The last 36 hours have been rough for me because I’ve been craving snacks. I try to keep the fridge and the pantry stocked with healthy snacks, but right now I just want junk. I can’t explain it, but I don’t think I have to…right?
I want cake or donuts or deep fried cheese sticks or Reese’s Crunchy Peanut Butter Cups! What?! My mind is in a frenzy, but thankfully none of these things are readily accessible right now. Sure, I could go to the bakery or the grocery store, but that’s probably not a good idea at the moment.
I’m embarrassed to say that while I was in line at the supermarket a few days ago, I actually longed for the days that I didn’t count calories or points….the days when I would see a pack of cheese and crackers with little sausages and think “yay! I’ll take it!” instead of “ewe..that must be like 400 calories!”
I found myself wishing I could go back for a day or an hour…just long enough to eat sugar cookies loaded with frosting or turtle cheesecake without thinking about whether or not it was worth the calories.
Then, like a lightening bolt, I threw the cheese/crackers/sausage combo pack (which did look disgusting for the record) back on the shelf remembering how exhausted I used to feel just walking around the grocery store. There were times that I drove around for half an hour because I didn’t want to walk across the parking lot.
I thought about the times I skipped going out for food and other things (opting for delivery) because it was raining outside, and I was worried that I would slip and break a bone or bruise my knees. And forget snow! That was more nerve racking than rain – not a good thing when you live in New York.
I remember making excuses to skip going to Central Park because it seemed too daunting, being afraid I’d break the frame of a bicycle or the time that I broke the driver’s seat because my excess weight was finally too much for it to handle. And suddenly, the ridiculous cravings are gone.
Losing weight is so much more rewarding than the juiciest, most decadent bacon cheeseburger will ever be even with all-you-can-eat fries. And while that should be obvious by now, sometimes I need to remind myself. I can eat a piece of cake or peanut butter cups once in a while if I do it in a responsible manner, but looking at the big picture helps me remember what I really want – to be the healthiest, most confident version of myself.
Now, after reflecting on this post, I can proclaim victory against the cravings that I’ve been fighting since early yesterday, and I’m looking forward to a rockin’ workout later today. Am I the only one who wakes up wishing I could eat lots of junk food on random days? How do you conquer cravings?