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What I Loved About Fitbloggin

Last week while I was on a plane I wrote a gushy post about everything that I was looking forward to once I arrived in Portland.  The week before had been incredibly stressful, and I was determined to leave it in the past so I focused on what would make me happy.  I scheduled it, but it never published.  Oops!  I scheduled a Friend Makin’ Mondays post (knowing that I’d still be in Portland on the following Monday,)  and that published early.  Oops!  I had some technical issues last week, and I hope they’re resolved now.  I suppose we’ll see in time, won’t we? 😉

Once I arrived in Portland, I didn’t spend much time blogging.  I wrote a post for Fitbloggin.com, but apart from that, I enjoyed everything as it happened.  I did a little tweeting, Facebook-ing and Instagram-ing, but I didn’t spend much time looking at my computer screen or my phone which is odd for me.  I also managed to miss an entire week of news, and for this Anderson Cooper junkie, that’s unheard of!

As a blogger it’s easy to forget to live “in the now.”  I often joke about my love for social media by saying “Why do it if you can’t take a picture of it and post it on your blog?”  But being there last week and absorbing all of the experiences with old friends and new friends made me happy.  I felt as though I had walked into a big hug when I arrived and that it continued throughout the conference.  I knew that going would be a good thing, and it was a great thing.

I saw several friends that I haven’t seen in ages.  I’m always happy to see Leslie and Jaason.  They’re always at the top of my list.  We dined at lovely 5-star restaurants, tasted various types of ice cream at Salt and Straw and spent time joking with each other, discussing life and other things.  Meeting Leslie is easily the best thing that has come as a result of Fitbloggin, and that’s saying a lot because I’ve met so many wonderful people throughout the years.

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Jaason and Kenlie at Fitbloggin

I was also excited this year because my long-time friend, KeepItUpDavid, was going to be in attendance for the first time.  It was hard to contain my excitement when I saw him…so I didn’t.  I immediately began hugging him and gushing about how wonderful it was to see him again, and it was as awesome as I thought it would be.  We got to spend some time outside of the conference too, and I’m so thankful that he was there.


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I also made some new friends this year.  I had met Leah (aka BookieBoo) at conferences in the past, but we enjoyed a night out on the town this year.  I knew she’d love David too, and I was right.  What’s not to love? 🙂   I also got to spend time with Meredith and Tasha (who took the photo above) as well.

After Friday morning’s 6 am boot camp, we stopped in to report the news.  (No we didn’t.)  We did get a cool tour of KGW’s studio though!

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And after Zumba, I went to a session for those of us who have a lot to lose, and Emmie gave us flowers when we cried.  Did a few ugly tears stop us from taking photos?  Of course not!


I went to lunch with Lyn and enjoyed deep conversations about our lives – where they are, what we’d like to do differently, etc.  It felt good to be so candid with someone who understands what’s inside my head, and I hope she’ll find her way to New Orleans sooner rather than later.  (Hint, Hint Lyn!)

And what would Fitbloggin be without Martinus and Dre?  These dudes crack me up, and I couldn’t even begin to describe how awesome they are if I tried.  Martinus is the man.  He knows how to sport a bow tie, but he’s just as comfortable in sneakers.  His blog is almost a year old now, and I can’t really imagine what this community would be like without him.  Take a minute to say hello to him and wish him a happy birthday. 🙂  And Dre just makes me smile every time I see him.  What can I say?  These guys are great…

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I spent time with so many people who matter to me that I couldn’t possibly post pictures of all of them without driving myself crazy, but you get the idea.  It was a great week in which I laughed, cried, learned, sweated, made new friends, kissed a cow and enjoyed being surrounded by people who “get” me.

There’s so much more I could say about last week, but I haven’t even made it home yet so I’m exhausted.  After the conference ended I stuck around to see friends who lived in the area and didn’t attend Fitbloggin.  I met my long-time web friend, Melissa, and I also met another friend (who will likely be at Fitbloggin in 2014, Emily.)  Another friend who doesn’t live in the area drove in so we could spend some time together too, and that feeling I described above (like I walked into one big hug) lasted even after the conference was over.

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Emily and Kenlie Portland, OR

I’ll return to New Orleans tomorrow just in time to celebrate the nation’s birthday, then mine (on Friday.)  I have family visiting too which is something that I always look forward to.  I have so much more to say about Fitbloggin and what I learned about myself last week, but I’ll need to some time to settle in before I collect my thoughts.  I also have some work to do which will take priority for a bit when I get home.

The last ten days have been amazing, and I’m so thankful for the community of people that I was able to connect with once again.  I’m already looking forward to next year, and can’t wait to paint the town with these people…in Nashville or Austin.

