A Shift in Perspective

I was sitting with the production team for NOLA Church after a meeting last night when my pastor, Monte, who’s also my friend, said something that completely changed my perspective about this blog.

I lead the social media team for our church, and we were discussing how my personal blog has changed over the last year and a half or so.

I explained that I’ve outgrown it -that the good no longer outweighs the negativity.  I don’t exactly believe that so I also told the team about all of the positive things that have come as a result, and I admitted that I was torn.

Some of you have been praying for me for years, while others aren’t very happy that I love Jesus now.  They don’t like that I talk about Him, and they’ve been pretty candid about it.

We talked about the folks who are few in number, though sometimes extraordinarily annoying.  You know them – the jerks who troll the internet trying to tear strangers down.  Sometimes they target me, and sometimes it bothers me.  I ignore it, but sometimes it bugs me.  I’m human, you know?  I wish I could keep all of the good while eradicating all of the bad.

He said,  “If you know what HE did for you, then it doesn’t matter what they do to you.

In the past I’ve treated people poorly.  I’ve been selfish.  I’ve lied.  I’ve spoken people with less respect than they deserve.  That said, I repented, and it’s something that I have to do often.  I’ve spent the last few years becoming honest with myself, and while it has been incredibly difficult,  it has also allowed me to experience freedom.

I’ve found happiness, but I’ve also found contentment.  I’ve experienced forgiveness and grace, and I’ve been overwhelmed by the love of God and the people around me.  I’m more humble, more honest and more fulfilled than I ever could have imagined, and while I’ll never be perfect, I know who I am now.  I know how God sees me.  His grace has been extended to me, and I accept it.

There are some changes coming on this blog, and I hope that they’ll represent me as who I am today.  I still have issues to work through, and there’s a lot that I’d like to say.  I’m not done working through every single issue. I haven’t figured out how to be successful in weight-loss yet, and that’s a big one.

This blog means something to me, and those of you who offer support and encouragement mean something to me.  I’ll be turning a page on this blog soon, and I hope you’re around as I start the next chapter.

 

 

 

 

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22 Comments

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    Krista Whitson
    May 14, 2014 at 5:14 am

    I have followed you for a couple of years now. My mother & sister both struggle with their weight also. I know what you go through (daily). You keep up the good fight!! As I’m sure you are aware, your weight does not define who you are but your Christianity certainly will. What a blessed format you have for spreading the word of our most amazing Lord.
    You keep it up girl and know there are a lot more out there for you than against. I’m looking forward to the changes to come.
    Keeping you in my thought & prayers. Kritsta

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    Debra
    May 14, 2014 at 6:46 am

    How sad it would be if we never allowed our friends (or ourselves) to change as we experience what life brings us. We don’t have to be mirror images of each other — it’s fun to see what each of us brings to the party! I wish you nothing but the best for the next chapters of your life’s journey.

    My life is changing in ways that are overwhelming me in terms of time and commitment, but if I’m not always there for everyone in my life I hope they know that it’s because of the changes in my own journey, and not because of my judgement of theirs. Sometimes life just gets in the way, and you have to cheer people on from a greater distance. That shouldn’t change your direction; just remember to wave at your friends as your ships pass.

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    Jennifer Lynn
    May 14, 2014 at 6:57 am

    I have loved watching your transformation this last year. Your heart seems lighter and happier yet fuller. I am proud to be your friend and I will be with you wherever your journey takes you. I may not go to church and I may not know him but reading your experiences gives me hope. You are a good person and I am so happy to see you so happy. Xoxox
    And I miss you.

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    Christie
    May 14, 2014 at 8:08 am

    I think your relationship with God is wonderful and should be shared. I am excited about the change in the blog if that is what makes you happy. That is the most important thing. It is your blog and your happiness!! I have enjoyed it up until now and I know I will love what is to come! Have a Happy Day!!! God Bless!

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    mary
    May 14, 2014 at 8:29 am

    i will be here …every step of the way. cannot wait to see what you have in store my friend!

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    Denise
    May 14, 2014 at 10:02 am

    Hi Kenlie! I’m very happy to hear that you are going to continue to your blog! I enjoy reading what you have to say and I find it very encouraging to know that you haven’t given up the fight. In my opinion I don’t feel you are overly religious when you talk about Jesus and how you feel about him. Keep on truckin’! Can’t wait to hear the upcoming news on your continued blog.

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      Kenlie
      May 18, 2014 at 7:08 pm

      I’m just going to make a few changes in its appearance…as soon as I figure out how to do it. Ha..

