Category Archives: Cal

No More Boyfriend For Kenlie, (Or Dear Penny, I Want A Bravo)

Many of you are probably familiar with the bravo stickers that Weight Watchers leaders give out when their members do something good, and next Thursday, I’ll be collecting at least one.

Cal and I broke up today.  Well, it was official today, and we discussed it  just before my weekly weigh-in so I walked into my meeting trying not to burst into tears.  And yeah, that lasted until someone said hello.  I let it all out before the meeting.  I cried, weighed in then cried more.  Oh, and I’m down 3.4 pounds this week which exceeded the two that I hoped to lose so I’ll definitely take it.

Anyway, after feeling rather miserable during the meeting (I honestly can’t even tell you what it was about) I went to dinner with some friends who were talking about hitting the gym.  I typically do not workout on Thursdays so I drove home.  And as I was changing clothes I decided I’d hit the gym too.

As a treat to myself, I paid for a day pass to Peak Performance, the fancy gym with the awesome ladder, and decided to sweat until I felt better.  And I did sweat – until they closed.  See Penny?  I deserve a bravo!  (If you read my blog, you may already know that Penny is my WW leader…)

Only halfway through my workout...

Instead of turning to food this week, I’ve stayed on track.  I’ve exercised everyday, and I’ve tracked my food.  And I feel better about myself when I do that so I’m going to continue doing it.  I’ll be in New York for the next week, but I’d like to show at least a 2 pound loss a week from now so I’ll have to be mindful while I’m there too.

So back to the break-up.  I tweeted about it today, and I changed my relationship status on Facebook. (That makes it official, right?)  Anyway, I didn’t share many details, and I probably won’t.  But here’s the short version.  I care about him, but we decided (together) that he isn’t really what I need.  Unfortunately, I changed my mind, but he didn’t.  He wants to be friends, still wants to see me, etc.  But I don’t know if I can do that.  I don’t know if I want to do that.  As I said, I care about him, and it was nice while it lasted.  I got to say everything I wanted to say to him, and I don’t have a single regret about our short time together.   That’s probably all I’ll say about him.

So it’s been a long day, and I have some packing to do.  I’m flying out at an ungodly hour so my plan is to rest as much as possible tomorrow while accomplishing a few things – including another sweaty workout.

I read a quote that inspired me this morning so I’m going to share it with you…

“The difference between who you are and who you want to be is what you do.”

I can’t make someone love me or want me or miss me, and I can’t make “Mr. Right for Kenz” appear in my life (as much as I wish he would.)  But I can continue working toward becoming who I want to be.  Last year was hard, and this year I’ve decided that, hard or not, I’m going to do what I need to do for myself.  I’ve already (re)started, and I think we all know I’m not going to quit.

I hope your day was better than mine, but I was reminded, as I often am, that there are so many people around who care about me.  Thanks for that…



Does Gluten-Free Mean Gross?

I eat gluten, but I know that I feel better when I eat unprocessed foods like raw cabbage (my latest obsession) with cucumbers, tomatoes and raw pecans – none of which contains gluten so it would be interesting to see how my body responds to eating less gluten.  I don’t plan to eliminate it at this point, but I’d like to have a few awesome, go-to gluten-free recipes to make for company or when I feel like mixing it up.

Last Summer, I tried gluten-free cupcakes at a conference in Los Angeles and found one that tasted great, but I tried a couple that tasted like dirt first.  And last week, my dad shared a recipe for gluten-free cobbler with me, and while it’s not particularly healthy, it is delicious!  And I shared it with Cal’s mom who has been completely gluten-free for years.

If you’re interested in the recipe, here it is:

Dad’s Super Easy Cobbler

1 stick butter
1 cup brown rice flour (or other)
1 cup raw sugar
1 tsp baking powder
2/3 c rice milk
1 quart of sweetened frozen blackberries or other fruit (allow berries to sit overnight in 1/2 cup sugar)

Pre-heat oven to 325.  Place stick of butter in a 9 x 13 baking dish and allow it to melt as the oven heats.  

Meanwhile, combine flour, baking powder and sugar.  Add milk and pour into dish after mixing well.  

Pour fruit on top as evenly as possible and bake for one hour – or until golden brown.


Here’s my question for those of you reading this…Is it possible to make healthy, gluten-free food that tastes good?  And if so, will you share one of your favorite gluten-free recipes with me?



