I was on the phone for hours last night with a friend who is way too easy to talk to. So when I finally went to sleep, I slept for a few hours before waking up to a busy day. I was really, really productive! I packed a few suitcases of things that I’m taking back to L.A. this weekend and accomplished several other important things including my weekly weigh-in.
After a huge loss last week (8.8 pounds) I didn’t expect much today, but the scale definitely reflected my efforts because I was down another 3 pounds making it a total of the first 100+ whatever + 11.8! Reframing my thoughts and working on worrying about the total number less has really had a positive affect on me. I feel strong and confident and ready to conquer this week too!
I can’t express how great it feels to workout and make mindful decisions all week that allow me to step on the scale with confidence. I know that we all have varying opinions on the scale, but seeing the numbers in black and white is crucial to me. And right now, I like what I see (kind of.)
Seeing the downward trend again makes me feel like a rock star, but I still have so many issues with how I look. I’m still living apologetically – still insecure about what the outside looks like in spite of how far I’ve come. I’m not sure when that will change, but I know it will at some point. Until then, I’m going to keep taking it day by day.
I read a quote on twitter today that had a pretty strong impact on me. And it was particularly poignant because I’ve been fighting major feelings of insecurity regarding my body since this afternoon.
“A stranger’s judgment of you does not define who you are; it defines who they are.”
It’s a powerful statement, and it’s true. Seeing that quote turned everything around for me, and I began replacing my insecurities with positive thoughts of how far I’ve come and what I’m doing right now.
It has been a fantastic day, and I’m not quite as scared/sad/anxious/worried about the next chapter of my life as I was only a few days ago. I’m moving in a good direction, and it feels like the right direction. (Remind me of that when I need to hear it, okay?)
What about you? Are you moving in a positive direction?