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Motivation Monday

Monday was my least favorite day of the week until last month when my gentleman friend started exercising with me after work. Mondays are kind of long, but they’re much more enjoyable now that I’m in a healthy routine.

The guy and I workout at different gyms, but he lives close enough to me that it’s easy to join me for a workout at the gym upstairs. I want to start jumping in the pool after our workouts, but we’re usually ready to eat dinner by the time we’re done.

We eat together a few times a week, and the majority of meals are at my place because I love to cook. He’ll eat anything I serve too, which makes it easy to want to feed him. Ha…

I’m working toward some pretty specific fitness goals that I”ll discuss here more in July or August, and it’s amazing to have his support, in addition to the encouragement I receive from my family, friends and co-workers.

I’m in a healthy place right now, and I want to continue improving in this area. I feel incredible after a sweaty workout, and sweaty selfies are still my favorite. (I suppose I should take some more of them.)

YMCA New Orleans

Gaining control of my weight is so hard, but I constantly remind myself that I can do all things through Christ. Seriously, I can’t even express how much my life has changed since I realized that God loves me and desires a healthy and abundant life for me.

It’s a long road, and I suppose it won’t end until life does. I’m okay with that now. The resentment I felt for far too long has been replaced by resilience. I know that I need to stay humble and accountable, and I am thankful for the loving people in my life who understand and empathize with that.

I have more energy than I did a month ago, and I’m looking forward to seeing more improvement in that area as I increase my level of activity.

Now it’s a new day, and it’s time to hit the ground running…(err, walking briskly…You know what I mean.)

When People Ask Why Someone My Size Works In A Gym

Almost everyone I’ve met at work has been amazing since I started late last year. I haven’t run across a single person who thinks it’s acceptable to criticize my weight or my exercise routines, which is rare and awesome. I know that sometimes people look at me wonder what I’m doing there, but no one asked until today.

Actually, the curious person didn’t ask me. I would have been happy to answer, but they asked one of our group fitness instructors who thought it would be fine to mention it to me. It is fine, and I think it’s important to answer questions like this instead of pretending I look/think/act like everyone else.

I weigh over 300 pounds, and I work at a fitness facility for a few reasons that you can read in a list below:

  • I love working with people, and my position in sales and marketing allows me to get paid for talking to people all day. I love going into work and seeing people who are happy, and I’m also thankful for the opportunity that I often have to put a smile on someone else’s face.
  • I have access to a state of the art facility that I don’t even have to leave work to use.
  • I have the unique opportunity to make people comfortable with exercise. If you’ve never been over 400 pounds, then good for you. You definitely do not understand how hard it is to walk into the gym for the first time. I meet so many well-intentioned people who think they understand because they had to lose 30,40 or 50 pounds. You don’t understand, but that’s okay. That’s why I’m here, and I get to help people like me recognize their worth. That’s an honor.
  • I get to be surrounded by friends everyday. My boss is a close friend now, and I have some other great friends at work as well. It’s so awesome to be surrounded by strong, encouraging people.

The list could be much longer because there are lots of little things that make me love what I’m doing, but the shortest answer is that I love working at the Y because it’s for everyone. It doesn’t matter if you’re a seasoned gym fanatic or if you’re walking in for the first time; when you walk in you’re going to be treated like someone who matters because you do.

My goal over the last several years has been to change the way I receive myself and to recognize my value regardless of my size. I’ve been pretty successful in that, and now I’m in a position to make my health a priority again with a positive perspective. I’m so thankful for that, and I’m grateful for the opportunity to help others recognize their worth as well.

 

Saturday at the YMCA and More…

Don’t ask me why I suddenly love to blog on the weekends. I’ve been doing this for nearly a decade (over seven years on this site,) and I know that nothing really happens on the internet over the weekends. I also know that after taking a pretty significant break from blogging regularly, there’s not much happening here during the week either. I’d like to think that someone still reads what I write, but right now I’m here because I want to remember how I felt today.

