Monthly Archives: June 2011

Breakfast Matters

As I write this post, I am eating vanilla Greek yogurt with fresh strawberries and blueberries.  I eat it almost every morning because it’s a good P+ value, delicious and easy.  Sometimes I eat a cup (225g) and sometimes only 1/2 cup (112g) plus a serving of fruit or two.

225 g plus fruit = 5 p+

I’ve never been a fan of breakfast.  Seriously…if I could wait to eat until 4pm everyday, I would.  And for years, I did just that.  I didn’t understand why my weight continued to creep up when I spent half of the day not eating.  It never occurred to me that I was doing myself more harm than good by not eating breakfast.

I was (am) morbidly obese so, in my mind, it made sense that I should skip a meal or two.  After all, strangers (and people I knew) often made jokes out of me by saying I should do just that.  I skipped breakfast regularly, and I didn’t feel hungry.  I did, however, feel tired and lethargic though I didn’t understand that eating breakfast could (and would) eventually change that.

Then I joined Weight Watchers, and I quickly learned that breakfast was “essential.”  My WW leader praised the benefits of breakfast and insisted that it was necessary to jump-start my metabolism.  So I began eating breakfast (a little begrudgingly because I preferred to save as many points for the evening as I could.)  I began eating a banana then grew into egg whites with toast then ventured into breakfast cereals like Fiber One Honey Clusters and Kashi GoLean Crunch.  I also fell in love with Special K chocolate protein shakes. Yum!

And after a few months of healthy eating (including a balanced breakfast) I started losing weight, but I also noticed that I had more energy (particularly in the afternoon) and less cravings throughout the day.  At that moment, I was sold, and I’ve been eating breakfast ever since.

At this point, eating breakfast is part of my daily routine.  It still has to be easy (no more early morning egg white omelets for me) and nutritious and quick because I still get queasy at the thought of eggs before noon.  I just know that breakfast is an essential part of healthy living, and I want to give my body the tools it needs to reach my goals.

And because Attune Foods knows the importance of breakfast, they have invited me to take part in an 8-week breakfast swap.  Starting next week, I’ll be swapping out my regular breakfast (currently vanilla Greek yogurt and fresh berries) for a bowl of Uncle Sam’s cereal.

I was hesitant to take part in this swap because one serving of Uncle Sam Original is worth 5 P+ on Weight Watchers plus milk, and I’m still pretty hesitant to spend that much on breakfast.  But the cereal is filled with protein, fiber and other nutrients so I’m going to give it a shot.

I’ll be blogging about it at AttuneFoods.com along with my friends, Jess and Mel.  If you don’t know Jess and Mel you should because they’re awesome!  You can click on their names above to check them out!

Attune Foods will provide me with cereal for the swap, but my thoughts and opinions on the swap will me mine…and they will be authentic.  During the swap, I’ll be offering up some fun opportunities for several of you to try Uncle Sam as well so stay tuned and get ready for some early morning, breakfast fun.

Now tell me…Do you eat breakfast everyday?  If so, what do you eat?

 

Where in the World Are You?

After posting about my Popchips giveaway yesterday (and reading that many of you have trouble finding them in your area) it made me wonder – where do you live?

I love the internet because it’s my window into the world, and since starting this blog, I have connected with people all over the planet. And it’s pretty incredible.

I’ve asked the question once before, and I’m curious to see how it has changed.  So please indulge me…:)

Where do you live? And what do you love about it?

And don’t forget to enter for your chance to win a 30-day supply of Popchips!

 

Who Wants PopChips?!

It is no secret that I  love Popchips.  If you look at my food journal, you’ll see that they pop up pretty frequently on the list of things I eat.  Sometimes my favorite flavor is BBQ…other times it’s Sour Cream and Onion, but there always seems to be a flavor to satisfy my craving.  I take my love of Popchips pretty seriously, see? 😉

 

Okay..okay..Just kidding...I'll share. =)

The good folks at Popchips have offered to give away a 30-day supply of Popchips to one of my lucky readers so I hope you’re hungry! =)  Seriously folks…the winner is going to receive a big box filled with a variety of flavors!

