Michael and I joined Weight Watchers together over the weekend, and I went to my first meeting today. The meetings aren’t new to me, but I had never been to that one before. I liked it.
When I opened my “Success Story” weigh-in book I noticed a question that I never noticed before. It said, “What’s your why?” What’s motivating me to try this again? What are my reasons? What are some specific details that led me to walking into a meeting?
My simple answer has always been that I want to lose weight, but the answer seems more specific now. I’m so close to my lowest recorded weight as an adult (284 pounds,) and I want to reach it. I actually want to exceed that, and for the first time in a while it feels like I can do it.
I’ve lost about 100 pounds since September, which was hard. I realize that it’s only going get harder as the journey continues, so I’m trying to form some good habits now by tracking.
Tracking my food intake is easier to do when I eat at home and plan what I’m going to eat when I’m not at home, so I downloaded the app. I also picked up a 3-month tracker because I love writing things down on paper.
Tracking makes me much more aware of what I’m eating, and that’s my biggest reason for going back to Weight Watchers. I also need to accountability of the weigh-in, which is something that I prefer to do outside of my home because I don’t want to become obsessed with stepping on the scale either.
I’m excited to begin this journey, and it’s pretty awesome to have the support of my husband. He wants to lose about 20 pounds now, but he knows the struggle because he’s lost over 120 pounds and kept it off.
Now back to the “why.” I don’t have the same motivation now that I had before. I’m not looking for someone to love me. I’m already loved. I’m not looking for people to accept me because they already do. Seeing myself how God sees me has completely changed the way I look at myself, and it has improved every area of my life.
I don’t care about getting skinny, but I do want to be healthy enough to have a baby if we decide to do that at some point. I know that all new moms are tired, but I’d like to get myself into a healthier, fitter condition before we consider having a family.
I also like not being the slowest person walking, and I like that I can walk up several flights of stairs without much effort. I want to be faster than I am, and I want to be more energetic than I am. Everything has improved dramatically over the last several months, but there’s still a lot of room for improvement.
I’m in a good place in my life right now, and I want to take advantage of that by forming good habits while it’s easier instead of waiting until it’s harder.
That’s my “why,” and I’m ready to look back and know that I did my best starting now.