YMCA New Orleans

One of the perks of working at the Y is that I can go in and exercise at any time, and today I decided I’d go in and sweat for a bit. I’m still not ready to talk about what I’m planning, but I will say that I set aside my fears of looking silly today and did a personal, impromptu aerobics class with myself.

I warmed up, did some cardio and some compound movements, and by the end I was drenched in sweat. (I know that’s gross, but I love the feelings that come with being a sweaty, post-workout mess.)  I own a Garmin Vivofit 2, but I think I’ll need to invest in a heart rate monitor soon.

After my workout I bought a few groceries before heading home to make lunch. I’m tracking my food in the Weight Watchers app, and it’s interesting to see how they’ve adjusted since I was a member before. I like the way they seem to be taking more into account, and it’s been pretty eye-opening to realize how much I’ve been allowing myself to eat. No wonder I gained so much back. Good grief. (Obvious, I know, but it helps me to see it and acknowledge it.)

I love having yogurt for breakfast when I get to work. I typically have vanilla Greek yogurt with various toppings, but when I learned that I could buy Noosa at Sam’s Club, I went for it. I already know how much I love the strawberry rhubarb flavor, so I’m pretty confident that I’ll like the others as well. I like that they’re smaller than the individual ones I’ve seen in grocery stores, and the price tag was pretty great too – $9.48 per dozen. (We just talked about how much I appreciate the little things. Ha..)

Noosa

Tonight I’m going out with friends, so I’m going to shower and relax a bit before my person comes to pick me up. I’m feeling pretty good about my day so far, and I’m looking forward to a fun evening.

Until next time…

Stress and Gratitude

Have you ever had one of those weeks in which you’re counting down the minutes to Friday and looking forward to the fun things you’re going to do over the weekend? Well, that was me…last week…until my plans for a relaxing, long weekend with people who matter to me were cancelled. Thankfully, I was able to recharge on Monday. (Can we just talk about how much I love long weekends?)

Windblown after a day at the beach

The last few several weeks have been stressful. I’ve had some amazing moments, but it also feels like I’m carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. Mom is doing so much better than she was physically, but it’s still hard not to worry about her. She’s recovering though, which is the most important thing to me right now. I’m so thankful for that.

Last week I just didn’t feel rested. This week was better, but I’m still fighting to get back to my regular energy level. I typically sleep like a champ, but I’ve been restless a lot over the last few nights. Last week I was completely worn out. This week has been better, but I still don’t feel 100%.

I know that my weight is affecting the way my body feels. That’s obvious, but I want to change that. I need to change that. 

The air conditioning has been out at work since April, and I’m taking on some challenges that simultaneously excite me and scare me.  I have had a few moments in which I felt like crying and/or curling up in a ball, but as stressed as I’ve felt at some points, I’ve also experienced some awesome moments.

East Jefferson YMCAIf you keep up with me on social media you may know that I work at the YMCA. I do membership stuff and marketing things, which gives me an opportunity to reach the community in ways that are new and exciting for me. And right now we’re halfway through an 8-week painting class that I coordinated for children with special needs, and it brings me so much joy to see those kiddos enjoying themselves each week. Some of them are so talented that it would be hard to convey without just showing you. Maybe I’ll share some photos from our upcoming art gallery.

I’m also working on another project (the one that is challenging and slightly terrifying.) It’s not something I’m ready to discuss here yet, but the point is that work is good. I’m happier than I knew I could be in an office environment, and I’ll be much happier when I go in on Monday and the a/c works again. (I mean, it’s Summer in New Orleans.) My boss and I joked that we’re bringing our jackets because we’re going to freeze ourselves out.

It’s also an exciting month because my sister and nieces will be here in a few weeks. Auntie has  a long list of activities planned, so I definitely have to get energized before they arrive.

I’ve been pretty lazy with my exercise routine lately, so I’m starting TRX workouts next week with a few friends from work. I’m not sure what to expect, but I’m grateful for the opportunity to work with a trainer before I leave work.

I’m also sleeping more than I ever have. I’ve mentioned in previous posts that I require 7 to 8 hours of sleep now. I’m okay with that, but I know it will be a lot more beneficial if I release the stress that’s been lingering and spend more time exercising.