Until then…


Baking, Bruises and Bouncing Back

Today is weigh-in day, but I’m out of town so I won’t officially weigh in until next week.  My scale at home told me that I was down almost two pounds, but I know that I can do more than I’m doing.  That will be my goal for the upcoming week.

My brain has been scattered this week, and I know that I need to get more sleep.  I know that my workouts will be longer and more effective if I’m not exhausted, and I won’t make mistakes like I did yesterday.  I’ve been taking the stairs to get to the roof of my tall building (where the gym is,) and my legs were feeling it yesterday.  I stepped onto the treadmill to do inclined intervals, and as I was stepping off, I twisted my ankle a little.  It’s not so bad that I can’t walk, but there’s a bruise just about my ankle bone that is screaming at me today.  I did manage to do some floor exercises too before heading back downstairs to shower and pack.


Today will be a rest day which should be okay because I’ve planned out my meals.  I’ve been dodging cupcakes more than usual this week, but that’s over for now.  I baked over 100 red velvet cupcakes Monday for a movie themed party (that I did not attend,) and I didn’t eat them.  I didn’t even taste them, but I did receive compliments on them which made me happy.



(Photos: Courtesy of Graceful Event Productions)

I whipped up a batch of tie dye cupcakes for game night at a friend’s house Tuesday too.  I tried those so I can tell you that they were good.  I didn’t take any with me when I left because I knew that if I didn’t have them, I wouldn’t eat them.  As long as I can stick to that plan I should be okay.


Baking allows me to feel artistic, but it’s a complicated practice when you’re addicted to sweets.  I don’t eat them nearly as often as I talk about them, but I know that I have to be careful.  I like them too much.

I’m baking a little more often (and on a larger scale) lately, and I’ve given some serious thought to whether or not it’s something I can do.  I haven’t decided yet.  I thought about whether or not I should mention it here too.  I know that by discussing this I’ll be judged harshly by some, but I’m judged by them anyway so why not?   This blog is about my life, and it’s something that I’ve been doing lately.

I also shopped for dresses this week because I am seeing His Holiness the Dalai Lama speak Saturday, and I want to look my best.  I chose two dresses, and I’ll probably definitely post photos on Facebook and Twitter to ask which one I should wear.

It has been a good week, but it has also been long.  And it’s not over yet.  Is anyone else ready for the weekend?  What do you have planned?


How Would You Handle This?

When I hit the gym it often feels as though everyone around me becomes an instant expert. I can appreciate the desire that they have to help the heavy girl get fit, but sometimes I just want to be left alone to do what I showed up to do.

Some of the unsolicited “advice” I receive is absurd. Someone once told me to drink 600 oz. of water  per day.  Today someone told me to hang upside down so the blood would start pounding inside my head which would eliminate the desire to eat.  At other times they share good advice, but what makes it okay to walk up to a stranger and tell them how to fix themselves?

It seems as though people simply hang out at the gym or  lose a little (or a lot) of weight before instantly becoming a self-proclaimed expert.  And while I can appreciate the good intentions that accompany the advice most of the time, unless they’ve been in my shoes, I don’t want to hear how easy it is if I just do this or that.

Has this ever happened to you?  If so, how did you handle it?

90 Days of Change Update

It has been two weeks since I decided that I needed to make some tough changes to restart my weight-loss, and it seems to be working.  By limiting processed carbs and sugar, I’m seeing results.  I wish I could lose 10 pounds overnight, but right now I’m happy seeing the numbers inch down.

My protein intake has been excellent, but I need to consume more veggies than I have in the last couple of days.  I just need to make some time to shop for produce which I will do Thursday or Friday. Until then, I’ll eat the green beans and zucchini that I still have in the fridge.

Throughout the last two weeks I have eaten one unhealthy meal, and during that meal I limited my portion to one serving.  I haven’t had a drop of alcohol, which was a challenge when I had company on the rooftop, but I am determined to continue moving forward.  I hate that I allowed my weight to find its way back into the low 300’s, but I’m actively working to change it.

Last week I started working out with a trainer from my gym.  His name is Ron, and you can say hi to him on twitter if you want to.  He’s the perfect combination of sweet and tough, and if you have to sweat your guts out in front of someone, why not do in front of someone who is a constant reminder of what exercise can do?


After an hour with this guy last week, I was sore for two days.  Seriously…two days, but it felt good!  I’m meeting with him again in about half an hour, and I’m looking forward to pushing past the limits I’ve created for myself in my head.It seems as though his presence, even when I’m not scheduled to workout with him,makes me fight harder too.  Check out my sweaty red face (and super awesome shirt) after a solo workout.


