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Blood Work, Parties and Pictures…

My pain level has decreased significantly since my last post, and while I’m not 100% better, I feel well enough to exercise again and do the things I usually do.

My weekend started with friends and colleagues at a work party Friday night when I went to the Sizzling Summer Soiree, our biggest fundraiser of the year. We’ve been looking forward to it for months, and finally being there felt like a huge success.

Michael and MeMy boyfriend, Michael, was my date for the event (obviously,) and we arrived early with a car load of sushi that had been donated for the event. When we arrived he went to work as if he had been a part of the team forever. I love that about him. He’s incredibly intelligent, bright and successful, but when a job needs to be done he gets it done. No job is beneath him because he values everyone, which is such an attractive characteristic.

He already knows the folks I work with because we’re all friends, and they’ve known him since before we were really dating. The cool thing is that he would have worked just as hard or strangers. His parents definitely raised him right. Swoon.

Stacie and KenlieStacie, who has become one of our aforementioned close friends, worked tirelessly to make this event happen. I know others did too, but I saw the work she did first-hand. We definitely all breathed a sigh of relief as we saw the event come together, then she and I took our first selfie. Seriously, we’ve had some great times together, yet we had never taken a picture? We’ve talked about that a few times.  Aren’t we cute?!

After we took our first one we took a few more with our friends and awesome co-workers. (Why not?! We were all feeling snazzy without our ponytails and gym clothes. Haha We were only missing Haley, who looked gorgeous and sparkly from head to toe! )

YMCA Friends

Michael even took one of us that was not a selfie. Who doesn’t love a good group photo?

The Cannery New Orleans

Following the party Saturday and Sunday were the quietest days I’ve had in quite a while. Michael flew out of town for work early that morning and landed as I was waking up for the day (at 7:30 am) while I ran errands around town before returning home. I typically fill my weekends with activities and events,  but I chose to take a much needed rest from all the things.

I did some writing, cooking, reading, baking and shopping. I also watched Hillary and Kaine as she announced him as her VP and  picked up a ring that I had resized. (More on the ring later.)

I had such a quiet and relaxing weekend that I almost felt guilty about it, then I was reminded that sometimes I need that. I’ll get back to my regularly scheduled lifestyle tomorrow, but it felt good to have some rest after the last few weeks. I can’t say that I’ve been busier than usual, but I do have to say that everything feels more tiring and challenging when I don’t feel well.

Thankfully, I’m on the mend. I’m seeing my doctor again on Tuesday, and I hope to have a lot of questions answered pertaining to weight-loss surgery.

Oh, and my blood work came back normal. They tested my A1C (Yay! No diabetes,) thyroid, cholesterol and a long list of other things, and it all looked fine apart from my weight and blood pressure. (Both are higher than they should be, but I’m working on it.) I figured I was probably okay when I didn’t hear back from them immediately, but it’s comforting to know  that I’m alright for the most part anyway.






I had a great workout last night then I came home to shower and nearly broke my toe.  My toe, while unbroken still hurts tremendously, and the nail is hanging on by a thread so I plan to see a doctor later today. It’s also weigh-in day, and as I mentioned yesterday, it won’t be pretty…at all.  But I’ve started fresh, and that’s really all I can say about that.

Check out my little toe cast...

I had planned to curl up and watch a movie after dinner, and I did.  I made chicken and veggies with brown rice and watched “A Boyfriend for Christmas.”  It’s one of my favorite cheesy Hallmark movies, and yes Santa…I’d like a boyfriend for Christmas…or, you know, sooner. 😉

How’s everyone doing today?  Are you as excited as I am about Christmas music and holiday movies? 🙂

It’s Weigh-In Day and I’ve Come To Realize…

It’s Thursday again which means I’ll weigh-in later today. I’m excited because I did pretty well this week, but I’m always nervous because I hope the scale reflects that. So instead of focusing on what if, I’ll just wait for the results and do this fun little survey instead. Thank you Andrea, you are the queen of blog fun.


I’ve come to realize that my body works a lot better than I thought it did! It has been changing so much in the last year, and it’s going strong. 🙂

I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving I should not be text messaging or holding the phone to my ear or checking Facebook…or twitter…

I’ve come to realize that I need to workout 5-6 days per week to feel as good about myself as possible.

I’ve come to realize that I have lost a lot of weight!’s awesome. I can do this! 🙂

I’ve come to realize that I hate it when I don’t make a good impression.

I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk I ‘love’ everyone around me. Ha.