 

Here’s what you can do to win:

  • Leave a comment telling me if you’ve ever tried Popchips.  And if you have, tell me your favorite flavor.  (Whether you have or not will not affect your chances of winning. I’m just curious!)
  • Follow @popchips on twitter and tell them @alltheweigh says hi. =)  Then come back and let me know you did it.
  • Like Popchips on Facebook.  (I have a page too so feel free to say hi while you’re there!)  Then come back and let me know you did!
  • Share a link to my giveaway on your blog.  If you do that, make sure you come back and let me know you did it.

There are many ways to win!  I’ll choose a winner on Saturday, July 2nd at 9pm est, and I’ll announce the winner on my blog and contact them via e-mail as well.  The winner will have until Wednesday, July 6th to respond, or I’ll choose another winner! So enter, tell your friends and let the guilt-free snackin’ begin!

 

Note: Contest is open to US residents only.

Self-Worth?

Last week, in a session with America’s Weight Loss Catalyst, Pat Barone, I was given an assignment – to answer a couple of questions about my self-worth. And while I thought it would be easy at the time, I realized (after a few days of forcing myself to think about this) that I really don’t like some of my answers.  I’m going to share them anyway in an attempt to improve myself because that’s the whole point, right?

The first question: List the ways I look for self-worth from the outside.  It should be easy to answer this even if I don’t like the answers, right?  I mean, I definitely look for self-worth from the outside.

  • I often base my self-worth on the amount of attention I get from guys…not all guys…specifically, tall, driven, successful men who don’t typically show interest in other overweight women.

It’s as if I am subconsciously saying “See? This guy could have any girl he wants, but he wants me.  I’ve done this so. many. times.   I’ve even said it out loud so it’s not just subconscious.

  • I definitely have a history of basing my personal value on the value of my things (i.e. latest tech gadgets, designer bags and shoes, etc.)

Growing  up, we usually had what we needed, but spending $1000 on a handbag wasn’t on the radar.  It’s still not something I do all the time, but I have done it in the past just to prove (not sure to whom) that I could do it.

I’m probably most disappointed in myself over this realization, but I’m also most proud for working through this one.  At some point over the last year I realized that I don’t need all of those things to make me happy.  And people who disagree are people that I just don’t need to be around.  I still like pretty things, but they don’t define me in the way that I wished they did previously.

 

  • I feel worthy when people think I’m creative or talented.

I remember the feeling of giddy pride I had last month when I started singing and my long-time friend, Kent, looked at me as if he was seeing my for the first time.  I’ve mentioned on my blog that he was blown away, and thinking about that moment now makes me smile.  =)  Side note: Kent is currently across the globe helping homeless, orphaned children who literally have nothing…How awesome is that? Digressing, I know…I’m just so proud…

And something similar happened with my dad (he reminded me recently in a blog comment) when he heard me perform in a vocal contest  in 8th grade.  Dad obviously knew I sang, but he didn’t know I sang like that. Note: I’m decent, but these are just examples of  moments in which I found self-worth from the outside.

 

And now, the second question: List the ways in which I look for self-worth on the inside.  This is much more intimidating to answer. Hmm…

  • This is probably obvious, but I find self-worth in knowing that I’ve lost over 100 pounds.
Losing the second 100 is proving to be much, much more difficult, but I’ve gotten very comfortable with the fact that I reached such an awesome milestone.  And it was me…not someone else, not a pill, etc.  Pat and I also spoke about the idea of re-framing my view on losing the next 100.  I’ll post about that soon.
  • I know I’m creative and talented, and it makes me feel worthy of self-love.

I’m not sure why I feel so compelled to add a disclaimer about how I don’t think I’m that great…just a little great.

  • I fight for myself.

I no longer sit quietly and allow people to treat me like garbage.  If you read my blog, you’ve seen some pretty staunch examples of this.  I stand up for others too even when it’s not easy.

  • I am not a quitter.

This is the most difficult thing to post without feeling like a total fraud, but it’s true.  Giving up on making myself healthier and happier is not even on my radar.  And I’ve been tested many times…this makes me feel worthy of every bit of self-love that I’ve whined about trying to find on my blog in the past.

 

I feel like my lists should be much longer, but it has taken days of thought to come  up with these short lists of answers.  What does this say about me?

Now I’d like to hear your answers to these questions. Where do you search for self-worth from the outside?  And how do you find it on the inside?

 

Friend Makin’ Mondays: What’s in Your Fridge?