I know that having a personal trainer is a luxury.  I know it’s not always feasible, but I also know that I feel amazing right now.  I’m in control of my food intake, and I’m trying break through the barriers that I’ve struggled with for far too long.


Last week you all made it very clear that I’m not alone in this so now I have to know….What are you doing to crush your goals this week?



Little Victories, Or When I Decided Against Krispy Kreme

In yesterday’s post I mentioned small victories that add up to big results, and since then I’ve made several little choices that will help me reach my goal.

I did another 5k because the weather is beautiful, and doing a workout in the morning seemed better than not doing one at all.  I made conscious decisions with food even though I was prepared to consume more calories today than I have or plan to have the rest of the week.

After class I went to a sports bar that my friends and I frequent and played trivia with my friend, Matt.  We dominated the game, but he was the champion of the evening! He won a gift certificate that I’m sure he’ll put to use soon, and I won a party for myself and 10 to 20 of my friends.  Seriously…We’ll get appetizers, dinner, drinks and a pool table for two hours.  How cool is that?  (It’s pretty awesome.  I know.)

When trivia ended we spent a few hours discussing our lives and other things before I headed home which takes about an hour and a half.  After a great night with an awesome friend I found myself wanting to snack on a doughnut on the way home because Krispy Kreme is on the way.

For years it was nearly impossible to pass up a Krispy Kreme without stopping, and sometimes it’s still harder than it should be (especially since I don’t really like the doughnuts anymore.)  I’ve passed by it several times recently without stopping, but last night I stopped and ordered a blueberry cake doughnut.  It sat in the passenger seat for the first 20 miles of my trip, and when I was finally ready to take a bite I stopped at one.

I know it’s okay to eat a doughnut from time to time, though it probably shouldn’t happen after midnight.  And while the first bite was good I reminded myself that the rest of it would taste the same, and I didn’t eat it.  I disposed of it when I stopped to gas up my car.

Immediately I realized that eating that doughnut would not fill a void, nor would it make me happy.  It would have given me a moment of gratification followed by the realization that I just consumed 330 calories of crap after sweating hard during my 5k earlier in the day.

Maybe these little choices are a sign that I’m headed in a positive direction.  Maybe I can enjoy my life while shaping it into what I want it to be. It may not seem significant to anyone else, but in my eyes I was victorious last night.

Do you struggle with choices between instant gratification and reaching your long term goals?


Getting Honest About Some Things

Before I begin I have to warn you that this post might be long and scattered because I have a lot to get off my chest today, and I’m not sure where to start.

I could never put into words how much I appreciate the unwavering support that I receive here.  Many of you have been here since the beginning waiting to see me reach my goal, encouraging me to keep trying.  I love you for that, and I hope you never stop.  But right now I need to start digging out of this rut of complacency that I have been in for a lot longer than I want to admit.

Losing 100 pounds is often enough to dramatically alter the lives of those who lose it, but it’s not enough for me. I have experienced so many positive changes, but this is not a post about that.  Right now I need to figure out how to change my mindset, how to make myself move forward again in a strong, steady and powerful way.

I don’t know how to climb out of this proverbial hole that I’ve been living in.  I’ve been living comfortably with the fact that I’ve lost so much weight for so long now that it feels like I need to start over.  My past accomplishments don’t need to be forgotten, but they’re old news…really old news.  And I want to bask in some new accomplishments.

Before I continue, I’m going to ask that everyone refrain from telling me that I’m more than a number on a scale, or that I need to love myself so others will, or that I won’t be happy when I get to my goal if I can’t be happy with myself now.  I’ve heard all of that, and I understand most of it.  But let’s face some facts today.

When I look at my life I see some things that I like and some things I still want to change, but everything is overshadowed by a giant dark cloud that is the number on the scale.

I used to encourage others by saying that you don’t have to reach your goal before you start feeling good about yourself. You just have to start.  And it’s true.  I know it’s true because when I said it, I was feeling it.   Right now, what I accomplished throughout the first part of this journey is simply not enough.  I’m still obese.

I could make a list of reasons I love and respect myself today, and that list has grown more in the last year than it has at any other point in my life.  I know that I’m a good person, and I have been working through emotions that are difficult to face because I’m trying to become a better person.  There’s a lot of work going on inside my head, and that’s important to recognize (even though most of it is far too personal to discuss in such a public forum.)

But the fact remains that when I look at myself, I see the number on the scale.  We can say it doesn’t define me, but the truth is that it is me.  My body grew to its largest size because of what I did to it, and whether I like to admit it or not, my size currently defines who I am above everything else.

