We are quickly approaching my favorite time of year, but I’m not in a celebratory mood this year. My entire world has changed since this time last year, and I find myself longing – not for the life I had, but for the life I hope to have by this time next year.
Dad and I will be together for Thanksgiving, and I’m thankful for that. But I miss the rest of my family. This year I’ll miss mapping out my Black Friday plans with friends and relaxing while the game is on in the background. I’ll miss the cornbread dressing and Watergate salad.
I don’t want to sound like I’m not thankful for many things. Just being around Dad this year will be a treat for me, but I’ll miss being surrounded by the comfort and fun that can only come from a big group of loved ones.
Christmas will be a different story. I’ll be with Mom and my sister and her beautiful family. It really would be perfect for us if Dad could be there too, but I know I shouldn’t expect perfection. And I don’t. I’m looking forward to spending time with my precious niece and wrapping gifts and knitting with the neighbor and consuming too much homemade hot chocolate. 😉
But what I’m really looking forward to most is settling into my new world after the holidays. I’m moving in the right direction, and I’m ready to nest. I’m convinced that 2011 will be better than 2010 so while I plan to enjoy my family, I’m ready to put this year behind me. I’m ready to start enjoying life fully again, and I’m hopeful for the future.
Speaking of hope for the future, I’m attending a new WW meeting today. It has been weeks since I’ve had any kind of consistency, but these meetings are too important to miss. And I’m making a commitment to myself not to miss another one. I’ll meet new people, learn in more detail about the new program and (most importantly) have an opportunity to track my progress, stay accountable and refuel.
I may feel down today, but I know that things are looking up. And I’m determined to see this through to get to the good stuff. For now, I’ll just take it one day at a time…