Daily Archives: July 6, 2011

Where Should I Begin?

Donut, Donut holes, 1 serving of Chicken minis from Chick-fil-a, more donut holes, roast beef sandwich, iced coffee, more donut holes, salad, cup of chicken Alfredo, 3 bread sticks, ice cream, more ice cream and cake……

And surprise…now my stomach hurts…….my body feels bloated, and I can honestly say that I had forgotten what this awful, overstuffed feeling was like. This feeling used to be the norm for me, but it hasn’t been in a long time. I decided, when I woke up at 5am that I’d allow myself to be whimsical with my eating all day. I figured I wouldn’t go too crazy, but I would indulge more than usual. ┬áThat was a bad idea.

I’ve never looked at vacation or holidays or birthdays as an excuse to eat worthless garbage, and I don’t really have an excuse for my actions. My workouts have been weak – almost non-existent for the last four days, and I’m not doing nearly as much as I should/want to do for myself.

Again, no excuses. I had a great day today with family and friends. Thirty-one has been kind to my so far, but it’s time for me to be kind to myself which probably means I need to get tough with myself first. I thought I was beyond eating too much crap in one day, but I’m not.

Though my workouts have been pretty solid and consistent in 2011, my food habits have regressed. And it’s time for me to take control. It’s time for me to stop maintaining and start acting like a person who still has 100 pounds to lose.

I can do this, and I will pick myself up as many times as I have to. I will not quit. I will forgive myself for my edible transgressions today, and I will respect myself and my body more tomorrow.