Blogging has been taxing for me lately, and I have been weighing whether or not I should continue blogging. This is what I posted on Facebook yesterday,
“After nearly four years of friendship, accountability and expression, I have to face the fact that the hatred and vitriol seem to have taken over. I no longer know how to move forward with my blog which has been ‘my closest friend.'”
Though the amount of hate mail I receive has lessened over all, the messages are exceedingly alarming. Note to readers: If you wish I was dead, feel free to not read my blog. I’m alive and well, and though your hatred shakes me up occasionally, I’m not going to let you decide whether I blog or not. And speaking of blogging…
I’ve had a stellar week so far, and there’s still a lot of fun coming up. I spent the day in the French Quarter at ESPN earlier this week. The Suit came with me, and we had a great time. We saw Eli Manning and others up close, and he was so humble even when the cameras weren’t rolling. It was so cool to see that.
I’m heading back to ESPN today before going to a tail gate party in the afternoon. Tonight I’m heading to a live VH1 concert to see Train perform, and over the weekend we’re going to some CNN events and the NFL’s tailgate party where I’ll get to see Drew Brees, Peyton Manning, Darren Sproles and more.
I can’t make the trolls go away, but I can tell you that I’m happy (most of the time) in spite of them. My social media presence has taken a hit, but my everyday life is going well. I feel fulfilled, lucky and proud to be doing the things I’m doing with my life.
Somewhere along the line losing weight got hard for me, and I have never pretended otherwise. But my life is about more than that, and while it’s still important to me, it’s not the only important thing. I’ve gone through major changes, emotional growth and a variety of other important things that have made my life better.
I’m not making excuses for myself, but you have to know that if you choose to read about my life, then you need understand that I’m trying to make it a good one for myself. Maybe I’m not winning every battle with flying colors, but I’m happy, loved and determined. Isn’t that what we’re all fighting for?