I spent a lot of time thinking about my blog during the week and a half that I couldn’t access it thanks to Hurricane Isaac. In some ways I missed it, but it was also a relief to have a break. I love blogging, but I don’t always love everything that comes with it.
It’s a strange feeling to know that people are out there and that some of them make a habit out of reading the things I write here. It makes me feel good, and it’s also humbling.
My life has been filled with ups and downs (many of which I have discussed in great detail here.) I’ve shared my feelings on my health and goals, my struggles and my overwhelming desire to figure out how to win my personal battle against obesity. I have opened up about mistakes I’ve made, and I’ve discussed dating and my desire to be loved.
I started this blog because I wanted and needed to lose weight, and it has been an integral tool in helping me keep off what I’ve lost. It also make me keenly aware that I have a long way to go.
It has allowed me to find my voice and share it with the world, and it has helped me understand that it’s okay to be who I am.
In many ways my blog is my home. It has been a part of my life through good and bad. It has helped me mend my heart when it felt broken, and it has allowed me to seek and accept encouragement from people (many of whom understand what my journey is like.)
I’m thankful for my blog because in spite of the nasty trolls it brings people into my world that I wouldn’t know otherwise. It allows me to connect with people from all walks of life who appreciate me as much as I appreciate them.
I want to love myself and live my best life, but I can hardly call my blog a “weight-loss” blog. I stopped calling it that several months ago, and recently I’ve considered changing its name. I decided against it because I love the name, and the tagline sums up who I am (err, at least who I’m trying to be.)
Losing weight is still my goal, and I’m trying to make it my biggest priority again. Just don’t be surprised if you see a new mix of posts soon. I’m going to allow myself to talk about what I like, and if it interests you, great. I hope you’ll stick around and join the conversation. If not, I hope you’ll accept that my ultimate goal is to find inner joy.
I like being with friends, fitness and sitcoms like Drop Dead Diva and White Collar. I also like crafting and nail polish and riding my bike. Music is important to me too.
Weight-loss will always matter to me because it’s my life’s biggest challenge, but I’m going to start sharing more of myself because happiness is about a lot more than my weight.
I strive to be myself here so why not keep it real? If you look at the “Weigh-ins” page at the top of my blog, you’ll see that I’ve decided to update my weigh-ins when the scale starts moving again. I write my workouts on my wall calendar, but I’ll try to make an effort to update them more often here too.
My life is filled with things that make it interesting (at least to me) so I’m going to enjoy it, take it a day at a time and see what happens from there. Maybe if I take off some of this self-imposed pressure I’ll start seeing results I like again.
Does your blog evolve with you, or does it help you stay on track?