I’ve come to realize that money
isn’t as important to me as it used to be, but I like it..a lot. And sometimes, I take it for granted.

I’ve come to realize that certain people are going to be memories and nothing more…

I’ve come to realize that I’ll always remember
what it felt like to be at my heaviest weight – sad and afraid that maybe I just couldn’t change…now I know I can because I am. Just saying.

I’ve come to realize that my sibling is a beautiful woman and a brilliant mother who is actually pretty fun to be around. 🙂 I’m sooooooooo excited that she and my niece will be visiting Mom when I visit. She got a job yesterday (yay!) that we thought would keep that from happening then it just worked awesome.

I’ve come to realize that my mom is a worrier and a giver and the glue that binds our family.

I’ve come to realize that my cell phone is an addiction, and I’m oddly okay with that. Seriously, iPhone users, have you played Words with Friends? It’s awesome.

When I woke up this morning I realized that I still don’t feel 100%, but the sun is shining…and that makes me feel a little better.

Before bed last night I realized that I needed to take NyQuil so I did.

Right now I am thinking about the fact that I will not see Pearl Jam at Madison Square Garden tonight. And while my heart aches because of it, I know that if I really wanted to be there I would be. I’ve spent some time bouncing ideas around in my head as to why I’m not going, and I think I know the answer.

I’ve come to realize that my dad is wise, loving and hard working.

I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook I’m disappointed if I don’t have new notifications. What? Just keepin’ it real. 😉

I’ve come to realize that today is the day that I could maybe say that I’ve lost 100 pounds though I know it will most likely be next week instead.

I’ve come to realize that tonight will be an outstanding night with The Amish Outlaws and friends even though part of my heart will be at Madison Square Garden…

I’ve come to realize that tomorrow could be the day that I see Pearl Jam at MSG…they’re here two nights in a row. 😉

I’ve come to realize that I really want to win the hearts of other men and women who are similar journeys to change and become the person they want to be…:)

I’ve come to realize that life is about accepting who I am and loving myself without apology. I’m still working on that, but I’ve come a long, long way..:)

I’ve come to realize that this weekend will be a good one.

I’ve realized the best music to listen to when I am upset is Pearl Jam. I listen to them when I’m happy, sad, angry, in love, motivated, unmotivated, etc.

I’ve come to realize that my friends take me as I am – faults and all. 🙂 For the first time in my life I am surrounded by people who truly ‘get’ me…and I am thankful for this everyday.

I’ve come to realize that this year has been incredible so far. And I think there are more exciting things on the horizon.

I’ve come to realize that my husband is non-existent, but I know who he will be. And I think that might be part of the “exciting things on the horizon.” Just saying.

I’ve come to realize that maybe I should start scrapbooking more often. It’s a hobby that I love, but I don’t spend enough time doing it anymore. I did a little with girlfriends last week, but there’s so much that I want to do. I just need to get started! 🙂

I’ve come to realize that I love my niece more than life itself.

I’ve come to realize that I don’t understand how people can be so cruel and judgmental. But for every person out there like that, I meet many who are just the opposite.

I’ve come to realize my past is just that – past. It does not define who I am today unless I let it.

I’ve come to realize that parties are one of my favorite things. I love being with friends, presents and games.

I’ve come to realize that my life is better than I ever could have imagined. 🙂

The Love Part

I’m overweight…duh. But even at my heaviest I’ve been lucky to find a smart, good looking, well-rounded and even keeled guy who loves me back as much as I love him. I suppose he’s not perfect, but he’s everything I think I deserve and a little more. 😉 When my dad describes him to people he says “He’s the kind of man who will walk into your house and make you feel more at home.” My mom and sister love him too. It’s easy. So the question is…how did I get so lucky while many of my friends (all of whom are still thinner than me) struggle to find a loving relationship?

During the first year of our relationship I often questioned why he’d love me while I was so heavy. I worried that he would open his eyes one day and change his mind, but he hasn’t. And now that we’ve been together for over two years, I’m starting to believe that he’s not going anywhere…;)

I met him at my heaviest weight, and from date #1 he has treated me like I’m worth my weight in gold. He loved me before I decided to lose one pound, and he’s been extraordinarily supportive on my journey to lose weight. He’s attracted to me because I’m smart, because I don’t give up on things I want to accomplish and he thinks that most things I do are cute. 😉 He also loves the fact that he can beat me in a game of Scrabble, err, in many games of Scrabble.