Look, I have a host of other imperfections as well, but my size haunts me.  It’s the truth, my truth, and the things that led me to my extreme obesity (and the snowball effect it has had since) are not easy to face.  It’s hard to admit when you’re wrong, but I’ve been wrong a lot.  I made some pretty incredible mistakes.  I mistreated my body and my loved ones, and in many ways I led a life that could never have been happy and free if I didn’t begin to face those issues.

Before I started losing weight I would always say that I was a “good investment.”  I wanted to believe it was true because surely I’d eventually mature into more than I was – a grossly overweight, unhappy, unmotivated, unsuccessful shell of a human-being who didn’t value herself enough to create any positive change in herself.  (Yeah, the truth hurts, and it’s still not easy to admit now.)  But that’s how I viewed myself.

When guilt set in I told myself that I’d do better tomorrow.  I told myself constantly that the future was filled with hope, yet I failed to give myself any reasons to be hopeful.

Fast-forward to the present: I can’t say that I’m as horribly unhappy or unmotivated now as I was prior to 2009.  As I said, I like a lot of things about my life these days, but there are still some major things I need to change.

I need to change my environment.  I prefer living alone and in a city so I am planning a move into a cute little apartment in downtown New Orleans in the Fall.  Living alone will be good for me.  Controlling what is in the pantry and the refrigerator will be good for me.  I know that, but I also realize that everything I eat now is a choice.  It’s my choice, and it’s up to me to make better decisions.  One thing I’ve noticed spending most of my time downtown is that I’m more likely to go out for food.  It will be easier when I have my own little kitchen, but I will still have to make choices.  Living alone won’t solve everything, but it will be a big leap in the right direction.

I also need to claim what I really want.  I mean, I wish I was fit and trim, but we all know that I have to do a lot more than wish to be at goal.  It looks like I’m going to have to fight a hell of a lot harder than I did when I started my journey, and I have to accept that.  End of story.

I need a routine too.  I’m always on the go, and I don’t spend a lot of time in one place.  Just in the last few months I’ve been in Colorado, Virginia, D.C., New York, Houston, etc.  And over the next couple of months I’ll be in New York again, Baltimore, Los Angeles and Dallas (maybe Oklahoma too.)  Traveling a lot means that I have to have a different game plan.  I lost weight when I traveled before so I know it’s possible, but I have to be mindful.

I’m also lacking accountability.  I left Weight Watchers again recently after another bout of frustration with PointsPlus, and now my meeting no longer exists.  Say what you will, but weighing in at meetings every week changed my life.  I need to find a new meeting and make it my highest priority again.

I’ve gotten lazy with my workouts too.  Sure, I do them occasionally, but I love working out.  I crave endorphins nearly everyday so why the hell am I not doing it?  I don’t have a gym membership anymore, but there’s nothing stopping me from joining another one.  I’ll work that out this week, but until then I will do 30-Day Shred at home at least 5 times over the next 7 days.

I could drone on for hours about why it’s hard and how it’s not fair that I have so much further to go than the average person who loses as much as I’ve lost, but lamenting the work I have to do will not bring me closer to my goal.

I still say no to myself a lot more than I say yes, but I’m not doing enough.  I know that, and I take responsibility for that.

The fact is that my actions don’t help or hurt anyone except me.  I’m surrounded by people who love me and want me to be happy and healthy, but I have to get there on my own.  I’m happier than I was at 400+ pounds, but I’m not as happy as I’ll be at 150 pounds.  And it’s not because I don’t think I don’t deserve to be happy now.  It’s because I know that I am capable of so much more.

I’m preparing a life for myself in which obesity will no longer define me.  I’m in school studying Public Relations. (Yep, I declared recently.)  And I’m dreaming of a day when I can claim what I want for myself in my career and in relationships without the worry that my body is keeping me from fulfilling my desires.

This is my reality, friends.  This is my struggle, and no one can fix it except me.  Last week I admitted that I don’t know how, and sadly, I have not found the answer yet.  The truth is I can’t imagine stepping on the scale and seeing 275 or 250, or 199.  (I could see  the first number in the next month or so, but it feels as far as Mars!)

I don’t know how I did what I did the first time.  I don’t know how to wake up every morning with purpose.  I don’t know how to convince myself that today is the day (not tomorrow.)

I feel an utter lack of confidence and an overwhelming amount of insecurity, but I know what I want today.  I know what I want for my future, and I know that it’s mine for the taking.  I also know that I don’t have to get to my goal before I can start feeling on top of the world again.  I know I just have to start moving toward it.

