Four years ago today I attended my first Weight Watchers meeting. I weighed nearly 400 pounds, and I was scared of what the future held for me if I didn’t change something. I was hopeful, but I had no idea if I could do it or not.
If you had asked me at the time, I would have said that losing 50 pounds would be a dream come true. Losing 100 pounds was unfathomable, but I was ready to try. I promised myself that I would keep trying until I reached my goal – no matter how long it took, and I made another decision – to blog about it. I figured I’d make a journal to document my struggles and victories along the way, and I had no idea that my life would change so much as a result.
You would think that I’d be at my goal by now. It’s certainly not unreasonable to lose 250 pounds over the course of four years, but there’s no official time table for dramatically altering your life. Quitting has never been an option for me, but I’ve been hard on myself lately because that’s what I need right now. The numbers on the scale are inching down since I joined my new Weight Watchers meeting, but I’m definitely not the confident, secure girl that I was when I began seeing the numbers drop.
I’m not at my goal yet, but I am finally maybe, kind of, almost starting to believe that I will get there. And my life is healthier, physically and mentally, than it was on this day four years ago.
It hasn’t been easy, and it’s far from over. It has been hard, but the rewards have been great. After focusing on healing, admitting the truth to myself and those around me and settling into a new routine and a new home, I am ready to make this a year of physical progress. I’m so thankful for everything I’ve gained by sharing my journey with you all, and I’m humbled every single time someone makes an effort to read what I write here.
Here’s to another year of not giving up and proving to ourselves and each other that what seems impossible is not. Thanks from the bottom of my heart for being here to face these challenges with me and reminding me that I’m never alone in this…