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Unexpected Things

Last week I represented PlusInc at an airline conference in Washington, D.C., and it was an honor to speak to airline executives, on behalf of plus-size people.  You can read all about it here.

For years I’ve had a love-hate relationship with our nation’s capital, but this time I fell in love with it.  Looking back it seems as though every time I tried to enjoy the day as a tourist in D.C., something would either go wrong or distract me from my plans, but this trip was different.

This time I didn’t break any bones and spend the day in the emergency room, nor did I spend all day and night swooning over a man who never fails to make me feel sexy and awesome. (I might have done that if he hadn’t been out of town on business in Chicago.)  I spoke at the conference, went out with a cool guy who treated me to one of the best burgers in D.C., spent time with Brandon (who is one of my favorite people on the entire planet,) went to dinner with an awesome and inspirational friend and visited with executives who were interested in hearing what they could do to make air travel better for people of size.

Westin City Center DC

When the conference was over and Brandon left, I decided to take a walk down to the White House.  I hadn’t been there in about two years, and there’s something magical about being at the home of the most powerful person in the free world.  I nerd out for it every time.

The White House was about a mile from my hotel, and it was about another mile to the Lincoln Memorial (which is easily my favorite spot in the city.)  I stopped in front of the White House to take a photo, of course, and a few minutes later I stopped by the Washington Monument to post it on Facebook.

Kenlie White House

When I opened the app, I saw a message from someone who used to mean the world to me.  She was a close friend when I lived in New York, and our relationship suffered because I couldn’t be honest with her.  I’ve talked about this many times on my blog.  She doesn’t have a blog, nor are we connected online.  She just sent a message that said, “Hey, are you in front of the White House?”

She was there visiting from New York with her husband and saw me, but I didn’t see or hear her because I was wearing headphones and listening to Maroon 5’s latest album (which is awesome, by the way.)  I walked back up Constitution, and I can’t tell you how amazing it was to hug her.  I apologized for being a piece of crap, and we walked to the Lincoln Memorial together.  In some ways, it felt like ages since I last saw her (almost 4 years ago,) and in some ways it felt like yesterday.

I don’t know if we’ll ever be friends again, but it was so good to spend time with her.  It felt as though something in my heart was mended that day, and it felt good to say ‘I’m sorry’ in person.

My trip, which included stops in Boston and New York as well, was one of the best I’ve experienced in recent memory.  I’m thankful that I had the opportunity to cultivate change and to be surrounded by close friends and inspirational game-changers. Now I’m back in New Orleans, and I’m looking forward to fall and all of the good things that come with it.

Finding My Confidence

It’s already weigh-in day, and I’m relieved to say that I’ve made many healthy choices this week. The treadmill and I have renewed our relationship because it’s been a little too cold to walk/jog outside, and I realized that it’s much easier to push myself in the gym because there’s no lagging on machines. Regardless of weather, I’ll be on the treadmill again this week.

After last week’s terrible food choices and weight gain, I am hoping that the scale is kind today. Today I deserve it. This week I did my best. There will always be room for improvement, but I controlled myself which makes me victorious. So why am I still so nervous to step on the scale?

I’ve weighed in over 50 times over the last 13 months, and (including last week) I’ve only gained 5 times. And in the weeks following those gains I was nervous to step on the scale – afraid of not seeing the fruits of my labor. But that fear was in vain. I saw losses again.

Each time I step on the scale I remind myself that I’ve lost a considerable amount of weight, and it won’t be the last time I do it if I keep trying. But it’s hard to remember how far I’ve come when my confidence has been shaken. When that happens, I look back at old photos. It still hurts to see them today because the pain the I covered up/refused to feel is so prominent in the expressions on my face.

Last week I said that I’ve been happier since moving to New York than I’ve been in my entire life, and it’s absolutely true. But the happiness started to expand and multiply when I started to believe that I am in control of my life and my choices. So while it’s sad to look back, I think it’s important to remember how I felt and how I feel now because I don’t want to go back to feeling the way I did.

I have a long way to go before reaching my goal, but the happiness you see on my face today is real and unscathed. I’m happier on the inside because I’ve changed on the inside, and I’m changing on the outside too. I am doing my best not to let the scale dictate my belief in myself. It’s real. It’s growing as I shrink, and that’s just as black and white as the numbers on the scale.