One of my closest girlfriends weighs about 50 pounds less than I do now. She’s super pretty, dresses well and is always well-groomed. She knows guys who are willing to be friends with benefits, but she struggles to meet guys who want a relationship with her. I know…I know…It’s text book, right? But it makes no sense to me because she has so much to offer. She is a fantastic cook, funny, self-sufficient, loves to read and she tells it how it is. Did I mention how adorable she is?

My friend and I have had discussions about this in the past, and she insists that she just doesn’t find opportunities to meet new guys. I like to create opportunities so I tell her to sit at a bookstore or a coffee shop for an afternoon. Or join a reading group or a cooking class. She enjoys those things which means she could meet someone who has similar interests.

I’m not saying that it’s easy…or that I get nearly as much attention from guys as I do when I’m thin. To be clear, I definitely do not. But I don’t need attention from everyone because I found the guy that I’d like to spend my life with…

Do you think it’s impossible to find love when you’re overweight? Do you struggle to believe that you’re worth being loved even though you may not be happy with what you look like outside?

Thank Goodness It’s Monday…What?!

This weekend was a bust. Thankfully, there was no snow, but it started raining Friday evening and has not stopped yet. The winds were sustained at about 40 mph with gusts up to 70 mph. When I moved to the Northeast I thought I’d be leaving the weather like this behind…

We lost power Saturday afternoon. I spent the day shopping before going to dinner with Boyfriend and his parents so he let me know that the power was off. Booo…It wasn’t as cold as it had been a few weeks ago when the snow storm knocked the power out, but it was still chilly. And let’s just say that I didn’t like the idea of sleeping without heat again.

Actually, I was a total killjoy. I hated the inconvenience of sleeping without heat or relocating to Boyfriend’s childhood home. Though we are completely welcome there, it’s just not the same as home. And I hated to intrude on them when there was already so much going on in their home. But we went today, planning to spend the night, and power was restored..yay!

Power has been out all over the New York City area all weekend. A friend in Brooklyn said that mot of his neighborhood was destroyed. Another friend who has two small children had several inches of water in her home so in hindsight, we were pretty lucky.

But that didn’t keep me from being completely cranky and unreasonable. I did manage to exercise this weekend which makes me feel a little proud of myself. Yesterday I rode my recumbent bike. Today was more challenging. The power was out at the gym so I went to the office gym to workout there. I had planned to use the treadmill, but the power was out there too.

I didn’t want to leave without working out so I decided to try the elliptical machine which felt impossibly hard last time I tried it – over a year ago. And I wasn’t sure that I’d be able to do it today, but I did. It wasn’t easy, but it wasn’t nearly as tough I remembered it being! Yay! I felt proud of myself when I finished because 1) I used the elliptical machine and 2) I did it in the dark.

It was cold and rainy outside so it would have been easy to say “Oh well, the power is out. I guess I can’t exercise today.” But I knew I needed to get my heart pumping and I did. It’s proof that I’m changing, and it feels good.

So while the day was crappy (mostly because I was cranky and dramatic) at least I did something good for myself and my body today. I ate reasonably and exercised. I also went the supermarket to pick up fresh produce. And when I came home I was so thrilled to have electricity that I cleaned out my kitchen cabinets, loaded the dishwasher with dishes that didn’t make it in before the power outage, cleaned the stove and counters and started the laundry.

We leave for Aruba on Wednesday, and I can’t wait. It was a rough weekend, but I think a luxurious beach vacation with the man I love is just the thing to make it forget it. 😉

How was your weekend? Did you accomplish anything? Enjoy anything?

Another Fun Evening

I’m just going to gush a little because we all know I do that. I weighed in yesterday and learned that I lost another 2.6 pounds! That takes me to a total of 89.6 pounds in the last 11 months, and I’m thrilled about it. I’m so close to 1oo pounds lost that I feel like I can almost reach out and grab it. And that is precisely what I plan on doing. 🙂

Last night was a great evening because I got to spend it with friends. It started with a fantastic Weight Watchers meeting in which I left inspired and ready to face the new week (two really because I’ll be on vacay next Thursday.) Then I went to dinner with several girlfriends to celebrate the (early) birthday of my workout buddy and friend, Carol.

(Carol is the lady in red..of course, I’m in the middle..and that’s Jules on the right.)

As we were sitting at our dinner table, laughing and just being silly, I was reminded of just how lucky I am to call such wonderful girls my friends. Since moving to New York I’ve been so blessed to meet people who take me as I am and laugh with me, but never at me…(okay, maybe they laugh at me sometimes, but it’s probably only because I’m so darn funny. Yeah..that’s it.)

