I’ve written about the anxiety that I feel when boarding an airplane several times, but it’s weighing on my mind again right now because I’m flying out later today.
In August of last year I wrote “Sitting next to someone on an airplane when you’re obese (err, at least when you’re obese and your name is Kenz) creates the kind of dread that I cannot begin to express. And unless you’re fat (or have ever been fat) you just cannot possibly understand.” I had lost 37 pounds at the time, and flying was still dreadful. I’ve come so far since then…You can read the rest of that post here if you want to.
Then I wrote about flying as an overweight person again only a couple of months ago. The experience is so different already. I even wrote about the positive changes I noticed on my last flight last month! You can read about those here. The most powerful of those changes was knowing that I could jog to catch a flight then comfortably sit in the middle seat on the front row. I also learned that I no longer needed a seat belt extension. Awesome, right? 🙂
But today I’m flying on a smaller plane. Thankfully, I’ll be seated on the left side of the plane so no one will be sitting directly next to me. I’ll cram into the small seat if necessary, and I’ll worry less knowing that I won’t be crowding anyone else. Bring on the extension! I’ll use it on this smaller plane as I look forward to it becoming a memory.
If you’ve read my blog, you know that I fly pretty often, and I cannot wait for the day in which I can look forward to flying without a hint of worry. Until then, I remind myself how far I’ve come and that I’m in control. I have the power to make positive changes with my choices, and that is what I try to do everyday.
Will today’s flight be awful? I hope not! 😉 Will I get through it regardless? Yes. And will the next flight be better? I’m confident that it will be, yes…and that, my friends, is most important to me. I cannot change the past, but I can certainly change the future. And it’s no longer just a hope, it’s my reality. I’m doing it, and it feels fantastic.
Wish me luck on my flight today! I’m extraordinarily excited to reach my destination. I’ll let you know how it goes…Until then, keep drinking water and enjoy this day!
Bottoms up Friends!