So bring it weigh-in day. I’m ready for it.

Friend Makin’ Monday: My Daybook

I cannot believe it’s Monday again already! I hope the next week flies by because I’ll be packing for our trip to Las Vegas where I’ll be seeing friends from Oklahoma, Los Angeles, Washington and Indiana! Seriously…it’s going to be a fun trip! I can’t wait!

Anyway, this week we are finishing several sentences with our own thoughts. If you’d like to join the fun just click on Amber’s blog for details. 🙂
Here’s my list:

Outside my window…It’s dark outside and very, very windy…

I am thinking….about how excited I am to be hosting the Family and Friends Getting Fit Weekly Challenge on my blog starting today. And I’m hoping that many of you will join me!
I am thankful…that I have lost over 75 pounds.

I am praying…that God will give my boyfriend a totally successful and prosperous week at work and full recovery of his arm after the minor surgery he had last week.

I am reading…”The Other Woman” by Jane Green. Most of her books have not been up to my lofty chick lit standards, but I already owned it. I bought it over the summer and didn’t bother with it after reading her other books –until now.

I am creating…a list of groceries that I need to buy when I’m no longer ill. I should have placed an order online, but I like picking the produce myself.

From the kitchen…Tonight I made Hungry Girl’s Onion Rings, and OMG! They were SO good! And at only 2 WW points per serving they became one of my new favorite snacks. Tomorrow I’m making Faux Fried Chicken.

Around the house…The laundry is done. The dishes are done. Everything is nice and tidy. I will vacuum tomorrow before my friend, Carol, comes to workout just because I love the clean scent of Mr. Clean carpet freshener.

One of my favorite things…is traveling and spending time with friends. I am really looking forward to doing both next week on the other side of the country. I hope it’s warmer there!

A few plans for the rest of the week…I’d like to walk on the treadmill Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday, attend my meeting Thursday (one of the things I look forward to the most every week) and to spend an afternoon in Connecticut with girlfriends.

I’d love to read your answers on each of these topics. And I would definitely love to hear about your favorite things. Happy Monday Friends!

What’s On Your Playlist?

I do cardio exercise once, sometimes twice per day six days a week. And I get more out of my workouts when I’m excited about them. So I listen to songs that get my adrenaline going…songs that make me want to move to the beat…and I sweat – a lot.

I listen to a variety of music, but most workouts consist of songs that never fail to get me moving. Here’s a list of those tunes:
  • Something In Your Mouth – Nickelback (Hey, I didn’t say they were tasteful…I said they get me moving.)
  • Since You’ve Been Gone – Kelly Clarkson
  • Evenflow – Pearl Jam (Favorite. Band. Ever.)
  • Save You – Pearl Jam (Like I said…favorite band)
  • The Magic Flute – Maria Callas
  • Somebody Like You – Keith Urban
  • Mr. Brownstone – Guns N’ Roses
  • Makes Me Wonder – Maroon 5
  • The Climb – (I know it’s not a rockin’ tune, but it inspires me to keep working. It’s a great song for warming up)
  • Cold Hearted Snake – Paula Abdul
  • Awesome God (You’re Voice) – Vicky Beeching
  • Sexy Back – Justin Timberlake
  • The Old Landmark – Gaither Vocal Band (Yeah…I’m not even kidding.)
  • Walk Away – Kelly Clarkson
  • Wasted – Carrie Underwood
  • You Can’t Stop The Beat – Hairspray Soundtrack (This song never fails to make me super happy.)
  • Shakin’ Hands – Nickelback
  • S.E.X. – Nickelback (What can I say? Dark Horse is one of my favorite albums. It’s definitely not for everyone, but nothing works to get me moving more than the songs from this album.)
  • I Don’t Wanna Be – Gavin DeGraw (This song rocks my world on so many levels.)
I think it’s clear that my musical taste runs the gamut. Music definitely helps me step it up whether I’m on my bike or on the treadmill or at the track which is why I keep my water bottle close and my iPod closer. 😉
What motivates you while you’re exercising? Does music help you pick up the pace? Is there a specific song that always gets you excited? If so, what is it?