(This is my newest friend, S. She’s talented and awesome! I hope I continue getting to know her, and I have a feeling I will.)

A few of us (though not all) are on this weight-loss journey together which is also nice because I can whine to any one of these ladies if I’m having a bad day. Or I can look for a pat in the back, kick in the rear or pep talk – whatever I need to get through the day.

Seriously, I’m so blessed to have a loving family, a loving boyfriend and loving friends. I’ve never had a group of close girlfriends until moving here, but now I’m not sure how I’d live without them. I hope I never take them for granted.

(Kenz, Char – my NYBFF and K.)

I did managed to screw up a little this evening. I had planned to introduce my friends from dinner to my amazing friend, Z, my first girlfriend in NY. Somehow I managed to misunderstand the time I was supposed to show, but I’m happy to know that though I may have disappointed Z, she will forgive me. There’s so much comfort in knowing that I don’t have to be perfect to be loved. I can’t wait to say I’ve known each of them for 20 years.

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Friend Makin’ Monday: Valentine’s Day

This week, the topic for FMM is Valentine’s Day. Amber wants to know what we did and how it could have been better. If you’d like to join the fun, head over to her blog to link up!

The truth is, I don’t think the day could have gotten much better. Last night at midnight (officially V-Day) my boyfriend gave me tickets to see Tony Bennett in concert. He remembered hearing me say that it would be amazing to see him in concert so weeks ago he planned to make that happen on V-Day.
We drove up to the casino in Connecticut where he would perform. We ate dinner, did some gambling and a little shopping then we saw Tony Bennett perform for 85 minutes without missing a beat. The man is 83 years old, but he’s light on his feet. And he’s still an incredible vocalist. He wasn’t just good for his age, he was as incredible now as anyone my age. But the thing that impressed me most about him was his stage presence – he really looked like he was having fun, his humility and the fact that he named the school he founded in Queens after Frank Sinatra rather than himself. How cool is that?
Happy tears were streaming down my face as he sang “The Way You Look Tonight.” And when he sang “I Left My Heart In San Fransisco” I found myself, once again, marveling at the fact that this is my life to live. I am so thankful that I got to see such an icon croon love songs on such a romantic day.
After the show we gambled a bit more, and we left winners which is even better. The valet parking area was full when we arrived so we had to park at the top of a parking garage. The elevators were jammed so we walked down several flights of stairs choosing to make our way into the casino. On the way back, the elevators were empty, but I suggested that we walk back up rather than taking the elevator. Boyfriend was fine with that so I jogged all the way up several flights. I wanted to get my heart pumping, and I did. I felt like a rock star by the time I reached the top so jogged to the car too. 🙂
This was easily the best Valentine’s Day I’ve ever had. Oh, and before I forget, my bf also gave me a new charm for my Pandora bracelet. It’s an apple with a little worm coming out of it. I’m a bookworm who lives in the ‘Big Apple’ so, of course, I love it. 😉
If you know me, you know I gush a lot about how thankful I am for my life and the people in it. And today is no exception. I cannot imagine why I’ve been blessed with so much, but I won’t even question it. I’ll just keep being thankful and keep living each day.
What did you do/receive for Valentine’s Day? I hope you felt loved because you certainly are. If you don’t believe that then just ask me to prove it, and I will.

When I Reach 100 Pounds

If you know me at all, you know I love to reward myself. And as I approach my 100 pound mark, I’m thinking about what I should give to myself as a reminder than I’m really kicking butt.

Right now, I have a plan to see the dermatologist when I reach 100 pounds (not so much as a reward as just a good time to do it.) I have a lot of scaring from pimples that occurred when my body packed on a lot of weight quickly. Jeez..have I no shame?! Nope..not really..:)

So my plan at 100 pounds is to start the process of making the skin on my face as clear and flawless as possible. I’m quite happy with the skin on my legs and around most of my body, but everyone sees my face first. And I want to feel confident and happy about it even if it means laser treatments, scrubs and God knows what else.

My reason for choosing 100 pounds as a starting point is that I’d like to be finished with any process I have to go through by the time I reach my ultimate goal. I also have Invisaligns (clear braces) which will be completed before I hit my ultimate goal so I will have the full effect of the whole cocoon to butterfly thing. 😉

Now, back to rewards…I have to preface this by saying that even if I couldn’t afford to splurge for myself, I’d have reward enough already because I feel like a new and incredible person who is active, determined and happy. That being said, I also like nice things. Who am I kidding?! I LOVE nice things. 🙂

So when I reach 100 pounds I’m going to purchase one of these as a gift to myself:

  • The Elsa Peretti Star Necklace from Tiffany & Co. as a representation of 100 pounds lost and countless bravos (each one being a little reminder of the behavioral changes I’ve made, challenges I’ve overcome and healthy decisions that I made for myself to reach this milestone.)



