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Failure, Fear and Complacency

Today has been a great day, but I didn’t reach my steps goal.  I’m happy to say that I worked out, but I didn’t start until 11:20 pm when I got home.  My numbers were embarrassingly low today, but I can admit that I made other things my priority.

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I started school today, and I was busy working on things that had to be done, in addition to having fun with friends in the evening.  I know that fitness needs to be a part of my life everyday, and I’ve promised myself to reach my goal before I leave for class since I’ll be there all afternoon and evening.

In other news, I am happy to report that I am feeling good about my choice to not go on dates for at least a month.  I feel loved and fulfilled.  It’s not like I’ve lost any and all desire to be with someone eventually, but I have allowed myself to focus on other things.  There’s someone I think about from time to time.  He’s an incredible person, but we’ll never date so, in a way, it feels safe to dream about him once in a while.

I’ve also received several questions about Project Hope, a weight-loss system that Richard Simmons designed for those who want to get serious about losing weight.  I proclaimed that I was going to do it, then I didn’t do it.  I exercise.  You know it.  Richard knows it.  We all know it, but the commitment to changing my food habits makes me feel weak.  I honestly don’t know what it will take to get my habits back under control because I do okay for a while, then I suck at it again.

I’m smart and driven, but when it comes to food, I feel like a complete and utter failure.  So to all of you who have e-mailed me asking for answers regarding Project HOPE, I will say this.  I looked over the plan studied it and know that I can confidently tell you that if you do it, it will work.  It’s a common sense approach to weight-loss, but I have not made the effort to make the plan work for me.

It’s hard to be here and admit how hard this struggle has been.  It’s been harder than ever lately.  While I was at Fitbloggin’, I managed to gain several pounds which are still taunting me now, and I’m scared.

I’m terrified that I’m going to move so far in the wrong direction that I’ll never get back on track.  I cannot let that happen.  The workouts help, but they don’t solve the whole problem.

I don’t know what to do.  Actually, I do.  I need to stop eating more than I need.  Calories in, calories out…blah, blah, blah….Spare me. This isn’t about food; it’s about what’s inside my head.

My faults are written all over my body, and it affects almost every area of my life.  I need to change, but I don’t have any grand plans for it today.  I suppose I just need to vent, admit my feelings of failure and move on.

I have changed.  My life has changed.  I have so much more than I deserve, and I am so thankful for the changes that have happened on the inside.  I’m thankful for my life, my home, my family, my friends, my church, my school…the list goes on…

At this time two years ago I was completely and utterly lost, and now I’m happier than I ever could have imagined.  Why can’t I just control my food choices?  Why am I so weak?  How was I so strong before?

I feel like the girl I was when I lost weight is a complete stranger now.  I mean, I never really knew her because I spent so much time lying to myself.  Now that I’ve experienced incredible change it seems like the food part should be easy.  It’s not.

I’ve had an amazing day, and I’m going to go to bed pleased with what is happening in my life.  I just wish I didn’t have to deal with this burdensome cloud of “I’ll do better tomorrow Syndrome” that seems to keep me from moving forward.

My goals for tomorrow include exercising before school, packing a healthy, high protein meal for in between classes and to eat a salad. There’s no ending on a positive note today, apart from admitting that I need to pick myself up and try again.

 

 

 

 

Richard Simmons’ Project HOPE

Earlier this week a reporter from a national news organization e-mailed me to ask about my current weight and the progress I’ve made recently.  It was hard to admit that I didn’t have an awesome update for her, but I told her to check back in a few months because I’ll have something more interesting to say.

I have been trying to figure out how to move forward.  My workouts have been solid so far this year, but my eating has been inconsistent.  Some days I don’t eat enough, and most days I eat too much.  I’ve lacked direction for well over a year, but in my heart I still believe that I can do this.  And last night I decided to commit to 90 days of healthy eating and exercising. That won’t take me to my goal, but right now inching forward would be enough.

If you read my blog often, you know that I absolutely adore Richard Simmons, and over the last couple of years I’ve had the opportunity to sweat at Slimmons.  His workouts are intense, but they’re also so much fun!  I’ve never enjoyed working out as much as when I’m working out with Richard which is why “Party Off the Pounds” has been my favorite workout DVD since I purchased it in 2010.

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Now Richard has launched a 90-day progressive system called Project HOPE.  I recorded the infomercial because I was curious and because my pal, KeepItUpDavid, is featured in it.  He has lost 165 pounds with Richard, and if you go to his blog, you’ll learn that every part of his life has been affected for the better.

Last night when I came home I skipped watching White Collar and watched Richard’s infomercial instead, and  before it was over I had purchased the 90-day plan.

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I know that I need help, and I know that I need to get a grip on my food habits.  I do well for a few days, but I lack the consistency that I once had.  I lack the confidence and the hope that I used to know would take me to my ultimate goal.  I know that I need to have faith in myself, but I have struggled to find it.

In order to lose weight I need to believe that I can regain control over my food choices.  I need to feel hope again, and Richard has given it to people around the world for almost 40 years.  I own many of his workout DVD’s, but this new program offers more than that.  In addition to several workouts, I will also receive a food plan and recipes that are satisfying, filling and nutritious.  Working out can be fun, and I’m looking forward to enjoying healthy foods too.

Getting to my ultimate goal still feels nearly impossible, but I do believe that I can make significant improvements over 90 days with Richard’s workout and Food Mover programs.  I’ve gotten better at eating at home, and with some direction and a short-term goal, I think I will find success.  And one thing I’ve learned is that success breeds more success.

I know that while Richard can provide the tools, I will have to make the effort to move forward myself.  Ninety days won’t take me to a healthy weight, but it will take me a lot closer to my goal than I’ve been in a long, long time.