I know that I can’t control everything, but I can control what I put into my body. And I know that I can’t make anyone love me, but I can love myself. I also know that I can’t change what happened yesterday, but I can choose to make today better.
This morning I woke up after a few hours of sleep, and I felt refreshed. I’m not sure how that happened, but I’m glad it did. I worked on a few things this morning then went to lunch with Dad. After lunch I headed to the YMCA, and I rocked that place.
I did 30 minutes on the elliptical machine, and I feel really good about burning almost 400 calories before jumping in the swimming pool. I did 16 full laps which is half a mile, but I could have continued which makes me feel like Rocky.
I still don’t know what will happen or what my life will be like 6 months from now, but I’m making today as good as I can make it. And right now, that is enough.
One more thing…I mentioned that I might not continue blogging, but the truth is that I’m not sure how I could stop. When nothing else seems right this blog is right. I feel so loved by you all after receiving so many incredible messages on my blog and via e-mail. Thanks to each of you for making my darkest place a little brighter.
Today I feel hopeful and strong. And while I still feel confused and scared, I’m in a much better place than I was this time yesterday. Thank you for being here for me…I’m not going to give up.