuses, but I do like to know where I went wrong or how I can resolve it. And I have a couple of theories.
First, I ate a cupcake and 17 pretzel M&M’s on Monday, but I counted the points. That’s not enough to cause a 5 pound gain (or any gain for that matter.) I also ate a few cups of Pad See Yew late Monday night. It is only 4 WW points per serving, but it’s loaded with sodium! I know my body, and I know it takes time to release the added sodium so I try to stay away from it most days, but Monday I relished in it.
My second theory is that I should not weigh-in early morning (unless I do it every week) because I eat dinner so late. Tuesday night I finished dinner around 10:45. Yes, I know that’s late. But I have a late schedule. I don’t usually sleep before 2 am, and some evenings (like last night) you’ll find me working out at midnight! I’ve tried to change my schedule, but the thought of sleeping before 1 or 2 am just depresses me. That being said, maybe it’s better that I weigh-in late afternoon instead. (For the record, I know that it doesn’t matter how I do it as long as I do it consistently. I’m just referring to why I could show such a massive gain from last week to this week.)
And my last theory is just that I’m a girl. There are certain weeks in which I’ve had gains of 5 lbs, 3 lbs, etc. And the following week, I weigh 7 pounds less. So, it happens…if you’re a woman or just a smart guy, you probably know that women retain water during certain times of the month. Enough said.
So these are the reasons floating around my head. I know that I could have eaten better foods so perhaps that’s the real reason. All I can say is that I will eat well this week because nothing that trivial will keep me from continuing on toward my goal.
And because I have the best leader ever, she’s going to arrive a few minutes early to weigh me today. She does not, nor does Weight Watchers condone weighing more than once a week. She’s just going to let me do it because I think I’d rather continue weighing in at our meeting. The nice thing about Weight Watchers is that everyone – the leaders, the receptionists, even our beloved CEO, is that we’re all familiar with the challenges of losing weight and keeping it off.
I’ll let you know what happens on the scale today, and I’ll also fill you in on the party and the late night party with The Amish Outlaws. 🙂 It’s going to be a fantastic day because the cloud has lifted. I am proud of who I am today and confident in whom I can become.