I was looking for something specific on Facebook this morning, and I came across the first status that I ever posted (circa 2008,) and it simply said, “So. Freaking. Thankful.”
I’ve been in a pretty dark place over the last few weeks, but I woke up happy again this morning. I smiled all day. I felt so much joy that had felt missing for far too long. Three weeks is a long time to be miserable when you’re usually a happy-go-lucky lady!
I’ve been lamenting some things that I simply cannot change, but last night I was reminded of how incredibly awesome my life is. I allowed myself to be distracted (by positive things,) but it’s a good feeling to realize that I’m surrounded by stellar people who love me and want me to be happy.
I went to dinner last night and laughed until my face hurt. We went to a new restaurant near my place called “Peche,” and everything we tasted was divine.
After that, I spent the rest of the evening with two of my favorite men on the planet – Clint and Joe, and it was at that point that I realized that I wasn’t sad anymore.
Exercise has definitely played a role in pulling me out of this emotional rut too. It’s funny, isn’t it? Most of us know that we’ll feel better after a sweaty workout, but sometimes it feels nearly impossible to get up and do it. Am I the only one who feels this way?
I’ve spent a lot of time reaching out to God lately too, and feeling His love and comfort has gotten me through this emotionally rough period. Someone important to me sometimes says, “the blessing is in the brokeness.” (Yeah, I know that “brokeness” isn’t a word, but it’s true, to a point.)
It’s awesome to lean on God and to feel that He has everything under control, but the rest of that statement is overly religious rubbish. Leaning on God when you need Him is amazing, but He heals us so we can bless others. We can’t touch the lives of other people if we’re always broken.
I feel so much better than I have in weeks, and it feels good to be happy again. It’s amazing how wonderful you feel when you jump back in and start experiencing all of the reasons you have to be thankful.
Does anyone else understand what I’m saying? Have you ever made yourself feel better by recognizing all of the reasons you have to be thankful?