Keeping A Promise To Myself

Well, it’s weigh-in day, and I can tell you right now that it will not be pretty.  I will show a significant gain this week which made me consider skipping my weigh-in, but that’s not how it works.  I’m going! I ate and I exercised less, and now it’s time for the scale to reflect what I already know is coming.  For the record, I do think that going on and off of the birth control played into my gain a bit too, but the reasons don’t matter as much as the fact that I am back on track.

I don’t expect to undo several weeks of damage in two days.  (Sigh…I wish.)  Instead, I’m going to face the scale because I made a promise to myself, and I’m not going to let the yucky number piss me off, stress me out or impact what I’ve done this week. 

I am back in the habit of exercising, tracking and being more mindful of everything I put it in my mouth.  I have tossed out the divinity, the fudge and the caramel cashew trail mix from Target that I’ve been waiting since September to eat.  The cookies that Mom and I made went to an office of folks that were more than willing to get them off of our hands, and they’ve been replaced with cabbage, sugar snap peas, raw nuts, grapefruits and other foods that are delicious AND healthy for me.

Regardless of the number on the scale (it’s going to be bad, remember? I’ve already peeked) I know that I’m on the right track.  I know that I’m living my healthiest life today.  I lived it yesterday, and I’ll do it again tomorrow.  And right now, that’s as far into the future as I need to go.

The fact remains that I started here……..

My friend, Gordon, and me in 2008.

And now I’m here…

With Cal now...

And I feel different…better.  But I’m far from finished.

The scale does not define me, but my actions do.  And my actions will be reflected when I step on the scale this evening.  But hey, it could be worse.  I worked out a few times while I was gone (elliptical and swimming laps.)  But as my trip progressed, so did my leniency.  I admit it, and I take responsibility for it.  And that’s really all I have to say about that…

Greetings from Oklahoma

Cal and I arrived in Oklahoma this evening, and we spent the evening with Dad.  We had some drinks and watched the debate while I knitted a scarf and Dad and Cal had their own little intellectual and theological debate.  Check out the scarf I made. 🙂

Sitting on the floor, entertaining myself…:)

I have so much to say about my plan to lose more weight in the coming weeks.  Cal’s mom, Patti, shared her philosophy on weight-loss, and I’ve decided that her plan will work for me too. We shopped yesterday from around 3pm until midnight.  It seems I  have finally met my match…ha 😉  Actually, she shopped much more than I did, but I had a great time with her…and I would guess that I burned quite a few calories walking because we literally didn’t sit until we hit Saks just before they closed. I picked up a couple of things, but I still have shopping to do!

Opening the first of her prezzies from Auntie! 🙂

I’ve also taken some time to workout at Anytime Fitness this week – totally confirming that I made the right decision between gyms.  I can go anytime, literally…and that’s precisely what I need.  It makes it really hard to come up with excuses not to workout when I can do it anytime and almost anywhere.

And while I’m here at Dad’s, working out with be more awesome than usual because after cardio, I’ll hit the pool.  I plan to swim at least a few miles over the next week, and I’m really looking forward to how that will make me feel.  I’ve kept my eating under control over the last couple of days too so I’m moving in the right direction, and it feels good.

I’m tired so I’m going to sleep, but I have to say that I miss you guys.  I hope you’re all enjoying this busy yet awesome season.  Sending out some virtual hugs to you……Good night from Oklahoma! 🙂


Friends Who Understand, A Great Workout and A Plan

Yesterday I did some things that I don’t ususally do – some good things and some things that I wish I didn’t have to admit.  Let’s start with the things that I wish I didn’t have to talk about…my weekly weigh-in.  I skipped it.  Yep, that’s right.  For the first time since joining Weight Watchers in 2009, I skipped a weigh-in because I didn’t want to deal with the numbers on the scale.

As a monthly pass member, Weight Watchers allows me to attend unlimited meetings, and they don’t require a weigh-in to attend.  I just didn’t do it, and this behavior is a slippery slope that I am not willing to slide down so I’m saying it now – I will NOT skip another regularly scheduled meeting because I don’t feel like facing the music.  I just won’t do it so feel free to hold me to it.  Over the last week, my choices became progressively worse until yesterday when I decided that enough was enough.  Now I have to do it again tomorrow.

I also did something that made me feel good about myself.  I took Anne’s advice, and set a challenging fitness goal for myself.  I hit the gym and completed 10 miles on the bike, pedaling as fast as I could.  It takes me 5 1/2 minutes to do a mile which added up to a great cardio workout followed by 100 crunches.  I know I should feel good about being able to do 10 miles on a bike without much effort, and I do.  But I thought I’d feel exhausted, but I didn’t.  I think I’ll have to try 20 miles when I’m back at the gym Monday.  Until then, I plan to do my favorite Richard Simmons workout, “Party Off the Pounds.”

