I Can Do This

I’m several days into my liquids phase, and while it’s not fun it’s not miserable. I avoid situations that might feel like torture (like watching everyone eat pizza,) but I’m okay otherwise. I have a cozy, comfortable home, and it’s my favorite place to be right now.

Yesterday after church I skipped my weekly lunch with friends, and I went home. My plan to was to change clothes and head to the mall to do a little shopping, but I took a long, afternoon nap instead. It’s just easier to be here right now because food is everywhere, and I’m hyper-aware of my desire to eat something no matter where I am. It made me feel sad and lonely for a few minutes until I realized how excited I am about this opportunity.

I also feel empowered right now. As much as it sucks to skip a delicious meal among friends, it also feels good to think about how well I’m doing in sticking to the plan. The liver-shrinking diet isn’t sustainable long-term, nor should it be. It’s definitely giving me more confidence by the day though, which was unexpected.

The truth is I really didn’t know if I could do it. I have to give all credit to Jesus because He’s strong in my weakness, but it’s incredible to know that He provides enough strength everyday.

Mornings are good for me because I don’t want food, but evenings are tougher. Thankfully, I discovered my love for Ramen broth and strained French onion soup. Those things satisfy my craving for savory things, which makes this phase much easier to tolerate.

Now I’m enjoying a quiet night at home with Michael. I love it when he’s here, and it’s comforting to know that he has already experienced this. He’s traveling a lot for work now, so he can be here for my surgery.

Overall things are going much smoother than I could have imagined. I don’t know why I’m always so surprised when God provides exactly what I need. Thank you, Jesus.

I’m looking forward to chewing things again, but I’m going to make it through the next several weeks until it happens.

I know I can do it now, and that is a tremendous feeling.

 

 

 

 

4 thoughts on “I Can Do This

  1. Toni Martin

    yipeee! you are plugged into THE power source and walking in His Truth! i was excited to read how quickly you were able to change your lonely thoughts to positive! we are never told that we won’t have those thoughts, but to take them captive to Christ! great job of lassoing (sp?) them up and putting them where they belong!!!! thankful for ramen noodle and french onion broth! may God continue to root you in His provision as you walk this journey! so proud of you!!!!

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  2. Erin Miller

    I did Optifast for eight months….through Thanksgiving and Christmas. I found that having my chicken broth while others was eating was helpful. I didn’t feel “left out”. I would also take it to restaurants, I would just ask for a bowl of hot water.
    I did that in August 2014-March 2015 and lost 127 pounds! I have a whole new life that I always dreamed of!
    We don’t know each other, but I’m proud of you 🙂

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