Friend Makin’ Mondays is always fun, but having so much interaction last week made it awesome! Don’t you think?  So let’s get creative with our answers again this week and make it even better than last week! =)

If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section here at: www.alltheweigh.com so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please invite your blog readers to add their links here too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!

 

 

FMM: What’s in Your Fridge?


  1. List a few common items that can always be found in your fridge.  Vanilla Greek yogurt, fresh strawberries, fresh blueberries, bottled water, skim milk, single servings of Brie, onions, green peppers, chicken and edamame (in the freezer.)

    These are my favorite Brie Bites!

  2. What kind of milk do you drink? Skim…I buy a quart at a time, and I never finish that much before it goes bad..
  3. Do you prefer fresh or frozen vegetables? Obviously, I prefer fresh veggies, but I love keeping frozen edamame on hand.  The individual packs at Sam’s Club are only 3 P+ each per bag!
  4. What do you currently have to drink in the fridge? Water, milk, green tea. There are sodas and other options in the pantry, but I don’t drink that stuff (other people do) so it doesn’t need to be in the fridge regularly.
  5. How often do you clean out your refrigerator? Every other week or so – or if I notice that something needs to be cleaned out…and usually on Sundays.
  6. What’s the healthiest thing in it right now? The fridge is loaded up with fruits and veggies, but I’m most excited about the sugar snap peas.  I fell in love with them at the Hollywood Farmer’s Market, and they’re my favorite vegetable now.

    Yum!

  7. What’s the most unhealthy thing in it right now? There are a few Hershey chocolate bars that I like to use to make s’mores…only 2 P+ each. Yum! For the record, I think it’s perfectly healthy and normal to have things in the fridge that aren’t totally healthy.
  8. What do you wish you had in it that you don’t have now? Reduced fat cream cheese.  I made up a recipe today, and it flopped.  Now I wish I had made my new, favorite cheesecake cups instead.  That will have to happen later this week!
  9. How often do you shop for groceries? I shop for groceries a few times a week.  It seems like I run out of strawberries every few days…
  10. What’s the weirdest thing in your fridge right now? White squash…I’m not really sure how to cook it so it’s in the crisper until I figure it out.

    What am I supposed to do with this?!

Now it’s your turn! Don’t forget to answer the questions and come back to post a link in the comments section! Happy Monday!

Pretty Things

It’s not always easy to find pieces that make me feel pretty with a bit of glam, but this dress from Dillards definitely helped me succeed in that this week.  It was the first time in years that I was able to walk into that particular department store and find clothes that fit my body.

As a plus-size girl who likes to feel feminine and, dare I say…pretty, I love shopping for clothing that doesn’t look like everything else in my closet so the neck line and sleeves really appealed to me.  It’s the first dress I’ve considered wearing sans cardigan in as long as I can remember.

Close-up...

While I was out, I also tried on a pair of Jones New York cropped jeans that made me feel completely stylish and adorable!  Now I’m on the search for the perfect swim suit – as perfect as it gets when you’re not satisfied with your body.  Hey, I’m a work in progress, remember? 😉

Making a silly face...I know...

This tankini from Avenue is a few sizes smaller than the last swimsuit I bought last year, and it reminded me that I have come a long way even if I don’t always feel like it. At 50% off, it might just have to be mine soon…

My clothing options have opened up so much since I began losing weight, and it seems to grow a bit more with every pound I lose.  Add another one to the list.  I lost 0.8 this week! And while I’ve always enjoyed buying new clothes, it’s fun to choose clothes that are flattering for my shape as opposed to buying whatever fits!

Do you enjoy shopping for clothes?  Has your view of shopping changed due to weight-loss or weight-gain?

 

A Week of Personal Accountability

Last week I decided that I needed to be very honest with myself and anyone else who would listen about what I was eating.  I did okay some days and horribly over the weekend.  I don’t typically note my emotions as they relate to food, but over the last week I did.  And while my emotional connection to food isn’t exactly an earth shattering revelation, I was surprised at how often my food choices were affected by my emotions.  Admitting this is not easy, but it’s the truth.  And just as I’ve said so many times recently, admittance of my issues is the first step toward change, and changing when it’s not easy is something to be proud of, right? Yep!

