If someone had told me, when I started this blog in 2009, that I’d be living in the heart of New Orleans, attending school at Tulane and loving God, I would have rolled my eyes and insisted that they get a clue. At the time, I lived in New York, and I had almost everything that I thought I wanted – a boyfriend, an assortment of designer handbags and a plan, but everything changed.
After losing over 100 pounds, moving across the country and being forced to hit the restart button on my life, I went through a series of tumultuous times. I experienced heartbreak, loss and uncertainty, and at times, I wondered if I would ever feel happiness again. I felt isolated and unloved (even though I’ve always been aware of the love of my family,) but God blessed me in spite of myself.
Now I live in Downtown New Orleans, and it’s much easier to focus on all of the positive things in my life. I began to rebuild the self-confidence that I had lost while regaining the independence that I lacked. I also regained some of the weight that I worked so hard to lose. I’ve managed to keep the majority of it off, but weight-loss has not been a priority for me in ages.
Being physically fit is important to me. It’s a life goal that I want to continue working toward, but it has never been my only priority. I needed to get a lot of things straight in my life, and getting honest with myself and the people around me was a great start. I’ve grown exponentially since writing my first post on this blog, and the growing continues…
Putting myself “out there” still makes me vulnerable in ways that are not always comfortable for me, but it has also allowed me to see that there are a lot of reasons to love myself.
I may not be at a normal weight right now, but I recognize my strengths and talents. I see the improvements that I’ve made in my life, and I don’t dwell on the mistakes. I lived a life of shame and regret for a long, long time, but now my life is filled with joy.
Whether you’re here to offer your support or to find encouragement for yourself, I want to thank you for taking time to check out my little blog. I hope you’ll visit often as I continue to share my life and my desire to go “all the weigh.”