We all like to feel validated, and some of us need it more than others. I used to be among the neediest people I knew, and as I sat with Jeff and Shannon last night at Starbucks, we reflected on the changes we’ve all gone through over the last year.
Jeff got married, and Shannon met someone worthy of an exclusive relationship with her. We’ve all taken different steps, but we’ve all grown. My relationships with God and people are significantly different than they were one year ago.
I talk about it a lot here – I know who God is. I know what He did for me (in sending Jesus to pay the ultimate price for me and save me from myself,) and knowing that gives me peace, hope and validation that never existed before.
I still like attention, but I don’t need it anymore. Now my biggest struggle comes from my need for instant gratification. Whether I’m shopping or eating or dating, I find myself looking for the quickest way to achieve all of the fast, happy feelings.
My need for instant gratification has become evident over the last several years, but I never considered the possibility that it was tied to my weight gain. It makes perfect sense, of course, and now I have to figure out how to replace the desire for immediate gratification with the contentment that I’ve experienced in other areas of my life.
I don’t know how to combat this issue yet, but I do know that there has to be a way. I know that I should pray about it, but I haven’t yet. I’ve become so accustomed to feeling like a failure in weight-loss, that it has become an excuse to stay this way.
I want to continue to change even though it doesn’t always feel good, and I want to learn to be content with everything that I’m already lucky enough to have.
Does anyone else struggle with the need for instant gratification?