Two if my favorite topics are food and shopping so my friends have come through for me in a major way by talking about such fun topics this week! Today’s post was written by my friend, B, or Brooke: Not On A Diet. And I consider myself pretty lucky to know her (and her super awesome B-fry.) I hope you’ll check out her blog because I love it, and I know you’ll love it too!
So, while Kenz is getting things ready for her lovely Uncle Wesley, she let me crash the place! If you don’t know me I’m Brooke from Brooke: Not On A Diet! Over there I blog about my pretty awesome life, my 100+ pound weight loss, and my amazing fiancé B-Fry!
I’ve been doing this blogging and weight loss thing for a couple of years now. There have been times of awesome blogging and periods where I was quiet for weeks. Times where the weight fell off and times that it didn’t. Posts about binge eating, and even a post about my lack of a booty. You should really stop by; I hear it’s a great read. 😉
Even though I have lost over 100lbs, I still have my insecurities. There are still times where I feel like that 327lb girl who let her weight hold her back. The girl who would do anything to not have people notice her weight. The girl who would dye her hair some crazy color so that was the first thing people noticed instead of all the excess weight.
When I was that size I wouldn’t dream of walking into a store like Victoria Secret or even a JC Penny’s. There was no way they would carry a size as big as mine and I wouldn’t wanted to be waited on some skinny girl who would just judge me for the way I looked. I avoided those stores like the plague and instead shopped at Lane Bryant or CATO where I knew they’d have my size and the workers weren’t stick thin. I knew I could walk into those stores and not be judged.
Then I lost weight. I got to a size where I wouldn’t have to shop in a specialty store. And even bought a shirt in a store that didn’t even offer plus sizes. I’m still super apprehensive about shopping in those stores though.
There’s still a part of me that is afraid of getting judged, that I’m still a plus size gal. It’s a total mind thing that’s sometimes very tough to work through. B-Fry helps a lot though and calms me enough to work through those thoughts and to enter stores I never imagined I would.
Just the other day B-Fry and I were shopping and I said I needed some new bras. The mall we were at had Aerie (American Eagle’s intimates store) and B-Fry suggested I try there. Well, I got that sick feeling in my stomach because I was worried I would go in there and they wouldn’t have my size. And when I would walk out of the store the employees would all start snickering. I told B-Fry I didn’t want to, that I was positive they wouldn’t have my size.
B-Fry talked me into going in and when I entered the door I was still scared. But then I was greeted by one of those dreaded ‘skinny girls.’ I was certain she would be the first one to snicker at me. But guess what, she didn’t! She was actually an extremely big help and they even carried my size! I walked out of there with two bras and a chuckling B-Fry because he was right.
I’m slowly learning to get over my fear of those stores. When I do enter them I usually end up having the time of my life because I can now fit into a lot of their clothes. I now no longer have to be the girl with crazy colored short hair. Instead I’m the girl who can buy a dress off the rack at Target and rock awesome hair.
The girl who now welcomes the attention from the ‘skinny girls’ who are jealous because I’m hot and have even hotter man candy on my arm!
If you’re someone who had lost weight are you ‘afraid’ of those stores?
If you’re just beginning your journey, do you avoid those stores?