If You Don’t Like It, Change It

Monte shared a message about discernment at NOLA Church Sunday morning, and while there was so much food for thought, the biggest takeaway for me was when he said, “If you don’t like your relationship with God, change it.” This isn’t going to be a post about that even though that’s really important, but the statement can apply to practically anything in our lives. 

I’ve been feeling down a lot lately, and today I decided to do some things to change it. Last night I spent some time singing and playing piano (if you can call what I did playing) just to break through some of the nervousness that I feel when I think of playing in front of people. I did it a lot growing up because my parents made me, but now I’d like to because I enjoy it. I’m passionate about singing, so maybe at some point I could feel the same way about keys. if not, it will still be fun to do it from time to time.

  

I changed up my lunch routine a bit today too. I went to Whole Foods and ate a healthy, hearty lunch, then I picked up a spa water (okay, two) to bring back to the office with me. I drank my fruit infused water instead of coffee, and it made me feel healthy and a little fancy. (It doens’t take much. Ha.) 

  

I also spent some time on my rooftop after work today. Having a snack and drink in your bed is gross and depressing, but do it by the pool, and it’s awesome. I had a couple of friends over too, and while we were up there a nice guy offered us some of the steaks he grilled. I had a few bites, but I grilled some stuff as well. 

After that I hit the gym with my aforementioned friends. Two out of three of us didn’t feel like it, but thankfully, the one who did convinced us to do it too. I spent 30 minutes on the treadmill, which feels a lot better than nothing. 

  

I also signed up to do a 5k with another friend on May 30th. She’ll reach the finish line before I do, but I’m fine with that. We’ll both leave with finisher metals anyway, and there will be someone waiting to take a picture of me. (Ah, the perks of being slower.) 

I can’t say that I feel 100% better and completely amazing yet, but I can honestly say that I feel so much better than I did yesterday. 

Now I’m going to curl up under my blankets, spend a few minutes reading the Bible, then have a good night’s sleep and pray that I can stay focused and empowered again tomorrow. (That may not be easy because I have to have a conversation that I’d rather not have tomorrow, but I’ll worry about that later.) 

I’m here, and I’m trying to jump out of my comfort zone to change what I don’t like while rediscovering my worth, which I seemed to forget for a while. Overall, I’d say I’m on my way back to the right track. 

5 thoughts on “If You Don’t Like It, Change It

  1. Joan

    I’m in the same place as you. It’s hard to self motivate and get back on track. I admire what you’re doing because I know how hard it is.

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  2. Cathy

    Hi Kenlie! Sorry you are going through some challengoing times! Jan and I (Elmwood Starbucks) were thinking of you today, so I thought I would check your blog! Hope to see you soon! Hugs, Cathy

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  3. Mike

    You’re doing great Kenlie! A little change in your routine is always a good thing. Let me tell you. I did something bold a few weeks ago. I went to go see a movie, in a theater. Now, this may not sound all that exciting to some people, but for me, it’s a big deal. I’m an EXTRMEMLY shy person and usually won’t venture outside unless I have to (like for work or grocery shopping), especially when it deals with being around a lot of people. And when I do go out, I’m usually with my close friends, so I usually don’t feel as socially awkward. But I didn’t have them to “hold my hand” this time and I really wanted to do something different. So, with the risk of feeling like I will do something to publicly humiliate myself (and not wanting to become a total recluse), I stepped out of my comfort zone and went. And you know what? I enjoyed it!
    My next goal is to have a meal inside one of our local sit down restaurants. I usually just get my orders to go (again, fearing public humiliation is what usually stops me from enjoying such things). These things, trite as they might sound, are really helping me to overcome my fears and I feel that I can enjoy myself a little in the process. 🙂

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