Everything I ate last week is listed below, and I don’t expect anyone to read it all.  I’m posting it in an attempt to exercise my responsibility for the choices I’ve made.  I’ve had some really healthy eating days this week – filled with protein, fruits and veggies and lots of water.  I’ve been pretty far under my PointsPlus target this week eating only 30 points a few different days this week.  After a weekend of eating garbage, it doesn’t make sense to eat just to reach my target so we’ll see what the scale thinks later, but I’m happy with my decision to stop when I’m satisfied.

 

Monday, June 20, 2011

banana 0 (0)
Popchips 3 (3)

toast 2 (5)
Light Laughing Cow wedge 1 (6)
Roma tomato 0 (6)

1 oz. tortilla chips 4 (10)
1/2 c. refried beans 2 (12)
watermelon 0 (12)

1 c (225g) vanilla Greek yogurt 5 (17)
fresh strawberries and blueberries 0 (17)
2 mini kit-kat 4 (21)

Fiber One cereal 2 (23)
1/4 c. FF milk 1 (24)
banana 0 (0)

2 Roma tomatoes 0 (0)
1 c. sugar snap peas 0 (0)
toast 2 (26)
Laughing Cow light wedge 1 (27)
Popchips 3 (30)

Total PointsPlus: 30 *15 points under my target. What?! That doesn’t usually happen, but I ate lots of fruits and veggies today with some protein!*

Water Consumption: 9 glasses

Fruits and Veggies: 10 servings

Exercise: 27 minutes of circuit training *9 activity points earned*

Notes: I didn’t feel like eating today, and I’m reasonably sure it’s because I felt so bloated and yucky due to my weekend eating. Or it could be that I just wasn’t in the mood for food. It happens though I wish it happened more often. 😉 I’m satisfied with my actions today, and I’d like to do this week over the next 7 days. That’s my new, short-term goal. I’m also proud that I worked out even if I had to convince myself well after midnight. Also, homegrown roma tomatoes are incredible.

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Sunday, June 19, 2011

Popchips 3 (3)
Skinny Cow wafer bar 3 (6)
HandiSnack 3 (9)

2 pieces of fried fish ?
french fries ?
fried hushpuppies ?
fried squash ?
peach cobbler ?
fresh tomatoes 0
banana 0

2 baby back ribs ?
red beans and rice 5
mandarin cake ?

popcorn 2
candy 5
smores ?

Total PointsPlus: Uh, no idea, but way over, I’m sure…

Water Consumption: not a lot…not even sure I drank 8 which is highly unusual though very congruent with my actions yesterday.

Fruits and Veggies: 4

Exercise: I did not workout today.

Notes: I went on an impromptu trip to visit family..they cooked, and I ate what they cooked even though I don’t care for fried fish. I wasn’t prepared to go so I did my best with food choices. And apart from the homemade hushpuppies, I didn’t overindulge in any of it. I had small portions, but they were all fried. Yikes…then near the end of the evening I ate the s’mores knowing that I should not. Period. Disappointed two days in a row now…resetting now.

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Saturday, June 18, 2011

Popchips 3 (3)
Skinny Cow 3 (6)
Chicken sandwich 10 (16)
Small fries 5 (21)
ice cream cone 4 (25)

Skinny cow bar 3 (28)
mini kit-fat 2 (30)

Chinese noodles 7 (37)
Chicken and shrimp 16 (53)
Egg Roll 3 (56)
Crab rangoon 5 (61)
chicken 1 (62)
Watermelon 0 (62)
Fortune cookie 1 (63)

Total PointsPlus: 63 *18 over target. Um, not happy with this.*

Water Consumption: 11 glasses

Fruits and Veggies:

Exercise: I did not workout today.

Notes: I knew what I was doing as I was doing it. I see a direct correlation with my stress level and my eating, and I chose not to control it at the end of the evening. I’m obviously not pleased with myself, but I believe I can still have a successful week on the scale. And I’m really aggravated that I have allowed myself to feel defeated without bothering to workout. I’ll keep working inside my head so I can do better than this. I want to do better than this.