Hydro FlaskDrinking water also helped a lot lately. I still felt run down, but I felt much more alive than I did the week prior. I’ve committed to drinking more water, and I’m guessing that will help as well. I still don’t drink sodas, and I only drink coffee a few times a week. I just stopped consuming a gallon of water a day until I purchased my new Hydro Flask. It’s 32 oz, so I only need to fill it up 4 times to reach my daily goal. And I love the fact that it keeps the water cold all day! My sister gave me an 18 oz Hydro Flask a few years ago, and after losing it, I considered buying this one. I seriously wanted for about a year, and now I take it everywhere with me. I even brought it into Whole Foods today where I had lunch with my friend, Michelle. Wow, I suppose it would be an understatement to say that I’m stoked about my water bottle. Sometimes it’s the little things. Ha.

Now I’m back to recognizing my lack of self-discipline and trying to remind myself how much better I’ll feel a month from now…three months from now…if exercise is a part of my daily routine.

Today I’m going to stick to the basics and use one of my favorite workout DVD’s for motivation. 30-Day Shred used to bey go-to, and now that a certain someone has connected my DVD player, it’s on. It’s the quickest workout I do, but it also works every part of my body. I can handle  27 minutes of circuits even though I don’t feel like it.

Am I the only one who’s tired of being tired right now? I don’t know if anyone actually reads the things I write anymore, but I’m guessing that I’m not the only one who needs to work on consistency in my intake and exercise.

Maybe I’ll have some positive things to report soon…

 

 

 

 

Is This A Health Issue That Is A Result My Weight?

When I was at my heaviest I used to be tormented by my aching feet. Sure, I felt lethargic at times, but I felt genuine pain a lot too. It got so bad that I started seeing a podiatrist in the suburbs of New York City to get cortisone shots in the heels of my feet. My feel don’t bother me at all anymore, and they haven’t for years.  I have noticed something that used to occur though, and it’s troubling.

Before I started exercising regularly I would feel numbness on the outer part of my left thigh. It was so long ago that I forgot about it until I noticed it again about a month ago. I’ve noticed it enough lately that I’m talking about it here, which means that it’s happening more than I care to admit.

My blood pressure is on point, and my blood sugar is on point as well.  I don’t struggle to breathe, nor do I break a sweat going up a few flights of stairs. It doesn’t hurt; it just feels numb once in a while and only when I’m standing up.

I don’t have a family doctor anymore because the last one I went to is no longer at that office. The truth is I don’t visit the doctor often at all. I do a half-hearted yearly check-up, but that’s all. In keeping with the truth, this leg this is really starting to bother me, but I’m not sure what to do.

If I go to the doctor, I’ll undoubtedly hear a speech about how I need to lose weight because I do, but when I do go to the doctor, losing weight seems to be the ‘cure all’ for everything. Do I need to see a doctor to hear what I already know?

I was under a lot of stress in 2014 that I didn’t talk about here. Things are easing up now, but I know it’s had an effect on my body. Is that all it is? Could it be more?

I’ve never really been scared about my weight or my health. I’ve always been fortunate to feel pretty good, but I’m a little shaken. I guess the answer is obvious. I need to make some changes, and I probably need to make an appointment with a new doctor as well. (I dread that almost as much as flying coach.)

 

 

Friends, Fitness and Other Stuff

I know that I mentioned that I’m working on a new blog, but when I start thinking about replacing this one with something else, I start wondering if it’s a good idea.  The name obviously doesn’t have the same meaning as it did when I started writing here, but it feels like me.

It’s always been about so much more than weight-loss.  It’s about the reasons that I gained weight in the first place, the reasons that I struggle so much to lose it.  It’s about finding happiness and peace and strength to do the things that scare me and invigorate me.  I’ve found a lot of that through God, family, friends and my church, but I don’t know if I’m ready to let go of something that has been such an important tool for my growth.

