Mind Control

It’s easy to let my emotions get the best of me, but today was much better than yesterday. My situation is the same, but being with my friends has been incredible. And today, I feel happy that I’m back in New York.

I ran into someone today who knows me and my situation very well. He and his wife are two wise and loving people that I greatly admire, and as soon as I saw him tears came streaming down my face. But those tears were not only a product of sadness…they were also tears of comfort. I didn’t have to say anything because he already knew, and after letting me cry he boldly expressed that he knows things will work out. Today, I found a little hope.

My morning started at the crack of dawn (okay, more like 8am, but that’s practically the same, isn’t it? hehe) My friend and I brought her car in to be serviced, but instead of waiting an hour we had to wait all morning and afternoon. And $1,700 later her car was back in working order.

During our hours on foot we ate breakfast, got a manicure/pedicure then tried on clothes and many pairs of boots. Note to self: try on boots before getting a mani/pedi. 🙂 Speaking of boots, I had an incredible experience today. My friend and I both tried on knee-high boots, and they fit! I was able to zip them and walk around feeling like a normal girl. 😉

I didn’t buy the boots (even though they were 70% off.) I don’t want brown boots, but I do want gray boots. I found an amazing pair of those too. I’m sure I’ll own them by fall. 😉

I love wearing heels that I wouldn’t have been able to wear a year ago. Losing weight has been great for so many reasons, but the difference in my body’s balance is easily the most significant physical difference.

If you’ve never been an overweight girl who loves fashion then you may not be able to fully understand why wearing knee-high boots was such a victorious moment, but believe me when I say that it was an incredible feeling. My body is changing, and on days like today it’s undeniable.

I was supposed to be in Las Vegas this weekend with some people that I love very much, but I wasn’t able to be there. I miss them and long to be there, but I can’t do anything to change my situation right now so I intend to have a little fun tomorrow anyway. 😉

Yesterday was hard, and today wasn’t easy. But today was easier than yesterday. There may be some unpleasant days ahead, but I realize that there will be good ones too. I choose to believe that because it’s true and because I know that my attitude greatly affects my daily outcome. And by focusing on the positives – more importantly, not focusing on the negatives, I’m able to control the outcome of my day.

It’s late, I’m ready to sleep and hope to have happy dreams…I hope you all enjoy your weekend! Good night friends…xo