It has been a rough visit with everything going on in New York, and I’ll always love you because you’ll always feel like home to me. In many ways, you’re where I belong, but staying here would be giving myself less than I’ve always wanted. I would be selling myself short because I’ve always desired more than you can give, and I know that you wouldn’t want that for me.
You’re a beautiful state, and though I’ll miss you terribly I’ll think of you everyday and smile. I’ve experienced some beautiful things as well as painful things here throughout the years. But even recently, at my lowest point, I made memories that I’ll keep for years to come.
Don’t worry, my dear state. I’ll visit again even if not for a while because my roots are grounded here…and because part of my heart will always belong to you no matter where I go.
I have a life to rebuild in New York, and soon it will be time to get started. Wish me luck, will you Oklahoma? I don’t know what the future holds yet, but I do know that I have to take a chance. I have to fight for myself right now because it’s time to get real or get lost.
God bless my family and those that I love in this place, and bring me back again when the time is right. Until then….