It has been almost a month since I posted here, and I have mixed feelings about that. I love all of the positive aspects of blogging – the people, the inspiring stories, the community, but I no longer think that it’s healthy to subject myself to judgments from strangers and/or people who are just hoping for a reason to be rude.
I’ve had some emotional days recently, but overall I feel loved and valued and content in my life right now. While I have become more private online, I’m an open book in my everyday life. I wear my feelings on my sleeve, and I’ve noticed that people who look me in the eyes are much more gracious than those who hide behind their computer screens. (Are we seeing a theme here?)
That said, I’ve been blogging here for almost five years, and over the last several months, I have considered developing a new site, in which I feel more comfortable discussing my thoughts and emotions on a range of issues. I purchased a new domain name and set up the hosting for it, but I think I’d miss this blog too much to change it.
When I started this blog, my goal was to lose weight and to learn to love myself, and I’ve done both. I regained some of what I lost, as I’ve stated in previous posts, but I love myself more than I could have imagined when I wrote my first post here almost five years ago. I’ve managed to keep a significant amount of weight off too.
I’m not perfect, and I have no interest in pretending to be. I’ve always owned my weight and taken responsibility for it. I should have this figured out already. I should have reached my goal a long time ago, blah, blah, blah…I know, I know, but I’m still here– still fighting to believe that I’m worth the effort, still exercising…
My entire life has changed, and it is better than I ever would have imagined. I thought I had it good five years ago, and I did. I’m thankful for the incredible things that I’ve experienced so far, and I’m grateful for where I am today.
If you’re one of the encouraging people who has been here to keep me company on my little journey, then you should know that I miss you. I’m not sure how to proceed, apart from dumping all of my feelings here again, so maybe I’ll do that soon…
Has anyone else here even taken a blogging break? If so, do you think that it was a good idea?