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Love, or Something Like It

It’s almost Valentine’s Day, and while no one will be giving me flowers or chocolates this year, love is on my mind…

There’s a man in my life, and I have feelings for him. I mentioned him for the first time here in September, and I’ve mentioned him once or twice since then. In some ways, he doesn’t fit the mold of the man that I used to envision, but in other ways he exceeds all of the dreams of a significant other that I’ve ever had.

He’s smart, incredibly humble and handsome, and he makes me laugh. He comforts me when I cry and calms me down when I get ticked off. I light up when I see him, and the big, easy smile that always appears on his face when he sees me shows me that he’s happy to see me too.

He is a great father. (Yes, Kenlie is attracted to a man who has kids.) He loves them, and they love him. The relationship he has with his children says a lot about the kind of man he strives to be, and the relationship that I have with his children makes it easy to love them too.

He doesn’t wear a suit to work, but he looks smoking hot when he does wear one. He’s successful. He works hard, but he knows that he’s blessed to have the career that he has.

He has a thankful heart, and he loves Jesus. When I began thinking about what I wanted in a man, it never occurred to me that I’d be attracted to someone who would put GOD first, but now I think it’s one of the sexiest things about him. He thinks about his actions and his words before he acts on them, and he strives to live a life that is GOD-approved. I’m trying to do the same thing, and he helps me grow in that. I help him grow too.

He stands by his beliefs (even sometimes when I think he’s dead wrong,) but he’s also amenable to change. When I make a good point, he embraces it. When he’s wrong, he’s not too prideful to admit that he’s wrong. Few things make my heart happier than watching him as he hangs on my every word before he concedes that I’m right or challenges me to think it through in a different way.

We’re good for each other. No, we’re great for each other. Whether we’re hanging out with friends into the wee hours of the night or relaxing on the sofa with his kids, or reading The Bible, we’re happy when we’re together, and people notice.

Our friends often joke about it, noting that when we’re together, we act like no one else is there. (They exaggerate, but point taken.) It is safe to assume that if we’re in the same room, we won’t be too far apart (with exception of Sunday mornings when I’m busy on stage or chatting and hugging everyone who walks through the doors of our church while he catches up with friends that he doesn’t see everyday.)

His life is so different than mine in some ways, but at the same time, he understands me. I don’t have to work hard to explain my feelings to him. They just flow naturally, and he communicates his thoughts and feelings very well most of the time too.

He knows all of my bad stuff – my darkest regrets, the lies I’ve told, the mistakes I’ve made that hurt people, the pain that I endured, my fears, and he doesn’t judge me. He just empathizes and allows me to be exactly who I am (scars, faults and all.)

He’s ten years older than I am, and he just moved into a beautiful new home in the suburbs that he had custom built, while I live in a historical high-rise downtown. He likes fishing and hunting and outdoor things, and I like shopping and traveling to new and interesting places. That said, when I step into his world, I realize that I love it, and the same happens when he steps into my little world. I’d probably even like fishing as long he handled the bait and the fish (since I’d inevitably catch some big ones!) We share a lot of friends, but he seems comfortable with everyone in my life regardless of how long he’s known them.

It’s hard to explain the connection that I feel for him because he’s not my boyfriend, yet he’s so much more than just some guy that I have a crush on. Sure, I think he’s amazing. He’s breathtaking. He makes me giddy, but it’s deeper than that. There’s something awesome and undefinable about our coexistence, but I don’t try to categorize it. I just enjoy it.

He matters to me. Our paths have crossed for a reason, though neither of us can fully explain why yet. I like to make him happy, and I want to take care of him (even though he is a full grown man who doesn’t need my protection.) I like feeling like he needs me from time to time, and I like knowing that I can depend on him to be there when I need or want him to be.

He is so special to me. I’m pretty full of joy regardless of others, but he makes my heart happy. He is the kind of man I want in my life forever – the kind of man that I’d change everything for if I had the opportunity. I cannot begin to understand why GOD has placed him in my life if he’s not meant for me, but I’m patiently waiting for Him to show me.