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Friday, June 17, 2011

115 g vanilla Greek yogurt 3 (3)
fresh strawberries and blueberries 0 (0)

toast 2 (5)
Light Laughing Cow wedge 1 (6)
tomatoes 0 (6)
banana 0 (6)

sour cream and onion Popchips 3 (9)
fun-size Snickers 2 (11)

handi-snack 3 (14)
banana 0 (14)
candy 5 (19)

sushi rolls 14 (33) *overestimating because I’m not sure!*
Skinny Cow wafer bar 3 (36)
fortune cookie 1 (37)

watermelon 0 (37)
sugar snap peas 0 (37)

Skinny Cow wafer bar 3 (40)
fresh blueberries and strawberries and coolwhip free 0 (40)

Popchips 3 (43)
mini snickers 2 (45)

Total PointsPlus: 45 *didn’t go over my target today. yay!*

Water Consumption: 11 glasses

Fruits and Veggies: 10 servings

Exercise: 27 minutes circuit training *earned 9 activity points*

Notes: Today proved that tracking my food intake for everyone to see (if they want to) affects my choices. I considered Chinese takeout, but I knew that sushi would be a better choice. And it was really important to me to stay at or under my target today. I’m so happy that I did.

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Thursday, June 16, 2011

banana 0 (0)

egg white sandwich w/bacon, mozzarella and tomatoes 5 (5)
Popchips 3 (8)
extra tomatoes 0 (8)

Sushi roll 8 (16)
Cheesecake cup 3 (19)
candy 5 (24)
BBQ Popchips 3 (27)

tortilla chips 7 (34)
refried beans 2 (36)
pico de gallo 0 (36)
banana 0 (36)
Skinny cow wafer bar 3 (39)
fresh mixed berries 0 (39)

popcorn 2 (41)
Cheesecake cup 3 (44)
mini kit-kat 2 (46)

Total PointsPlus: 46

Water Consumption: 8 glasses – will up this to 10 before bed!

Fruits and Veggies: 6 servings

Exercise: 55 minutes of cardio *earned 8 activity points*

Notes: I hit 46 again today. Really? Okay, so I need to cut down on the fruit a bit and concentrate more on eating vegetables tomorrow.

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Wednesday, June 15, 2011

1/2 serving of Uncle Sam Strawberry cereal 2 (2)
1/4 c. fat-free milk 1 (3)

1 c. fresh strawberries 0
1/2 c. fresh blueberries 0
6 tbsp. Coolwhip Free 1 (4)

Popchips 3 (7)

1 c. watermelon 0 (7)
cheesecake cup 3 (10)

WW Smart Ones meal 7 (17)
1 c. tomatoes 0 (17)
banana 0 (17)

homemade chicken club sandwich 10 (27)
1 oz. Sunchips 3 (30)
cheesecake cup 3 (33)

popcorn 2 (35)
Skinny Cow wafer bar 3 (38)
Chip’ins 3 (41)
Cheesecake cup 3 (44)
Strawberries/blueberries/Coolwhip Free 0 (44)

Strawberries/blueberries/banana/Coolwhip Free 0 (44)
Mini Kit-Kat + 1 reduced fat Nilla wafer 2 (46)

Total PointsPlus: 46

Water Consumption: 11 glasses

Fruits and Veggies: 11 servings

Exercise: 27 minutes of circuit training *earned 9 activity points*

Notes: I’m anxious to get on target. Going 1 P+ over two days in a row is just silly. I’ll work on improving that tomorrow, but I’m proud of myself for working out and staying pretty close to my target. There is clear room for improvement, and that’s all I need to focus on now.

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Tuesday, June 14, 2011

1 c. Dannon FF Vanilla Greek Yogurt 5
1/2 c. fresh strawberries 0
1/2 c. fresh blueberries 0

Vanilla Greek Yogurt and Fresh Berries

1/2 oz. french bread 2
Light Laughing Cow wedge 1
1 c. watermelon 0
1/2 c. steamed broccoli 0

Sour cream and Onion Popchips 3

Skinny Cow chocolate wafer bar 3 *New find and yum!*

baked stuffed chicken w/ broccoli, bacon and cheese 6
1/2 c. loaded mashed potatoes 4
2 homemade cheesecake cups 6

Homemade Cheecake Cups

1/2 oz. sun chips 2

1 1/2 c. watermelon 0
Cheddar Popchips 3

microwave popcorn 5
Skinny Cow wafer crisp bar 3
Cheesecake cup 3 *Went a little crazy with these today. This new recipe = so good!*

Total PointsPlus: 46 *One P+ over target, but I think I’m okay due to activity points.*

Water Consumption: 12 or 14 glasses *I lost track after 10 glasses*

Fruits and Veggies: 9 servings (servings based on 1/2 c. each)

Exercise: 50 minutes of cardio *7 activity points earned*

Notes: I’m mostly satisfied with my tracking today..also feeling good about getting creative with dinner and dessert. I’m looking forward to being more creative throughout the day tomorrow. Overall, I’m feeling pretty positive about my choices I’ve made today.

