My new blog friend, J, has recently stopped drinking soda, and she has written about it on her blog. Maybe she won’t struggle with it as much as I did (at least I hope not,) but I can tell her from my own experience that it’s possible to live a happy and fulfilled life without a single coke. 😉 If you haven’t visited J’s blog, take a minute to leave her some encouraging words at http://weightlossforrealthistime.blogspot.com/. She’s rocking it!
I don’t spend a lot of time posting blogs that I’ve written in the past, but perhaps I should once in a while. I wrote the post below on July 9, 2009, and I liked reading this because I remember exactly how I felt when I wrote it. I was still discovering my love for weight-loss, and I was passionate about changing my relationship with food. And while that passion was hidden in my self-loathing for a few months last year, I feel it again. And it feels good to see that what I hoped would happen has happened.
I remember thinking on that night in July of 2009 that I couldn’t imagine living a life free of soft drinks. Perhaps that sounds inane to some, but I dreamed of a day that seemed impossible – a day in which I could say “Eh, I don’t care if I ever drink another Dr. Pepper or not.” I wasn’t sure I’d ever get to that point, but I’m here. And I’ve been here for a long time.
Originally posted: July 9, 2009
Some people eat unhealthy food when they’re sad or lonely. Some people eat unhealthy food when they are bored. I tend to want unhealthy foods when I’m happy. Or, maybe somewhere along the line I found happiness in unhealthy foods. Don’t get me wrong. I have never been a *binge eater. But I am reasonably sure that I get excited about the prospect of pepperoni pizza with extra cheese and a coke, while watching a chick flick on my big TV, more than the average person.
I get excited about a lot of things, but in recent months I’ve gotten honest with myself. And I’ve learned that Dr. Pepper (and other junk) was making me (temporarily) happy. Thankfully, I have other reasons to be happy because I don’t drink it, and I’m better off without it. But I still get excited about the idea of having Chinese takeout with a bottle of Dr. Pepper.
But these things don’t excite me NEARLY as much as they used to. In fact, I have had two small bottles of Dr. Pepper sitting in the fridge since my friend left last week. And I had a dozen when she arrived. I was totally tempted to drink one when I first bought them. (It’s her favorite drink too.) But I reminded myself to think about how happy I would feel if I lost weight this week…and if I could wear sundresses because my ankles were not swollen. Yes, that’s right…drinking soda or having too much sodium makes me retain water. Ewe.
So tonight the Dr. Pepper was poured into the sink. Not a drop touched my lips, and I could not feel better about it than I do right now. As much fun as it would be to drink a soda or eat four slices of pizza, I can honestly say that it was MUCH MORE FUN to get on the scale tonight and weigh four pounds less than I did last week.
The junk would have been nice for the moment, but how would I have felt after the moment passed? On the other hand, I can take the weight loss with me. I can hold my head high, knowing that I weigh 34 pounds less than I did a few months ago.
So this week I learned something very important about myself. I will not allow what I want at the moment to keep me from what I want most of all — which is to have a healthy, adorable body. 🙂
No soda or pizza or Chinese food will ever be worth giving up on the goal.
Do you think there’s such a thing as healthy foods? Has you love for food changed throughout your weight-loss journey?
*A year and a half later, I’m still not sure exactly what the word binge means to me, but when I wrote this I thought of it as eating uncontrollably – sometimes in secret.