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    Jen B
    May 14, 2014 at 10:03 am

    I really do hope you stick around. I’ve enjoyed reading your blog for years (?) now!

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    Lisa
    May 14, 2014 at 10:47 am

    You’ve always been a inspiration – I can’t wait to see what’s next!

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    sandra mc combs
    May 14, 2014 at 3:21 pm

    Praise the Lord, Please keep the blog. He will bless you for taking a stand for Him. These haters of Christ are predicted in the Bible. Don’t let them get you down. They have their reward on earth, yours is still to come. Hugs!!!!

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    Brenda Pickett
    May 14, 2014 at 5:10 pm

    All I can say is Yay!! I Love You!

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      Kenlie
      May 18, 2014 at 7:05 pm

      I love you too, Aunt Brenda! Can’t wait to see you at the end of the month!

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    Connie
    May 15, 2014 at 9:23 am

    I check in with your blog everyday because I am interested in YOU not what some people would like for you to say. Life is about changing and growing and that may not necessarily always mean that your changes and growth are about weight loss, even if that is how this blog started out. I started reading it because of the weight loss perspective, but soon learned to love you. I think it’s great that you are seeing beyond your imperfections and are shifting your focus on someone other than you, (our Lord)… as that is ideally how He would want it . I think when that happens, other good things fall into place, such as your weight loss goals.
    I say congratulations on your happy life, your love for Christ, and your love for Kenlie.

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      Kenlie
      May 18, 2014 at 7:05 pm

      I love the last line of your comment. Thank you, Connie. It means a lot..

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    Nathan the FFK
    May 15, 2014 at 9:49 am

    I don’t think a lot of people realize how our faith can be tied to our weight loss journeys. I’ve always seen this journey apart of my faith walk because our bodies are God’s temple and we need to treat it like one. I definitely applaud you for being so open about your faith and how you keep it at the center of everything you do. It’s sad that other people can’t see past that.

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      Kenlie
      May 18, 2014 at 7:07 pm

      I know that people will always find a reason not to like me if that’s what they want to do. I’m trying to keep God at the center because I’ve experienced more peace and grace than I ever did otherwise.

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    Sarah
    May 15, 2014 at 1:37 pm

    I’m glad you’re not going to stop Blogging! Count me among those who would be dissapointed. I am not religious at all but I don’t mind the new shift – it gives me more perspective into your life! Everyones road/journey/path is different and we should encourage others along their chosen path not try to beat them off onto our own :/ Ignore the trolls!!!!

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    Cat
    May 15, 2014 at 2:00 pm

    Amen Sister! I’m excited about where the Lord is leading you, and I will be right here cheering you on! I praised when you told of your relationship with Jesus. It makes every struggle on earth different; some become more meaningful, while others just lose all importance. I have noticed that my own health journey has become a spiritual journey as I learn to trust in Him and rely on His strength.
    God is moving in big ways right now! I have heard/read so many stories of God directing major growth in lives. I feel a revival coming on!

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    Karan
    May 15, 2014 at 6:25 pm

    Happy for you and me!
    I am a Christian also. Doesn’t matter what the topic is these days there are always naysayers. I think you are very brave to expose your inner self and I appreciate that you stand up and say what a lot of us are to shy to say!

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    Lena C.
    May 16, 2014 at 11:57 pm

    Hmmm. I have different thoughts on this. On the one hand, I think a lot of people have come to your blog because they are interested solely on your weight loss struggle. So they may not be inclined to read about religious or spiritual matters on this blog. So I can see how they can be turned off by posts with religious aspects too them. I don’t think that’s very unreasonable. After all, I don’t go to a food or crafts blog to hear someone’s political views (especially ones I disagree with).

    However, weight loss is a very personal struggle and journey. And this blog is about your own experience with that journey; that much is pretty clear. People get through personal hurdles through different means and spirituality may very be an aid in that. So in that sense, it seems relevant to post about those matters if they’re important to you.

    And in the end, it’s your blog. Do what you want.

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      Kenlie
      May 18, 2014 at 7:04 pm

      I think you made great points, Lena. It’s totally fine with me if people don’t like what I’m writing here. The simple solution would be for them not to read it, but experience has taught me that there are hateful people in the world who get their kicks by spewing hatred. It’s sad for them, but it’s not my responsibility to appease them.

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    Treasa
    May 17, 2014 at 8:29 pm

    I’m glad you are continuing your blog. Not sure how I found you but glad I did. I’ve enjoyed hearing about your relationship with God, if people don’t like it that is their problem. Stand true, stay strong. Looking forward to many more posts!

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