Kenlie and Friends

The truth is that if I knew how to give this blog the facelift that it needs, I’d simply do that.  I just don’t know much about the technical part of blogging, which is why it’s always been so simple here.  Maybe I should work on figuring that out (even though the other blog name is pretty awesome too.)

In other news, school has started again, and I can’t decide which classes to take.  I also decided that I wouldn’t drink anything at Starbucks this month until after I completed a workout.  It’s my home away from home, and I think it’ll work as pretty good motivation.

Last night while I was comfortably knitting on my sofa, the fire alarms went off in my building.  I put my sneakers on and walked from my floor to the ground floor (because we couldn’t use the elevators,) then I quickly walked up several flights of stairs in the parking garage to get to my car so I could leave.  My heart was pounding a little by the end, but I looked at it as a bonus workout.

Knitting

I’m looking forward to September because I love this time of year.  I made an exercise goal that has nothing to do with numbers, and I’m looking forward to seeing how it impacts my health.

Is anyone else starting a new semester?  Do you have any goals for the month?

It’s Not Only About The Numbers

I don’t talk about my weight or (lack of) efforts here much here because I don’t see the point in it. I’ve gained weight, and I don’t like it. I know that I need to make some changes if I want my weight to change, blah, blah, blah…

I’d like to start seeing the numbers decrease again, but more importantly, I’d like to regain control of my habits.

It was a pretty simple process for me. Eat mostly healthy food, track it and exercise. Simple enough, but it’s not something that I’ve been focused on over the last year. I haven’t exactly given up on reaching my health goals, but I haven’t done anything to achieve them in a long, long time – until last week.

There’s something about Fitbloggin that makes you believe that you can do anything. It could be the fact that there are hundreds of people in the same place who recognize that it’s not easy even though they also realize it’s possible.

When I got home from Savannah I decided to make a simple change. I didn’t worry about changing anything except this – I decided to track my food.

It’s astoundingly easy to pass on the doughnuts when you’re calculating the calories and fat in them. For me, tracking food makes it real. I want to be proud of the things that I write down so I make better decisions. I drink more water. I try harder to do healthy things, and I feel better as a result.

I’m a week into tracking, and I don’t know what the scale says. I don’t care what it says, but I know my body. I know that I weigh a little less than I did last week because I’ve made good choices. That realization leads me to want to make more good choices.

Maybe I don’t have it all figured out, and maybe it will still be a struggle. Regardless, it’s been a long time since my food choices were intentional, and it makes me feel good.

Has anyone else noticed a difference in your food choices due to journaling them? Am I the only one who chooses an apple over a cookie when I know I’m about to write it down?

Making a Difference in a Big Way

I don’t always share the projects that I’m involved in on my blog, but if we’re connected on social media, you might know that I’m involved with a pretty incredible group of people who aren’t afraid to stand up and make a difference.

PlusInc is a nonprofit organization that is committed to giving a voice to people of all sizes, and among other things, I’m honored to be on the Board of Directors.

If you’ve read my blog for very long, then you probably know that I’ve faced some pretty harsh discrimination because  ‘I have the nerve to be plus-sized.’  And you may also know that while my goal is to get to a healthy weight, I believe that we should all be treated with respect regardless of size.

The Declaration of Independence doesn’t say that we have the right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness as long as we’re not obese.  As Americans, we’re citizens first, and at our core, we’re human beings first.

We’re the only species that is so strongly led by emotions, and I get it.  People fear what they don’t know, but when that fear turns into hatred or misplaced resentment, what started as ignorance becomes completely unnecessary a problem for all of us.

I’ve always been hesitant to affiliate myself with the size-acceptance movement because so many seem to think that we need to stay larger than average to sincerely believe in it, but PlusInc has taken the pressure off by accepting me as I am and allowing me to choose the path thats best for my life, so I’m all in.

To get involved, or to learn more, go to: http://www.plusinc.org/membership.html. You can also check us out on Facebook and Twitter.

 

Would You Be Offended?

