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Healing After Weight-Loss Surgery

Whoever says that weight-loss surgery is the easy way out has never had to heal after weight-loss surgery.

I used to think I’d feel like a failure if I did this, but in reality I’m proud of myself for keeping a positive attitude during surgery and recovery. This stuff is hard, but I’m looking forward to seeing the results of my efforts.

I’ve been surprised by the outpouring of prayers and encouragement I’ve received from people online and in my everyday life. I know I’ve already said it, but no one could ever ask for a better support group than what I have.

Mom is still here, and I’m thankful because I need her. She’s great at encouraging me to walk, rest and sip. I don’t know how I’d get through this without her. She has been so patient and helpful, and she’ll be that way as long as she needs to be.

Michael has been great too. He makes sure that Mom and I have everything we need and reminds me that the more I move around the quicker I’ll heal. (I don’t particularly like that part, but I know he’s right.) It’s such a weird feeling to sit right next to the guy I’m in love with without wanting to curl up next to him. There’s just too much discomfort for that right now.

Unfortunately, that also means that I’m skipping church tomorrow. My church community is filled with awesome people, and on an average Sunday I get loads of hugs from kids and adults. I can’t handle that yet, and if someone tried to hug me right now I’d probably cry. I know that sounds dramatic, but it’s true.

I slept better last night than I did my first night home, but it was still rough. I woke up around 4 am, then I went back to sleep and awakened for the day at 8:20 am.

As I write this I’m sitting in my bed, hoping that I’ll be comfortable enough to take a nap in a few minutes.

I wish I could say that I feel awesome, but I’m not quite there yet. Right now my pain level is at 5 or 6, but I’m looking forward to improving each day.

Until then…

Different

I found some photos recently that I didn’t remember taking, and I want to share one of them.  I was at Bonnaroo (an amazing music festival in the middle of Tennessee) with friends to see my favorite band ever, Pearl Jam.  I also saw Ben Folds (in front of the front row of people) and Metallica, Kanye West, BB King and tons of other amazing artists that weekend.

We were in a giant RV in the VIP section closest to the stages, but they still seemed far away at 400 pounds.  Yes, I’m quite sure I was at least 400 pounds in this photo though I’ll never know for sure.

Summer of 2008

Walking back from the stages after different concerts, I had a couple of embarrassing moments.  One was stepping up into the RV…another was watching my friends and their friends climb the ladder on the back to sit on the roof.  At that point, I pretended I was tired and ready to leave so I drove back to my hotel for the evening.

Life was different then.  In some ways, it was amazing in spite of the fact that I was winded after walking 100 feet.  For the most part, I was an unhealthy and insecure girl who longed to be different.  It just seemed so impossible!

Squinty-eyed, post workout pic..but hey..my balance is better. 😉

Thankfully, I know it’s possible to change now, and I’m doing it.  I’ve gone from being a girl who lost her balance taking a step onto an RV to a girl who is ready to train for a triathlon. More on that later this week.  😉  It’s a long road to good health, but I’m so happy to be on it.