  • A Burberry Watch (because it’s just very pretty and elegant looking.)

As you can see, I’d like a new watch, but I think that a necklace like the star would serve as a daily reminder of what I’m trying to accomplish. Note to boyfriend: If I buy myself the necklace at 100 pounds, please see the watches listed when searching for a birthday prezzie for me. 😉

And just since I’m in the mood to shop and dream, I’ll tell you about my plans for 200 pounds. When I started this weight loss journey, my boyfriend and I decided that when I hit 200 pounds lost we’ll go to Greece. It is close to his heart and a big desire for him as well as for me. So this time next year (or maybe a bit later, whatever) we will be planning our trip to Greece which will be unforgettable.

And since I’ll need to pack for my trip in style, I plan to purchase the Louis Vuitton Pégase 55 Business rolling luggage piece. Good grief, people…it’s b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l! I looked at one at LV yesterday, and I promise that I’m going to do my best to wait a year to buy it though it would be soooooo fun to bring it with me to Aruba next month! (Um, for the record…that won’t be happening.)

I do think that when I reach 200 pounds lost, I’ll be more than happy to pick up this piece for myself. It’s stupidly extravagant and maybe even a little cheesy, but I want it. And I have a lot of work (losing weight) to do before I earn it.

It is important to have goals whether you’re losing 10 pounds or 250 pounds. And, for me, rewarding myself is just another reason to look forward to reaching my goals. But rewards don’t have to cost hundreds or thousands of dollars to be effective. They just need to be something out of the ordinary that will last as a reminder of how far you’ve come. And when I get to goal, I’ll reward myself with something awesome when I’ve kept it off for a year..then two…then three…

Different things work for different people. But I’m clearly a person who loves pretty things, and this makes me even more excited to reach the goals I have in place.

Do you reward yourself when you accomplish something? What serves as your reminder of what you’ve done for yourself?

Holiday In Pictures: Christmas In New York

I loved my second Christmas in New York so I couldn’t wait to post a few of my favorite pictures from the holiday season. So when Amber chose this topic for FMM, I put this post back on the front page. The holidays are such a great time, and this year was one of my favorite Christmases so far.
Having Dad here made me feel at home, and I got to enjoy some pretty cool things with him. Boyfriend got to enjoy some one-on-one time with him too when he took Dad to the Giants game. And we spent a lot of time with his family during the week as well.

I love being a tourist in my own city, and this year I had a great excuse because Dad was here for Christmas. We saw the tree at Rockefeller Center and many other cool sights. Isn’t this tree huge?!
It doesn’t look quite so big when you stand on the other side of the plaza, but it’s still beautiful. Christmas music plays as people ice skate which really sums up Christmas in NY, at least in my opinion.

We also brought Dad to the Rockettes perform at Radio City, and it was just as awesome as it was last year.

Now about presents:

I got a lot of awesome prezzies, and I can’t decide which one is my favorite. But these Ugg gloves are definitely near the top of the list. They are so warm! I also got a pair of lovely Ugg slippers that I wanted too. And I got the Pandora bracelet I wanted with charms from my bf and my dad and a gift to enhance my workouts which hasn’t arrived yet, a new Bible that I requested from Mom and a Scrabble calendar which I hope to use to improve my already stellar game. 😉 I also received a pair of Coach gloves to match my new coat and a beautiful Coach bag. Boyfriend knew I wanted pearl earrings because I mentioned it once in passing…He is so good! Can we say Merry Christmas to me?? 😉

See my ear?

My boyfriend gave me the bracelet and the tree, and Dad gave me the heart. I treated myself to the clock last night because I want it to represent the time and patience I must have in order to continue losing weight. Plus, I just like to buy pretty things.

Sadie liked her prezzie too. She has not stopped playing with her ball since she got it. I kept interrupting her for pics, and I think she was a little annoyed by it. 😉

As you can see I racked up on the gifts, but I also received tons of love and fun and got to share some too. It was a lovely holiday, and I am looking forward to what the new year will bring. What did you do the celebrate? Did you get any awesome gifts? If so, will you tell me about them?
For more holiday pics of my beautiful friends and me, chick here.