 

It’s not easy to put emphasis on my personal food choices, but I’m doing it. And this may not be the last time.  I definitely made better choices throughout the week (sans weekend) based on the knowledge that I’d be sharing my intake so I plan to record everything I eat over the weekend.  Being at a party Saturday could get tricky so I will implement my newest personal accountability tactic.

How has your week been?  Are you eating in a way that makes you feel proud of yourself? Ashamed? Somewhere in the middle?  And what’s happening with your workouts?  How can you improve this week?

Ten Reasons It’s Cool To Be Single

Yesterday I shared my thoughts on being rather dateless lately, and several of you left extraordinarily supportive, hope-filled comments suggesting that I focus on myself and the positive aspects of being single.  (For the record, I don’t sit at home feeling sorry for myself for not having a boyfriend. I like my life.)

I’m going to attempt to make a list of the positives now so here they are, in no particular order:

1. Moving across the country is easier because my only responsibility is for myself.  I can also take last minute vacation for a week with a friend just because without explanation or causing jealousy.

2. I can go to sleep with the TV on every night if I want to, or I can turn it off…no one else gets a vote. And I don’t have to rationalize sleeping with a ceiling fan on even though I’m freezing under three big blankets..which I am..every night. =)

3. No one leaves the toilet seat up in my bathroom.

4. Flirting is totally acceptable.

5. I can watch Say Yes to the Dress: Big Bliss and gush over Neal in White Collar, and no one rolls their eyes at me. Note to future boyfriend: You will not come between Neal and Me, but I’ll let you watch the show with me every Tuesday night as long as you’re quiet and don’t block the TV! 😉

Neal from White Collar...hot!

6. I am my biggest priority.  I have time to concentrate on myself and my health.

7. I’m not affected by anyone else’s eating habits on a regular basis.

8. I can stay in and watch college football all day without pressure to go out on Saturday night instead of staying in, eating a big sandwich or sushi and watching important games.

9. I’ve learned that I can be handy.  I’m pretty good at putting things together, and I can get rid of bugs when I need to.  I still believe that eradication of bugs should be a guy’s job, but I digress.

10. I have a clean slate – a new opportunity to be the best version of myself and to be someone I’m proud to be.

I still can’t honestly say that being single is the best thing ever, but it does have some major perks.  And, in case it’s not blatantly obvious, I’d rather be alone than be with someone just for the sake of not being alone.  I have always believed that’s a silly reason to date someone, and I don’t say yes every time someone asks just because he asks.

I am a work in progress, and I feel like another light bulb has come on in my head.  I am happy, smart, friendly, driven, compassionate and determined. I have a family that loves me and friends that are awesome.

I can’t control the future, but it looks bright.  And while I always hope to grow and improve, I’m thankful for  my life just as it is today.  And that feels good.

What do you think? Did I cover everything? Would you add anything to the list?

Dating, Err, Not

I’m the girl who always has a boyfriend. Correction, I used to be the girl who always had a boyfriend. And the list of guys from former relationships is (mostly) good. With exception of one or two, I’ve always dated guys who were good marriage material though I’ve never married. And in some ways, I think dating guys that society deemed “a good catch” proved that I was a good catch in spite of the 200+ pounds of excess weight that I carried on my body.

Now, after losing about 130 pounds and counting, I find myself completely dateless with no particular prospects. I’ve only been on one date since December! One date! The guy was tall and handsome and nice, but he couldn’t name the vice president of the United States, and he thought I was weird for being surprised by that.

I’d love to tell you that it’s a liberating feeling – being alone, moving across the country (next month) though the truth is that it’s lonely. And it has forced me to recognize how much I’ve based my self-worth on being in relationships in the past.

Last year, after a serious breakup, I dated several guys in close succession. And while I thought that it was a good idea, I realized later that I was putting way too much pressure on myself to find love. Now, six months and one date later, I’m fighting off this feeling that maybe I’ve lost my chances. Maybe love will never find me. Or maybe (hopefully) it will…..?

