When I stepped on the scale tonight I was mentally prepared to see my weight stay the same or worse, but instead I saw a loss of 2.4 pounds taking me to a total of 112 pounds lost. Yay! I’m not sure if it was the manifestation of an evolution of better choices over time or luck. I certainly didn’t make the best choices, but looking back I did workout four times. And overeating is no longer one of my habits. Either way, I’ve been back in the groove since Tuesday, and I’m already looking forward to seeing the results of my efforts in the coming week.
Today was a good day all-around. I had a meeting that I may share more about in the coming days then I went to my WW meeting which is always one of my favorite parts of the week. Following that I had dinner with my girlfriends then visited my precious dog, Sadie and picked up a few jackets at my former home because it’s getting chilly at night.
Several of you have asked about her in comments and in e-mails so I should tell you that my ex-boyfriend is keeping her. We both love her, and she’s at home at his house. They felt like my family so while it’s painfully difficult not to snuggle with her every night, I do realize that she’ll be happy there with him. Is it fair? No..not at all. Do I like it? No…not at all. But it’s much easier knowing that she will always be cared for and loved by him. I cuddled with her for a while tonight, and she seems perfectly happy and adjusted which makes me feel better about it. But she is in serious need of a haircut! She looks like a fluffy, adorable bear and not a cocker spaniel. Hehe We took a picture together after being out in the rain, and though I look awful in it I’ll still treasure it.
I also started gathering food tonight for the Lose For Good donation that I’ll make next week. Next Thursday I’m going to do my small part by donating 112 pounds of food at my meeting. It’s amazing to think that I carried that much extra weight on my body not long ago. I’m still carrying extra weight, but I think it will be nearly impossible for me to carry the 112 that I’ve lost so far without risking injury. Luckily, I’ll have a strong set of willing arms here to help me carry the food next week. I’ll definitely need that. 🙂
The next several days should provide a lot of answers related to my well-being, my future, etc. And I’m so ready for those answers. I’m pretty excited about a lot of things that will happen in the coming week. It’s been a long road, but I’m healing friends…I’m moving forward to embracing the changes that terrified me only a few weeks ago. And I’m losing weight.
I’ve never been so confident in my ability to reach my goals – all of them. And though things are not quite easy yet, I’m thankful for the wonderful things that are happening in my life right now too. I feel safe, and my heart feels happy…and on that note, it’s time to dream…