Lately a few friends have suggested that I express what I want in a relationship, and if I could sum it up, I’d say that I want something just like this (only adding that I want to kiss him whenever I want to.) I want the kind of relationship that I’ve just described, and I want it forever.

I want to love someone who loves me, and I want to show that man how much he is loved and desired. I want intimacy and a promise that he’ll always be there. If I can’t have that, then I’ll just continue to live life as a single person who’s thankful for everything that I do have.


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    February 13, 2014 at 4:10 am

    That was beaitiful what you wrote and anyone would br foolish not to be honored by it. My only question is. Why isn’t he your boyfriend? With all the love and positive energy you share, how come that step isn’t there?

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      February 13, 2014 at 1:54 pm

      We’re friends. He’d definitely be honored by it…definitely.

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    February 13, 2014 at 1:31 pm

    I knew you had fallen for someone. I hope he’s smart enough to love you back.

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      February 13, 2014 at 1:55 pm

      Since when are boys smart? 😉

      It was nice hearing from you the other day. Thank you for all of the kind words..

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    February 13, 2014 at 1:38 pm

    If I were the man you were talking about here I would love you forever. That’s beautiful, and you are beautiful. I hope he realizes how lucky he is someday.

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      February 13, 2014 at 1:55 pm

      Aw thanks, Layla…ha

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    February 13, 2014 at 1:43 pm

    Maybe he will realize that you’re a blessing right in front of him. If not then God has an even better plan for you.

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    February 13, 2014 at 1:44 pm

    Have you kissed him? If not, YOU NEED TO KISS HIM TODAY. Show him what he’s missing.

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    February 13, 2014 at 2:05 pm

    You’re beautiful, and if he finds out how you feel and doesn’t act on it immediately then I’ll be your valentine while he sits at home like a fool.

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    February 13, 2014 at 2:06 pm

    Have you told him how you feel? Does he give you any reason to think that he wouldn’t love you?
    Please don’t let your deeply rooted insecurities keep you from loving this man completely. You obviously love him already whether you realize it or not.

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    February 13, 2014 at 2:09 pm

    I have many years on your sweetheart, and I can tell you that if he returns these feelings he’ll show it. You will know how he feels not by his words, but by his actions. Pay attention to his actions because those matter far more than his words.

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    February 13, 2014 at 2:18 pm

    You sound so full of love. Keep your chin up and know that it’s going to happen for you. If not with this guy with someone else. You’re amazing, and anyone paying attention knows it.

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    February 13, 2014 at 2:21 pm

    Unless he has a wife at home or a girlfriend, I say go for it. Men love it when a woman knows what she wants and expects to get it. I agree with Alex. Kiss him. The whole wait for the man to make the first move is ridiculous. We always have to make the first move, and I’d be game if you offered me what you’d offer him.

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    February 15, 2014 at 1:05 am

    What a sweet post. Sounds like the 2 of you are
    developing wonderful rapport & friendship.
    I’m anxious to see where it goes from here.
    I feel your perspective has evolved, & I’m blessed
    that God has become important in your life.
    Wishing you well, Chrissy

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    Sarah Scott
    February 17, 2014 at 10:15 am

    You sound so happy and I’m so happy for you, hope this turns into a forever relationship

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    February 17, 2014 at 11:24 am

    Sounds like a winner to me! I hope he sees what a treasure he has in you, too!

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    February 18, 2014 at 5:45 am

    This guy sounds like your dream in the flesh, so what are you waiting for? People and relationships like this are so very rare and when you find it, you should grab hold with both hands and never let go! So…run and grab!

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    April 8, 2014 at 9:01 pm

    Be careful not to fall into friendationship….that is when you are friends with someone bug it’s basically like a relationship however there is no commitment… i think you should seriously pray about the will of God for you guys, and ask God to reveal it to you as well. otherwise ask God to shut off your feelings for him and to bring the right guy your way!

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