I have come a long way on my weight-loss journey, but I have a long way to go. And I am starting to realize that this self-induced pressure to find my soul mate while I’m still heavier than average is understandable – yet silly. Maybe I won’t meet Mr. Right until I’m less than 150 pounds. Or maybe I’ll meet him tomorrow. Maybe I’ve met him, and I don’t know it yet.  Or maybe I’ll meet him when I settle into my new home on the other coast. (That seems logical, doesn’t it?)

Maybe the man who loves me will never know me as an overweight person. I’ve believe, for a long time, that he should, but  my Curvy Nerd friend made an excellent point earlier this week when she said “at this point, I have to do it for me and hope that whomever I meet will understand my past.”  Maybe the same will be true for me.  I’ve separated my self-worth and my my (lack of) dating life so I guess we’ll find out in time.

This journey is definitely about me.  And what’s most important right now, for me, is to recognize my value regardless. I know that I have faults, but I’m also starting to believe that I’m loveable. And I would guess that I have to know that – and really believe it – before I can find true love with someone else.  At least, that’s what the smart people say. 😉

So I’ll continue down my road to self-love, forgiveness and acceptance and hope that somewhere along the way the right person will join me.  Until then, I’ll continue to look forward to the future while appreciating the present.

Reader Questions: Loose Skin?

When I started this blog, I really had no idea that anyone would care about what I had to say.  Receiving comments and e-mails is one of my favorite parts of blogging! And while I still plan to dish out my unsolicited opinions on a regular basis, I also welcome your thoughts and questions.

If you have a question or comment about clothes, food, workouts or anything else I ramble about incessantly, feel free to submit the question by going to the “Ask Kenlie” tab at the top of my blog.  It might even appear on my blog at some point.

This question struck me on a very personal level because it’s something that has crossed my mind many, many times in the last year.  And I know that some of my friends have faced this issue so let’s talk about it…

 

Dawn writes……
Hi Kenlie!

Like many others, I started following your blog after the kerfluffle with Southwest made the news. And, like many others, you inspired me to get back in the saddle and continue my weight loss journey. So THANK YOU! I had no idea there was an online community of “losers” who could inspire, commiserate, and share! Thank you for the introduction.

So, besides finally getting around to saying that, I also have a question. I’ve been watching the Extreme Makeover show where people lose a huge amount of weight in a year. I really don’t think it’s a good idea but it makes for interesting tv. (I assume they are closely monitored medically.) But, in the episodes I’ve seen, they are scheduled for skin removal surgery if they make their second goal. Is this something that you’ve thought about or read up on or anticipate? Is it the norm for people who lose more than 100 pounds? You are younger than I am (I’m 48) so perhaps your youthful skin is more elastic and you will not need surgery. I’m just curious to know if any of your weight loss friends have had it or are considering it.

I really enjoy your blog and I’m rooting for you!

 

Hi Dawn,

Thanks for rooting for me!  And thanks for this question.  It’s definitely something that I think about a lot though, at this point, I’m still so far away from my goal that it’s a dream more than a necessity.  I do believe that I’ll face this issue when I reach my goal, and it’s something that I’ve discussed at length.

My friend, Sarah, has lost  about 185 pounds and kept it off for the last 6 years.  You can read more about her here. She had surgery to remove skin shortly before I saw her last year.  I saw her again last week, and she looks fantastic!  You can see us here. But it took a long time to heal, and she had already spent years keeping the weight off.  She believes that one should lose as much weight organically before going into surgery, and we both agree that extreme weight-loss (as portrayed in TV) isn’t the best way to yield lasting results. In my opinion, they also fail to cover the psychological issues that accompany weight-loss and skin removal surgery.

I’m doing what I can to make the need for surgery minimal.  I workout regularly (cardio, strength training and muscle confusion) and have age on my side.  So who knows where I’ll be when I reach my goal?  I certainly can’t wait to find out!

Thanks again for the question, and stick around because I believe I’ll have to make decisions about this at some point – you know, later.

Best,

Kenlie

 

Have you had skin-removal surgery after losing a considerable amount of weight?  Is it something that you might consider?  Does it intimidate you as much as it intimidates me?

And one more thing, did the guy on Extreme Makeover Weight-Loss Edition last night really lose over 300 pounds in one year?! Did I hear that right?  If so, what are your thoughts?!