After going (mostly) dark for a couple of weeks (and blogging sporadically before that) I realized that I have a lot to say here.  I just haven’t been making time to say it.  I’ve been busy, but I’m also having laptop issues which makes it easy to put things off until later.  Anyway, I’m back in blogging mode, and I’m curious what you all think of what someone said to me over the weekend.

I valet park across from my building.  They park my car, bring it down for me, help me carry heavy things, etc.  Some people think it’s a hassle, and it would be if the staff of valet boys weren’t friendly and helpful.  There are many valet guys at the garage, but several of them are really kind and attentive toward me.  They go the extra mile, and we’re friendly with each other.  I bake them cupcakes, and they carry heavy things.  It works.

A few days ago, I baked a batch of cupcakes for them and brought them down.  (I’m happy to do it because they see me carrying them so often for other people.)  My friend, Ariel, and I went into the office and sat for a few minutes while they enjoyed their little treats, and one of the guys started telling me that he wants to lose 30 pounds.  He’s one of the sweetest guys there, and he’s young and handsome and super skinny.  I looked at him like he was crazy, then I told him he was silly.  I didn’t think anything of it until Sunday night when he caught up with me as I was leaving.  This is how the conversation went:

J: Kenlie, Sweetheart…Did I say something to you that hurt your feelings? 

Me: What? No.  What makes you think that you did?

J: Well, the other night the guys got on me for the way I was talking, and I would never want to hurt you in any way.  You’re a great person, etc.

Me: Ohh..Do you mean when you were talking about how you need to lose 30 pounds? 

J: Yeah.  I mean, we all have insecurities, and I don’t want you to think I meant that you needed to change.  You’re great how you are.

Me: Nooooo, that didn’t hurt my feelings at all.  I think you’re cray cray, and that you’d look sick if you lost that.  But no….you didn’t hurt me at all.  You’re always so sweet.  We’re good. 

J: Oh, I’m so glad because I would never ever want to say anything or do anything to hurt you.  

 

Following the conversation I started thinking about why someone would be hurt by someone else’s desire to change their own body.  I can think of many people who might have taken that personally, but it didn’t occur to me to do so.  He was talking about himself, not me.

I’ve let me weight and my weight-loss and my need to lose more weight define who I am for a long time, but over the last several months (longer really) I have begun embracing myself.  I love a lot of things about me even though I don’t love the extra weight, and I no longer jump to conclusions or assume the worst when people around me are talking.

He was surprised (pleasantly, I think) that I wasn’t offended, but I can’t figure out why a bunch of dudes in the office thought I would be.  Too often, I think people make assumptions about me based on my size.  We all know it happens, but I know that they like me.  I know that they think I’m friendly and sweet, and I know that some of them would throw down if they saw someone trying to hurt me.

Should I have been offended by J’s assertion that he needs to lose weight?  Should I have taken it personally?  Should I be offended that they thought that I might be offended?

The bottom line is that I’m not offended so I guess there real question is – would you be offended?

 

Friend Makin’ Mondays: How Much Weight Have You Lost?

I am really looking forward to Monday because it will be the first full day of visiting with my sister and niece!  I’m always so excited about seeing them, and we have some fun things planned this week!  But first, it’s time for FMM!  My friend and fellow blogger, Alexa from The Curvy Nerd, came up with a great topic for next week so be sure to check back for that too because it’s going to be fun!

On her way to see Auntie!

 

If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section here at: www.alltheweigh.com so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please invite your blog readers to add their links here too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!

 

FMM: How Much Weight Have You Lost?  And what have you gained from losing it? (If you’re participating in FMM – and you’re not on a weight-loss journey, tell us about a powerful change you’ve made in your life!)

This is one of my favorite topics because I’ve gained so much since I started losing weight.  I’ve lost 131 pounds, and I’ve gained energy, confidence and a keen awareness that I’m stronger than I thought.  The last part is probably most important to me right now because I have a long road ahead.  And during this time of maintenance that I’ve been in, I feel like a winner for keeping off what I’ve lost.

 

Now it’s your turn!  Tell us about the changes you’ve experienced in your own life! And don’t forget to come back and link up! Happy Monday friends!!!