I’m traveling again tomorrow which means that I’ll have the opportunity to prove to myself that I can make healthy choices even when I’m away from home.  I’ll bring a gigantic English cucumber, grapes and bananas.  And this time, Cal is coming with me, and I think we’ll spend some time ruminating over his ideas to change my palate.  I think it’s okay to like sweets, but I don’t think it’s okay to let them consume my mind or control my actions as they sometimes do.

With the holidays quickly approaching, I’ve come up with a plan that will (hopefully) help me stay in control of my cravings and food intake.  Chubby McGee, one of my favorite blog friends (check out her blog here) spurred a thought for me that has turned into action, and it worked well yesterday so I’ll do it again tomorrow.  She said that she loves cupcakes so she allows herself to have one every week.  She budgets for it in her intake, and she walks to the bakery and back to get it.  By the way, I’ve done that before, and I think it’s a brilliant plan.

And her comment made me think about something that I did during my first year of weight-loss.  I ate fruits and veggies and lean proteins along with foods that were high in fiber.  I exercised regularly, and I ate a piece of cake almost every night.  Yep…I did it.  I had a serving of cake (7 points at the time) for dessert almost every evening, and it took a lot of pressure off.  I didn’t worry about skipping ice cream when my friends ate it, and driving past a bakery was no big deal because I told myself I’d enjoy something sweet later.  And it worked.   it allowed me to focus on everything I was trying to accomplish without the fear of eating too much later.

So that’s my new plan, kind of.  I don’t plan to eat cake everyday, but I will allow myself to have something sweet everyday, at least for now.  I have more than enough PointsPlus to eat nutritiously and stay satisfied while enjoying  half of a cupcake or a Kit-Kat.  I have me entire life to reform my nutritional intake and to figure out why I crave sweet treats, but I don’t want to spend my entire life trying to reach my weight-loss goal.  I’d rather do what I can to reach that goal asap and worry about the rest along the way.

So in addition to working out hard, I’m going to eat healthy foods that are rich in vitamins and nutrients – and have something sweet everyday.  That’s my plan, and I think it’s going to help me get through the holidays with success just as it did the first year.  Obviously, I’m no pro.  I’m just a girl who’s trying to figure it all out, and I have a feeling that while I might get a little flack for it, this plan is going to get me closer to where I want to be.




If you’re friends with me on Facebook or Twitter or just in my daily life then you may know that yesterday was a pretty awesome day for me.  I had a meeting that was cancelled and rescheduled for Monday afternoon so I spent the afternoon with Cal, and we had a lovely day.  We visited with my friend, Jodi, before heading to lunch where I’m happy to say that I stayed on track!  (Jodi! We have to take a picture together soon.  Just saying!)

Just before lunch and after a phone call with my lovely friend, Leslie McClure, (I want to be like her when I grow up) Cal  gave me a gigantic, beautiful bouquet of lilies and roses and asked me to be his girlfriend.  Actually, he asked it on his make shift card (which I adored, by the way) first, and you can guess what I said, right?  I said yes. =)  So it’s official…I have a boyfriend, and I’m pretty giddy about it. =)  I knew he’d ask at some point, but I didn’t know when.  And I didn’t expect it today!

I’ve talked about him on my blog a few times, but I think I’m ready to share a little more.  First, he’s much younger than I am which you can clearly see in the photo! Ha…But he’s met several members of my family and a few close friends, and they all think he’s brilliant- I agree.  He’s in law school, and he’s 6’2″.  (You know I like that, right? ha…) And if you know me, you also know that I’m attracted to guys who are extraordinarily intelligent, and he fits the bill there too.  In an earlier post, I mentioned that he knows the origin of odd produce (I find that attractive too, right KeepItUpDavid?)  and all kinds of things…He’s like my own, personal Google.

He cooks and uses good grammar…He’s supportive and accepting, and my family likes him too.  When Aunt Janice asked him what his intentions with me were (2 minutes after she met him for the first time) she liked his answer.  And in this family, if Aunt Janice likes you, we like you. 😉  Dad will meet him in December, but I think he likes him already. =)

So…we share some interests and have some similar dreams/goals so we’ll take it slow and see where it goes.  For now, my plan is to concentrate on today and make it another healthy one.   I’m planning a long bike ride if the weather allows it.  If not, I’ll hit the gym, and I’ll make healthy food choices regardless.

Are you happy with your progress this week?