Well, it’s Thursday, and I know that I weigh more today than I weighed two weeks ago. And I take responsibility for it. I made some unusual choices last week, but I’m living healthy today. And how I’m living now is more important than how I lived last week – at least, that’s what I tell myself to stay motivated going forward. But it’s important to recognize how easy it is to gain weight over a 10 day period.
The week I didn’t workout was really hard on me mentally, and it was compounded by eating out everyday and not taking time to chop vegetables and plan. I’m so ready to weigh-in today even though it won’t be fun because I’m ready to restart mentally. I’ve already restarted physically through exercise and food intake.
Here’s a recap of my workouts over the last week:
10/07/11 – Elliptical 35 minutes and weights (upper and lower)
10/08/11 – Elliptical 30 minutes and weights (upper and lower)
10/09/11 – Elliptical 30 minutes and weights (upper and lower)
10/10/11 – Elliptical 45 minutes and weights (upper and lower)
10/11/11 – Elliptical 35 min and weights (upper only)
10/12/11 – Elliptical 45 minutes and weights (lower only)
Even after completing a week of solid workouts, I expect to gain somewhere between 3 and 5 pounds, and that’s a tough realization that I have to face if I want to move forward. I’ve made some nice strides since joining my new Weight Watchers group, and it’s important to remind myself of that so I don’t become frustrated with the numbers on the scale today (which is easy to do.) I know that the efforts I’ve been making in the last few days will add up as long as I keep doing what I’m doing so I will, but I’m struggling with my past food decisions and regrets even though I made a conscious decision to eat poorly several times while Uncle W was in the hospital. I decided that I’d worry about weight-loss and my relationship with food later. And while I didn’t allow myself to have everything I wanted (believe me, I said no to myself many times) I allowed myself more than I needed. I ate unhealthy foods, in part, for comfort and because it was easier.
So the moral of the story is…working out is a big part of healthy living and weight-loss, but it’s not the only part. It all matters. And every choice we make is reflected in the long run so I’m going to work harder to make choices that make me feel confident and proud. And today, I’m going to try to concentrate on the good things I’ve accomplished this week without beating myself up too much over the poor choices. I’m a flawed human, and I know I have to keep trying…