An Attitude Adjustment

I had a major adjustment in my attitude yesterday, which needed to happen. Surgical recovery has been rough to say the least. I’ve struggled more than I imagined I would, but I finally feel like I’m on the mend.

Yesterday I woke up and felt a level of pain that I haven’t experienced since early Summer. My skin irritation (cellulitis) was back in full force, and I was immediately reminded “why I did this to myself.”

I struggled for a few days with regret, knowing it was temporary, but allowing it to anger me none the less. When I felt the pain associated with my skin, which is a direct result of obesity, I was filled with hope. Yes, I did this to myself, and now I’m doing something about it.

Sleeping last night was a major struggle, but I was bothered by my skin more than anything pertaining to surgery. My boyfriend has a Tempurpedic mattress, and he thinks I need one too. I’m not sure what to think about that yet because there are so many choices now. It’s overwhelming.

Today I saw my primary doctor, and I’ve lost over 10% of my body weight since I last saw her. She took me off of my blood pressure medicine, which is great. I started taking it in July, and I’m glad it’s over.

I couldn’t do this with Mom, Michael and Jesus. I already knew that Mom would move the earth to make me feel better, and I couldn’t be more thankful for her. And Michael has been more patient, strong and loving than I ever imagined a man could be. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever done, but I’m beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I even spent some time at the park today, and I’m finally feeling well enough for friends to visit.

I almost feel human again, and I’m hoping my tolerance for protein shakes, water and vitamins will help increase my energy levels. Overall, I’m improving, and I seriously hope that I can say that I feel great again soon.





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    Toni Martin
    October 12, 2016 at 8:12 pm

    sweet kenlie! bless you, bless you!!!! God frequently brings you to my mind and i lift you to the Throne of Grace asking that He who knows your every need will supply!!!! i have no banal platitudes to offer regarding your pain,and frustration …but i do know this that is common to each of us who call Him Lord. you are not alone and He wipes every tear. (in my mind that Scripture as layers of meaning, but it certainly recognizes that we will weep while in our human state). all that to say “ups and downs” are part of this journey called life. hang in there! you are an amazingly talented, creative, deep and beautiful young woman of faith. He is weaving a tapestry of glory in and through you!

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    October 13, 2016 at 12:26 pm

    Hi, Just discovered your blog (and journey) recently. Holding you up for a speedy recovery & continued success.

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    Debbie Lopresti
    October 13, 2016 at 12:30 pm

    I wish you a speedy recovery! You are loved by your family, friends, your special guy, and many of us out here that follow your journey and wish you tremendous success.

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