This is my journey, and I’m doing things on my time.  I just need to turn the clock on again, and I need to remind myself that I’m worthy of it if I’m willing to work for it.



A Quick Question

My workouts have been a mixed bag this month, but overall I’ve been slacking.  I’m going to hit it hard on my bike today, and that makes me wonder about what you’re doing.

If you’re reading this will you take a minute to share with me?

What kind of workout will you do today?  



Should I Try Pilates?

Over the last few years I’ve learned that my body is capable of doing incredible things!  I’ve pushed myself beyond what I thought were my limits, and I’ve gotten comfortable with machines at the gym that intimidated me for years.   I can do ten miles on the elliptical…I can run and do Bikram Yoga. I’ve attended big fitness conferences, and I’ve been embraced by people there (most of whom were quick to remind me that I belonged as much as they did.)

And that makes me wonder what it would be like to attend this weekend conference in June hosted by Jennifer Kries.  She’s inspirational and inspired, and spending a weekend being taught to “accomplish what is in your heart” seems like a great use of one’s time and money.  I mean, I’d love to “discover my inner radiance!”  And I could, no doubt, benefit from more core work.  Here’s what one could expect to learn at this conference.

  • Breathing
  • The navel-to-spine connection
  • Effortless effort
  • The principle of opposition
  • Economy of movement
  • Centering
  • Dynamic rhythm and flow.

Doesn’t this list seem like it could benefit everyone?

I’ve heard so much about Pilates, but it’s the latest thing to intimidate me.  Jennifer hosts other conferences  for people who have done Pilates for at least a year.  Clearly, that’s not me.  But does that mean I could attend the weekend conference that I mentioned above?  Can “beginner” also apply to someone like me who has never seriously tried Pilates?

I mean, I enjoy Bikram Yoga which focuses on core strength, and I’ve spent the last few years focusing on cardio, weights and my core.  I’m stronger than I look, but I don’t know enough about Pilates to know if I could do it.  (You know this means I’m going to try it soon, right? Right.)

I just need to figure out if I’m confident enough to immerse myself in a weekend of Pilates with a renowned expert or not.

Let me hear your thoughts on this.  I have no desire to make a fool of myself, but I’m even less interested in skipping something that could be awesome because it makes me nervous.

What do you think?  Have you tried Pilates? Would you be intimidated to go to a confernce hosted by someone like Jennifer Kries?



Wow…I Really Regret That Workout…

Sometimes I’m inspired to workout in the afternoon instead of the evening, and that’s what happened yesterday after seeing this quote.

When I read that one Facebook, I grabbed my sneakers and hit it hard for about an hour.  And I was reminded as I often am that I like to sweat…a lot.  By the time I leave the gym, I’m usually drenched, and today was no exception.

Mid-workout and sweaty...

My fitness goal for today is to start my workout before noon – something that I don’t often do.  And my goal will be the same tomorrow because I have to catch a flight in the afternoon.

Do you have a fitness goal for today?  If so, what it is?



Giving Away One of my New Favorites Today

I love to hit the gym, but there are times in which it’s just easier or more appealing to workout at home.  And if you know me, you know that I adore Richard Simmons and his workout DVD’s, but sometimes it’s fun to mix things up.  And after meeting Nicole from Spark People last year, I was excited to try her new 28-Day Boot Camp workout DVD.

Coach Nicole and Me at IDEA in LA...

And I love this picture too much not to include it because my lovely friend, Leslie, is standing next to me. =)

Back to the DVD…The 28-Day Boot Camp DVD is excellent for people at any fitness level, and I love it because combining strength and cardio always makes me feel athletic (even when I have to modify the exercises.)  And over the last month, I’ve been reminded that it’s so important to feel good about what you’re doing and that confidence plays a huge role in success.  And I also like that I can burn a lot of calories in a short amount of time.  You can workout for 10 minutes, 30 minutes or whatever you feel like doing, but you’ll definitely feel the burn.

Do you want to try the DVD?  You can buy it online or at your local Target, but Nicole is going to give one away to one of my readers too.  If you’d like to win it, leave a comment telling me that you want to win.  You can also follow @thecoachnicole on twitter for an additional entry.  Tell her @alltheweigh says hi! =)

Nicole is awesome, Sparkpeople is awesome and her DVD is awesome too so check it out.  And don’t forget to enter to win your own copy!  The winner will be chosen Monday at 9pm central time.  Good luck friends!  Let’s get fit together!

*All opinions in this post are mine, and I have not been paid to endorse this product. Nicole from Sparkpeople will provide the DVD to one winner. The winner will have 48 hours to respond from the time the e-mail is sent.  Resident must be 18 years or older and live in the US.